where am i?

"what day is it?" i ask turning to andy,
"june 11th?" he say and i instantly drop my bottle of Smirnoff.
"andy! do u know what today is?" i ask
"happy birthday beautiful." he says, i immediately frown, "whats wrong?"
"nothing, im fine." i say and turn away from andy,
"no your not." andy says with concern spreading across his face.
"i just don't like it when people call me beautiful." i say, still not able to look at his dreamy eyes
"and why the hell not?" andy spat,
"because im ugly." still not able to look at him, i excuse myself, and run upstairs, slam my door and lock it, i run a bath, grab my box of razors and go to work, starting with my arms, i cut all down them, then all over my sides and stomach, than my legs, i then get into the cold bath and wash all my cuts off. i put on a bra and a thong, not ready to put clothes on and fall asleep, i had forgotten to drain the bathtub. all of the sudden i hear a knock on the door, but im just too tired to get up and open it, i feel week, i cant move.
andysPOV:
"because im ugly!" she screams at me, then she runs and i try to chase her, i thought about it and ill just give her a few min, after about and hour and no emmaliee i decided to go up to her room. i knock on her door, no answer. i knock louder, still no answer. i start screaming "emmaliee" and try to kick the door in, it finally popped open, to reveal a cut up princess that didn't think she was beautifull laying on the bed, i stop in the doorway and glance to my left, it looked like a murder scene in there, blood everywhere, and the bathtub, full of bloody water, i ran to emmaliee, shaking her to wake up, i can tell she is awake, just physically exhausted from all the blood loss, i scream for nonie, and she comes running, seeing what happened she tells me to grab em and follow her, we walk about 3 doors down and walk into another bathroom, nonie starts shoveling ice from the ice machine in the bathtub, not a whole lot, just enough to cover the bottom. she fills the tub up with cold water.
"put her in it" nonie says.
"okay, but why?" i ask as i put her in an ice bath.
"it will wake her up, im used to doing tthis, well, i was" "she had stopped for a while, but i figured that she would start again soon." she says while pulling up her arms wrapping them so they stop bleeding.
emmalies POV:
"what are you doing" i ask sleepily.
"trying to stop the bleeding babe" nonie says. i realized what i had done, i immediately started apologizing.
"its fine hun, just please stop doing this to yourself" "please" nonie says sympathetically.
"okay." was all i could say, nonie left but i felt someone watching me, i turn around and see those beautiful blue eyes, glassy and disappointed, i jump up so fast trying to find something to cover my body with, concidering im only wearing my under garments, that i fall to the ground, andy walks to the closet and pulls out a towl, helps me up and wraps me in it.
"why do you do this to yourself?" he asked
"it just feels right." i say, but he just looks down at his feet,
" you know like when you were a kid and you stumped your toe or something?" i ask , he juts nods his head
"and your parents would tell you to smash your finger and you would forget about the other pain?" he nods again
"that's why, it makes me forget about he other pain somethimes, but most of the time, it just hurts in both places." i start to cry. andy picks me up and carries me to my room, bridal style, and places me on my bed, he walks into my closet and hands me a pair of leggings and a long tank top, but my unders are still soaking, he notices me look down at my bra and walks back into the closet and comes back out with a bra and some underwear,
"ill go clean up the bathroom, call me when your done getting dressed." i nod, i call him back after a few minuets and we go downstairs, he grabs my hand and says "what do u wanna do to day, i jus shrug. he giggles as he walks me out to his car.

Notes

sorry if my chapters are short, it feels like i had been writing forever, but i have not really written much.
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love, emmaliee. :*