where am i?

I tell the guys to do something, so I can sneak away for a few minutes, because I can’t get ahold of anyone on the bus, and I have a feeling something is wrong.
They nod, and we all stand up, they walk out, and start taking pictures with people, and I run to the bus, which isn’t far away.
I open the door, and see everyone sleeping, and I walk to Naomi’s room, and see Emmalee, holding Naomi, singing to her, she looks up, and smiles at me, not a half smile, or a fake smile, but a real one.
she looks at me and says, exactly what I have been wanting to hear; “I’m sorry I’ve been acting weird, this was just all such a shock to me, but we can get thru this, I love you so much Andy, your my rock, I couldn’t live without you.” I just kiss her, then say “oh, shit. I have to get back to the meet and greet, come withme baby?” she agrees, and walks out to the living room, andjumps on Vic and kellin, yelling “wake up bitches!” they jump, and she tells them she’s going to the meet and greet, they nod and go back to sleep.
We hurry back, and I sit in my seat, the guys walk back, and see em sitting on my knee, her usual spot, and give her awkward half smiles, she just smiles wide and they all chuckle a little bit.
we finish the meet and greet, and go back to the bus, that was our last show, for the us part of the tour, so we have some time off, we thought we had a few more, but they got canceled, due to weather, so we are on our way back to LA. Kellin and Kaitlynn are riding home on the bus with us, they still have Copeland, but em says she can share Naomi’s room, since Naomi is sleeping thru the night now.
Emmalee take Naomi and Copeland, and put them to bed, they come back out and I smile, and say “let’s play ‘beer hunter’ we haven’t played that in years!”
“What’s that?” Kaitlynn asks
“well, you get a box, and put in as many beers as you have people, the one who doesn’t drink, shakes one up, a lot, and puts it randomly in the box, everyone points their beer towards their face, and opens it, whoever’s explodes is out, and it keeps going till there is only one person left, also the first out has to clean up the mess, but we put towels down, so it doesn’t get too messy, and everyone who’s beer didn’t explode, has to drink the whole beer.”
“yes!” yells cc, he has never been out before, that’s why he wants to play, everyone agrees, and I go to the store to buy beer, a lot of beer, and come back

Kaitlynn says she wants to be the one who doesn’t drink, so we start playing, she shakes one up, and puts it in the box, no one can see cause we are on the floor, she brings the box, everyone gets a beer, and she says “1, 2, 3, go!”
Everyone opens a beer, and jinx is out first, we go again, then its Ashley, then Vic, then Jake, then cc, I scream ‘victory!’ as ccs explodes on him for the first time ever.
everyone laughs, then we go again, it’s just me, em, and kellin, kellins explodes next, then it’s just me and my baby, I look at her and say “whoever wins gets to be on top next time” everyone ‘ews’ like little kids, and we just laugh, em says “deal” it’s always a battle for who gets to be on top, but I always end up on top anyways.
Kaitlynn brings out the box, and Emmalee picks first, Kaitlynn says “1, 2, 3, go!” and me and em open ours, mine explodes, then Emmalee starts drinking hers, but laughs so hard she nearly chokes, then we have a war.
everyone ends up running outside with beer cans, shaking them and pouring them on each other, it was fun, really fun though, because Emmalee is really lightweight, and has had 6 and a half beers.
she goes inside and comes out with 2 Smirnoff’s, and hands one to me, Kaitlynn goes inside, and kellin follows her, Emmalee screams ‘no sex on the couch!’ and everyone laughs.
we end up sitting at a bench playing strip poker, em got mad because I made her stop when she got down to her thong and bra, but I didn’t want her taking anything else off, knowing she would regret it in the morning.
Jake said “let’s go to a bar dude” I laugh because Emmalee starts cheering, I tell her she is already drunk enough, but she just keeps begging, I finally give in and we all get into the van.
jinx drives because he has only had a half a beer, we end up going to a little bar, with only a few people, I buy the first round of shots, it’s sort of a band tradition for the first round to be Seagram’s 7 we all take our shots, and Ashley starts flirting with a waitress, and em climbs on my lap and starts kissing me, I smile halfway thru the kiss, and pull away and say
“You’re so drunk”
“Mmm, but you are too” she says
“Babe, I’m not that drunk, unlike you I can actually hold my alcohol” I reply, with a smirk
“Oh just admit it, you love it when I’m drunk.” She slurs, I just laugh
“Hey babe?” she says, with seriousness
“What princess?”
“If I have cancer, will you still love me when um ugly and bald?”
“baby, you could never be ugly, and baldness definitely won’t make you ugly, I will still love you, I always have, and I love you more and more each day, but we don’t even know if you have cancer yet, but if you do, and you lose your hair, I will too, don’t worry about a thing baby, I’ll always be here for you, I’m your rock, remember?”
“Mhm” was all she could say, between sobs, she eventually falls asleep, in the bar, on my lap, but I don’t care, I just wrap my arm around her, and sit there, thinking.
I am snapped out of my thoughts by a waitress, she asks me if I need anything, and I tell her I need a beer, she laughs and walks away, she comes back with my beer, I finish it, I’m pretty sure I’m drunk now, jinx walks up and says,
“I finally got the guys rounded up and into the van, u ready to go?”
I nod and put my arm under ems legs and stand up, I stumble a little, but I carry her to the car we get in, and I put her in the seat, and put her seatbelt on her, she mumbles something and falls back asleep.
The rest of the ride home was silent, with a few mumbles from the guys, who were way drunk than me.
We get to the bus, and I pick Emmalee up, and carry her to the bunk, I ask the guys to get out, then help her into one of my shirts, and then onto a bunk, I wasn’t sure who’s it was, but we all end up asleep in someone else’s bunk when we get drunk, I just feel bad for whoever ends up in ours.
**next morning**

Emmalee’s POV:

I am woken up by ‘the legacy’ blaring thru my phone, I fumble around to find it, before it wakes anyone else up, and I finally find it and answer it,
“Hello?”
“Yes, is this Emmalee biersack?”
“Yes, what’s going on?”
“We got your test results back, and I’m sorry to tell you this, but you have cancer.”
I drop the phone, and fall to my knees, and sob, I didn’t care who woke up, the news I just received, broke me, into millions upon millions of pieces.

Andy’s POV:

I hear a loud thud, and notice em isn’t in bed anymore, I quickly get out and see her on the ground, crying,

“Mrs. Biersack?” I hear from the phone, I pick it up, and say “hello”
“Hi, is this Mr. Biersack?”
“Yes, who is this?”
“My name is Janice, I’m from the hospital, we got our test results back, and I’m sorry to say this, but your wife has cancer” I’m in shock right now, but I say
“Thank you” and hang up.
I look up to Vic, Ashley, jinx, Jake, cc, kellin, and Kaitlynn, with worried expressions on their faces, then I hear Naomi cry,
“I’ll go get her” Kaitlynn says
“Thank you” I say
Jake mouths ‘what’s wrong?’ and I mouth back ‘its cancer’ then scoot over to em, she doesn’t look up, she just sits there, and cry’s, I can’t even imagine how she feels right now, I just want for this to all just be a dream.

Emmalee’s POV:

I don’t even know what to think right now, I’ve just been told the worst news I’ve ever heard in my life, I have cancer, what do I do?


Andy’s POV:

She finally looks up at me and says “I’m sorry” then looks back down,
I tilt her head up and say,
“Baby, don’t even say that right now, you have nothing to be sorry for.”
“Andy, I ruined your life, you married me so I wouldn’t get deported, then I had a baby, and now I have cancer, all I do is cause you problems, when you should be enjoying your life, you were probably living the dream before me, you probably all were, sleeping with whoever you wanted, getting wasted whenever you wanted, without having to worry about ‘who’s gonna stay sober and watch the baby’ and now you have to worry about me, I don’t want that, all I want if for you to be happy, but how are you supposed to do that when I’m always causing problems.”
She got up and ran into the bathroom, last time she lashed out on me like that was the first time I called her beautiful, and I don’t want what happened that day to happen again, I can’t let it happen again.
I run after her, with Vic behind me, and catch her right before she slams the door I put my hands up to it, she tries to push it closed, but I’m stronger, but not by much, she slides down the door, and sits in front of it.
“baby, please come out” I ask, she ignores me, and says something in Spanish, Vic moves closer to the door and says “it’s going to be okay, come out an let us help you” followed by a ‘please’ from me, she stands up, and I open the door and hug her, then Vic hugs her, she cry’s, for a long time, with us just standing there holding her, Vic pulls back and says
“stop crying, you have to sing tonight, I bet anything you’re gonna get signed, it’s gonna be so amazing, I remember how it felt my first time I got a record deal, finally getting to record your own songs, and sing live for real fans, it’s gonna be great, and your gonna kick cancers ass, so don’t worry sissy, it will be okay, and you will have fun, I will make sure of it.”
I just smile and say me too, and kiss her forehead she looks up at me, then Vic and says,
“You guys are amazing, I love you both so much.”
We finally got back to LA. And Emmalee couldn’t wait to go see Nonie.
I have become really close with Nonie over the past 3 months, since Naomi was born, she told me about fun times they had together, and even sad times.
Nonie told me that they had been friends since they were 8, and when emmaliees dad died, they sold his house, which was basically a mansion from what I understand, his horses and cows, his land, his boat, and his four vehicles, and moved to LA.
The condo that they live in mow was really cheap, because it had been on the market for 6 years, they had to remodel a few rooms, and chose to add some stiff, like a refrigerated underground room, and a pool, and when they had finished, they still had a good amount of money, Emmalee bought a car, and put the rest in a stock to gain interest, after three years, it went from 500,000 to 2,000,000 so they never really had it rough except for ems depression.

I’m snapped out of my thoughts by Emmalee squealing like a 6 year old, as we pulled up to the condo and saw Nonie standing outside, Emmalee practically leapt out of the tour bus to hug her, I mean, we have been on tour for six months, that’s the longest they have been apart.
In pulled off the bus by Jake, who I’m pretty sure has a crush on Nonie, the girls look at me and giggle, and I say “what?”
“Babe?” Emmalee says, with a giggle.
“What Hun?” I say kind of confused
“Whose house are we going to move back into?”
“I laugh and say “well, my house is a lot smaller, and not paid off, and Nonie would have nowhere to go, so I guess yours, if that’s alright?”
They shriek like little girls and say ‘yes’ in sync, I laugh and walk in carrying Naomi, Nonie laughs and takes her and tells us she made one of the rooms into Naomi’s, and she tried to baby-proof the house the best she could, I just smiled and said, ‘’let’s go check it out’’
We walk up the stairs, and walk down a few rooms and walk into the cutest baby room ever, she painted it dark purple, and back, with all black stuff in it, I smiled, and put Naomi down in the crib, since it was her nap time, and walked down stairs with a baby monitor.
Emmalee looks at me and says “tell Naomi about the good news tonight?” I smile and tell her everything, she cheers and hugs em, then em says, “I guess we should tell you the bad news too”
“What are you talking about? Asked Nonie,
“Nonie, I have cancer”

Notes

soooo, I feel really shitty, I haven't been updating regularly, then I got wifi, then I got grounded, im so sorry, but I have finished chapters to update, so ill do two or three updates tonight.:) sorry my lovelys,

love, emmaliee.