The Destroyer
The Tour & Feelings locked up
Jinxx stopped crying and i was about to walk down to smoke when Jake stopped me
" Hey i'm really glad that you are the sister he has been missing for all those years, and i also think that it's more great it is you, because we already know you "
well i have to say i didn't expect Jake to be the first one to say thanks or even talk to me about Jinxx but i'm just glad he did.
" Thanks Jake, i'm happy to know you are okay with it, and also have you seen Ash he just walked out of the room right after he knew i was Jinxx sister?" Jake shacked his head, damn where did he go?
Well for now i want to smoke and after i might look for him, or i'll just go back to the boys an celebrate everything that happen, and we also have to leave for tour later on today.
After i smoked i tried to call Ash but he didn't answer so i wanted to knock at his door before heading for where the boys where, but ones again no answer, is he mad at me or? is it just to awkward, that i'm Jinxx sister or the fact that to of the boys in the band is my brothers???
i have to ask him about it later on though.
the boys have been so kind to me all day, helped me with my bags and all other things they could do for me they even gave me the bunk where me and Ash could sleep together, but right now i'm not to sure that Ash wants to sleep besides me, he entered the bus a few minutes ago but he didn't even say hi or anything.. but i really need to talk to him, i can't stand this silence right now, so i began to walked down to him.
when i got there i sat down besides Ash and said
" Ash why are you ignoring me?" then he looked at me and said
" It's just to awkward right now, you are Jinxx sister and all.... and yeah.. could you please leave me, i have to think about this right now"
what is he going to think about our relationship?? but why Jinxx is just my brother, but i know it is a bit awkward, but still why???
I've really beginning to have enough of this, i can't be with Ash if he have to be this way, or does he have a lover, anyway i'm going to drink so much that i can't stand on my feet tonight, then will he catch me or let me fall when i'm so drunk that i doesn't have the balance to stand? i'll just have to see, and i'm going to test it, does he really love me or not?
while the bus is heading for the next country i'm just sitting o the couch with Jake and playing some Racing games, and if you have to know i'm not bad at it at all, i haven't lost to a boy in a long time, and Jake is getting frustrating about losing to me all the time, then Jinxx sat down right next to me and to a controller and said
" Hey can i join you guys it looks like fun " we nod and started a new game, i must say Jinxx gave me a hard time, he pushed me to my limit in this game, i like it tho, brother and sister playing games and also the fact that we are good at it..
Hours went by and we were still playing, but not the same tho, and after some time CC and Andy had joined us in the game, Ash was still in his bunk, reading or watching something, then CC said
" whats wrong with Ash today?"
" I don't know, he thinks it's awkward or something" i said with an ice cold tone.
" Are you sure? you guys are not fighting are you?" Jinxx said pretty concerned
" No not what i know of, but he keeps on ignoring me though" then Jinxx got up and walked in the the bunk room. i think he is going to talk to Ash.
Well i don't care right now, i'm pretty pissed at him anyway, before long we will stop at the hotel in Germany, and i'm going out to drink and get some fun, with or without him anyway, and Jake has promised to get me drunk, and we are going to play some games at the pub, i can't wait i love that he always can cheer me up, and i want to have some more fun with CC to, Andy and Jinxx is going to take it slow today, but i'm not, this day will never be forgotten i'm sure of that.
later when we were drinking at the pub, some fans of Black Veil Brides showed up and began to ask some questions and also the wanted to know who i am and what i'm doing together with the guys, Jinxx just told them that tomorrow he will tell all the fans in the world who i am and what i am doing with them i know there properly will be some haters but i'm kind of used to it, i have allot of enemies back home anyway.
but that's not what is happening right now, i'm drinking and i'm drinking allot i can tell you, and Jinxx is concerned with me, but i wont stop and before i realize it, i'm about to fall, someone catches me and pulls me to a chair, when i look up it's a fan of Black Veil Brides who is trying to help me, And he runs back and forth after water and something to eat
" Thanks sweetie.. what's your name?" he began to blush and said
" i'm Matt.. and you?... ehm it's not like i'm stalking you or anything i just so you with the boys and you where getting pretty drunk and about to fall so" i smiled at him and in that moment i so Ash staring at me from the door way, looking pretty jealous
" Well then Matt.. thank you.. but i'll properly still be drinking for some time, would you like to join me?" he nod and followed me back to the tabled where I've been drinking alone for some time.
I've been talking to Matt for over an hour now, and his been telling me about himself, that his father works and live part time in Denmark, so that's why he could understand some of the things i said before falling, and his mother is German and working as a lawyer, and he just moved out and is living on his own, and yeah his 22 like me, we also have allot in common. and i think we are going to be best friends from now on.
the hours went by and Matt was about to leave when he said
" Please take care of yourself and don't fall, i can't catch you this time "
i nod and waved goodbye, then i sat down at the table again and began to drink, and when i wanted to go home 20 minutes later i was about to fall again on the street but this time i did fall without anyone to catch me, and i began to get tears in my eyes, i wanted Ash so badly, why would he leave ma alone like this why?
when i got up and trying to walked all the way back to the hotel, some random guy grabbed me and pulled me into a ally and he said
" Well well looks like i have a pretty little girl here i can have some fun with" i tried to scream but i couldn't, then he dragged me to a car and tied me up in the back of the car, driving me away to who knows, when we arrived he grabbed my arm an pulled me to the ground, ripping my clothes off, i screamed but we were some place no one could hear me, he took his pant of and his thing got inside me, he was going to rape me and the only thing i could scream was ASHLEY!!!
4 hours later
I woke up on the ground where he raped me, and he was not there anymore, the last thing i remember where that i tried so much to get free from his grab and escape, i found my phone laying some meters away from me, i tried to call Jinxx, Jake CC and Andy but not one of them took their phone, so the last one to call was Ashley, but i'm scared to tell him what happened, and i can't stop crying, my fingers won't call him but i have to, for some seconds i didn't think he would answer but he did
" Hello it's Ashley"
" Ash it's me Kea... I've been.....raped " i said crying and crying, it hurts all over my body and i just want Ash to hold me in his arms, i didn't think he would do what he did,
" Kea where are you? please tell me.. and i'm so sorry for not being there for you, please tell me where you are?" i tried to tell him where i was, but it was no were
30 minutes later i heard sirens all over and a black SUV stopped behind one of the police cars, when the door opened my body passed out, i was at my limit but, now i would be safe... Ashley was here....
" Hey i'm really glad that you are the sister he has been missing for all those years, and i also think that it's more great it is you, because we already know you "
well i have to say i didn't expect Jake to be the first one to say thanks or even talk to me about Jinxx but i'm just glad he did.
" Thanks Jake, i'm happy to know you are okay with it, and also have you seen Ash he just walked out of the room right after he knew i was Jinxx sister?" Jake shacked his head, damn where did he go?
Well for now i want to smoke and after i might look for him, or i'll just go back to the boys an celebrate everything that happen, and we also have to leave for tour later on today.
After i smoked i tried to call Ash but he didn't answer so i wanted to knock at his door before heading for where the boys where, but ones again no answer, is he mad at me or? is it just to awkward, that i'm Jinxx sister or the fact that to of the boys in the band is my brothers???
i have to ask him about it later on though.
the boys have been so kind to me all day, helped me with my bags and all other things they could do for me they even gave me the bunk where me and Ash could sleep together, but right now i'm not to sure that Ash wants to sleep besides me, he entered the bus a few minutes ago but he didn't even say hi or anything.. but i really need to talk to him, i can't stand this silence right now, so i began to walked down to him.
when i got there i sat down besides Ash and said
" Ash why are you ignoring me?" then he looked at me and said
" It's just to awkward right now, you are Jinxx sister and all.... and yeah.. could you please leave me, i have to think about this right now"
what is he going to think about our relationship?? but why Jinxx is just my brother, but i know it is a bit awkward, but still why???
I've really beginning to have enough of this, i can't be with Ash if he have to be this way, or does he have a lover, anyway i'm going to drink so much that i can't stand on my feet tonight, then will he catch me or let me fall when i'm so drunk that i doesn't have the balance to stand? i'll just have to see, and i'm going to test it, does he really love me or not?
while the bus is heading for the next country i'm just sitting o the couch with Jake and playing some Racing games, and if you have to know i'm not bad at it at all, i haven't lost to a boy in a long time, and Jake is getting frustrating about losing to me all the time, then Jinxx sat down right next to me and to a controller and said
" Hey can i join you guys it looks like fun " we nod and started a new game, i must say Jinxx gave me a hard time, he pushed me to my limit in this game, i like it tho, brother and sister playing games and also the fact that we are good at it..
Hours went by and we were still playing, but not the same tho, and after some time CC and Andy had joined us in the game, Ash was still in his bunk, reading or watching something, then CC said
" whats wrong with Ash today?"
" I don't know, he thinks it's awkward or something" i said with an ice cold tone.
" Are you sure? you guys are not fighting are you?" Jinxx said pretty concerned
" No not what i know of, but he keeps on ignoring me though" then Jinxx got up and walked in the the bunk room. i think he is going to talk to Ash.
Well i don't care right now, i'm pretty pissed at him anyway, before long we will stop at the hotel in Germany, and i'm going out to drink and get some fun, with or without him anyway, and Jake has promised to get me drunk, and we are going to play some games at the pub, i can't wait i love that he always can cheer me up, and i want to have some more fun with CC to, Andy and Jinxx is going to take it slow today, but i'm not, this day will never be forgotten i'm sure of that.
later when we were drinking at the pub, some fans of Black Veil Brides showed up and began to ask some questions and also the wanted to know who i am and what i'm doing together with the guys, Jinxx just told them that tomorrow he will tell all the fans in the world who i am and what i am doing with them i know there properly will be some haters but i'm kind of used to it, i have allot of enemies back home anyway.
but that's not what is happening right now, i'm drinking and i'm drinking allot i can tell you, and Jinxx is concerned with me, but i wont stop and before i realize it, i'm about to fall, someone catches me and pulls me to a chair, when i look up it's a fan of Black Veil Brides who is trying to help me, And he runs back and forth after water and something to eat
" Thanks sweetie.. what's your name?" he began to blush and said
" i'm Matt.. and you?... ehm it's not like i'm stalking you or anything i just so you with the boys and you where getting pretty drunk and about to fall so" i smiled at him and in that moment i so Ash staring at me from the door way, looking pretty jealous
" Well then Matt.. thank you.. but i'll properly still be drinking for some time, would you like to join me?" he nod and followed me back to the tabled where I've been drinking alone for some time.
I've been talking to Matt for over an hour now, and his been telling me about himself, that his father works and live part time in Denmark, so that's why he could understand some of the things i said before falling, and his mother is German and working as a lawyer, and he just moved out and is living on his own, and yeah his 22 like me, we also have allot in common. and i think we are going to be best friends from now on.
the hours went by and Matt was about to leave when he said
" Please take care of yourself and don't fall, i can't catch you this time "
i nod and waved goodbye, then i sat down at the table again and began to drink, and when i wanted to go home 20 minutes later i was about to fall again on the street but this time i did fall without anyone to catch me, and i began to get tears in my eyes, i wanted Ash so badly, why would he leave ma alone like this why?
when i got up and trying to walked all the way back to the hotel, some random guy grabbed me and pulled me into a ally and he said
" Well well looks like i have a pretty little girl here i can have some fun with" i tried to scream but i couldn't, then he dragged me to a car and tied me up in the back of the car, driving me away to who knows, when we arrived he grabbed my arm an pulled me to the ground, ripping my clothes off, i screamed but we were some place no one could hear me, he took his pant of and his thing got inside me, he was going to rape me and the only thing i could scream was ASHLEY!!!
4 hours later
I woke up on the ground where he raped me, and he was not there anymore, the last thing i remember where that i tried so much to get free from his grab and escape, i found my phone laying some meters away from me, i tried to call Jinxx, Jake CC and Andy but not one of them took their phone, so the last one to call was Ashley, but i'm scared to tell him what happened, and i can't stop crying, my fingers won't call him but i have to, for some seconds i didn't think he would answer but he did
" Hello it's Ashley"
" Ash it's me Kea... I've been.....raped " i said crying and crying, it hurts all over my body and i just want Ash to hold me in his arms, i didn't think he would do what he did,
" Kea where are you? please tell me.. and i'm so sorry for not being there for you, please tell me where you are?" i tried to tell him where i was, but it was no were
30 minutes later i heard sirens all over and a black SUV stopped behind one of the police cars, when the door opened my body passed out, i was at my limit but, now i would be safe... Ashley was here....
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10/22/14