sitting on the couch and staring out of the window while we are driving towards the next city, i'm starting to wonder if i'm ever going to have that talk with Ashley? he's been avoiding me all week and it breaks my heart to small pieces every time he just walks by. and when i try to grab him, he just slides away like nothing ever happened...

- 6 hours later -

The buss stopped 1 hour ago, and i'm currently laying down on the grass outside, by a huge oak tree, i like to lay down outside and read a good book, this time i'm reading Fifty shades of grey not the first book but the second one, and the sound of the birds makes it even more peacefully, I've been talking allot to Jinxx this past week , about my time with my father, and what I've been missing while he was with my mom.. and how often they cried, because they couldn't find me.
my whole life I've been trapped at my dads but now, i'm happy and i have to brothers i cherish, and i got new friend who is there for me, and i got someone i love so much, but he won't talk to me, i got raped and now he doesn't want me anymore.. i just want to hear him speak to me again, even if it is for one last time..

"Hey sis" said Jinxx while he was eating something from the shop next door to the buss, he is having a time of the month where he eats allot.

"Heey.. whats up bro!" my voice sounded like i was about to shit my pants, he scared me allot when he said that.

"Nothing much, just wanted to spent some time with my sister" his face had a big smile on it, like something was bound to happen soon. it creeps me out sometimes when he has that smile on his face.

"Why do you have that Something great will happen soon smile on your face?"

He began to laugh and then he pointed at a direction where Ashley was standing with flowers and something in his other hand, and he was blushing hard time. Jinxx got up and raised a hand to me, he lifted me up and pushed me towards Ashley, i dropped my book and walked to Ash, when i was close he took my hand and said something that made me smile and cry at the same time.

"Hey babe.. I'm so sorry, i didn't want to avoid you but i didn't know what to do, and i want you to know that i'll protect you from now on, and here i have something for you.. hope you will forgive me.. i love you so much!" he blushed the all the time while saying that to me.

"I don't know what to say Ash, but i forgave you for quiet some time ago thought, i just wanted you to be there it still hurts and i can't live with myself, not when your not there, i love you so much" i began to cry, but Ashley push me to his chest and hugged me, i loved this feeling more than everything, he was the one i love, and i can't live without him

we were silent for some time, but then he pushed me away, and got down on one knee, was he going to propose to me, but we are not girl/boyfriend yet?? not really, what should i do.. i have to wait and see......While my head was trying to figure it out, he finally spoke and the words he said..well i love them<3

"Babe would you like to....aheemm.. be my girlfriend and then my....ahmm... wife later on?"he was blushing allot right now, and from the looks of it, he meant it.. he meant it all..

"I..i..i..would..love.......to!" i scream the last part and before i knew it all the boys where behind us clapping and wishing us congratulation, but i was crying out of happiness and i wanted to be his wife some day..

"Yees! and i think we should talk about what happened some other time, but now we have to celebrate, that we are together and we finally can start our lives together also, and i have something for you" he handed me a box where this beautiful ring was and then he gave me the flowers..

"I love you so much Ashley Purdy!<3" i said with the most beautiful smile I've ever had on my face.

He smiled and, slowly his head was in front of me and he kissed me, so softly and gentle, I've missed these kisses allot, and i don't want it to end ever

"But Ash why did you decide to ask me now ,and what happened?" i said after pulling myself away from him, even though i didn't wanted to.

"I had a Talk with Jinxx and it made it clear to me that i don't want to live my life without you, even though I've been hurting you lately.. and i'm so sorry i didn't want to hurt you like that, even though i carried you from the grass to the ambulance.. sorry" he was crying and i hurt me even more to see him like that, so i chanced the subject to something else and then we could go out and celebrate our new lives.

"It's okay.. but shouldn't we get ready for the party and then talk about this tomorrow or some other day, i just want you to be as happy as i am right now, and then we can have some amazing... ahmm ... sex later perhaps?" i love sex but i'm still nervous every time i'm having it with Ashley, it must be because he's the one i love more than everyone or everything in this world..

- Meanwhile in the bunk area -

I'm getting ready for the party tonight but i need something to wear and i'm sure i get the chance after I've meet Sammi . i heard someone getting in the room where i was undressing and when i turned around i got the biggest shock of all time, it was someone i thought i would never see again....

Notes

I've been editing this chapter allot and, i think the way the the lines where they speak is better, so i will remake the last chapters also (;
- sorry it took so long for this chapter to get out, but I've just recently pulled myself back up from a deep hole, and i'm ready to write some chapters again, but thanks for always reading this story and write comments, it makes it easier to make this story :D

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