where am i?

Andys POV:


Emmaliee mumbles something, I think she said ‘I love you’ then I heard the noise I never, EVER, wanted to hear, the loud, continuous beep, they start CPR, and I just sit there, and cry, I feel paralyzed, then before I know it we are at the hospital, I see my car, so I know the guys are here, they rush in with her, and immediately take her to ICU. I’m told I have to go wait in the waiting room
I walk up, and see way more people than I expected, I see Jake, jinxx with Naomi, Ashley, cc, samii, Ella, all of MIW, SWS, PTV, OM&M, and ATL, I walk in, and they all look at me, like sad children, then cc says,
“Is she okay?”
“no, she flat-lined, and they are trying to give her CPR, they told me I couldn’t be back there” I said, I’ve never cried in front of the guys before, but it seems like for the past few days, that’s all I’ve done, but right now, I was bawling, everything was blurry, and I felt like I could barely stand, then I feel someone hugging me, I look up and see samii hugging me, I notice I’m sitting on the ground, and pretty soon, everyone is on the ground with me, in a big group hug, we eventually break apart, and sit down, we are taking up the whole waiting room.
After about two hours, a nurse comes out, and says,
“Who is with emmaliee Biersack” we all stand up, and she says
“she is in a coma, we have found severe dehydration, and several broken bones, and alot of internal bleeding, we are doing all we can, but we don’t know when she is going to wake up, you may go back and see her, but only two at a time.”
“I ask who wants to go first, and everyone says they do, but they decide Vic should go first.
We walk back to her room, I just cry, she has bruises, stitches, and casts everywhere, and a lot of ivs, she also has a breathing tube. She doesn’t even look like herself.
“I’m sorry andy” vic says, I just tell him it’s okay, then he leaves to go get someone else, after about an hour, everyone has been in to see her, Chris comes in, and says,
“me and Ricky, are gonna go back to the busses, jinxx gave us a key, and we are gonna get some stuff for Naomi, and watch her tonight, we will be back in the morning, I hope things get better” I just nod, then he gives me a hug, and walks over and rubs Emmaliees hand, and leaves, leaving me and emmaliee alone, I hold her hand, and talk to her, hoping she can hear me,
“hey baby, if you can hear me, I love you too, just know that your stronger than this, you can get thru anything, and I know it, the guys are here, all of them, and samii and Ella, but Ricky and Chris took Naomi for the night, I know she misses you, she has been saying, ‘mommy’ for the past few days, emmaliee, I need you, please wake up, please” after a few minutes, I start singing done for you, remembering how that would always calm her, or wake her up when he passed out.
I finished singing, then I heard a woman say,
“That was beautiful.”
I look up, and see a nurse
“Thanks, it always calmed her down, when she had panic attacks and stuff, it always calms our daughter down too” I say, not wanting to look up
“Well, I have some good news” she says
“What is it?”
“The cancer is gone” she says, I look up, and she has a half smile, I smile back at her and say
“That’s great, she would be so happy, she’d probably start jumping around and saying something that I can’t understand in Spanish” I say, smiling to myself
“we still don’t know when she is going to wake up, but I think you should keep talking and singing to her, they say that when someone is in a coma, they can hear everything going on around them, it might help her wake up sooner” she smiles at me, then walks out
I sent Jake a text, and tell him that they said the cancer was gone, then I hear many sets of boots walking towards me, I look up and see everyone, I ask how they got back here, and Alex said,
“head nurse is a fan, I gave her my autograph, and she said we could all come back, since visiting hours were over, and no one else was back here.” I smile, and they all hug me, then they all squeeze into the tiny room, and shut the door, and the curtains, I tell them
“The nurse said it might help her wake up if we keep talking and singing to her”
Alex starts singing savior, and we all soon join in, but quietly, so we don’t disturb any other patients, the nurse comes in after about 20 min, and says that it’s time for them to go, I ask vic to stay, and he does, and everyone else leaves.



*****four months later*****



All the guys come here on a daily basis, but me and vic never leave, I sit in the waiting room and play with Naomi for a little while during the day, and eat and stuff like that, they have moved her to a regular room now, so as many people as we want can go in, except when the drs come in, but I don’t want Naomi seeing her mom like that, she’s to young, but she talks a lot now, she always asks me, “daddy, where’s mommy? And when can I see mommy” it makes me want to cry, but I can’t, I have to tell my child that everything is okay, and that she will see her soon.

Jinxx comes out, and Naomi runs to him, he tells me that she’s moving a little, and I might want to go in there now, I tell Naomi goodbye, and jinxx takes her back to the bus.

I walk into the room, and see emmaliee moving around slightly, she does this every great once in a while, I walk in, and grab her hand, but this time, she tightens her grip a little, I smile, and sing to her, she doesn’t wake up, but for the next few days, she holds my hand tight, and moves around a lot, we all wear a ‘team emmaliee’ shirt, daily, we have gotten so many, and each fan sends them in by the dozens, we finally told the fans what was going on, they all leave nice comments on my twitter, and Instagram, daily, I love our fans, they are just amazing.

Notes

so, I know where im going with this, so im sorry if im rushing it, im probably going to update againg tonight, im trying to sspread this out :)


--emmaliee--