The Moment

Ash's POV
"That's because I'm up here." I said after grabbing Rain and lifting her up.
"Ew, Ash stop! You're getting me completely wet!" Rain squealed.
"Maybe you should think twice before launching a water balloon war on me!" I spoke playfully while setting her down.
She looked up at me-being that I'm standing while she's on the ground-and had a mischievous look in her eyes.
Slowly she stood up and hugged me, but I knew something wasn't right especially after she gave me that look.
I heard C.C and Andy whispering off to the side of us and concluded that the must be planning something.
Once Rain pulled away from me I backed up to the wall, and lucky me it was the one with the bucket of balloons near it.
While they weren't paying attention I picked up a balloon and concealed it behind me.
I quickly reached for another and did the same.
Andy and C.C were still whispering to each other, but looked saddened if you studied their faces.
It has to be part of their plan.
I brought one balloon from behind me and hurled it at the two, and took the other and flung it at Rain.
SPLAT!
Both balloons hit their targets dead on.
"Fucking Christ Ashley. What the hell was that for? We didn't throw any at you!" Andy hollered
"You were going to though."
"Ash... you better hope you didn't get my iPod wet! That thing is my baby, all of my music is on it!" Rain growled while reaching to check her iPod.
"You better be more worried about your phone... You're going to need it in a few days." C.C whispered.
"Why's that?"
"Remember what Saturday is, Ashley? Or did you forget?" Spoke Andy.
Saturday? Saturday... Oh! Saturday is the end of our break from touring.
I really did forget.
" It's the end of our break..."
" And we expect you're going to want to keep in contact with Rain, right?" C.C said in response.
" Well, I was thinking we would bring her with us." I said in my 'matter-of-fact' tone.
"Don't you think her mom would be upset if she left?" Andy asked.
Rain immediately stepped in at that moment.
"My mom is an alcoholic that doesn't care about me..." she said leaving out the abusive part, " don't make me stay with her guys, please."
After a few minutes of thinking Andy and C.C agreed to letting Rain come, but they said that Jinxx and Jake had to approve too before it was a done deal.
Rain's face lit up with happiness as they said that she could come.
"YAY! I don't have to stay here!" She screamed.
"If Jake and Jinxx approve." C.C added.
"Oh they love her, of course they're going to approve."
We climbed down the ladder and headed to Rain's house to dry off and ask Jake and Jinxx.
Rain's POV
When we walked in there was Jake and Jinxx sitting on the couch.
"Way to make yourselves comfortable guys." I joked.
"We couldn't resist, I mean look how big this thing is!" Jake defended.
I made my way to the couch and plopped down next to Jinxx.
The whole way back I've tried to think of a way to ask them if they are okay with me coming.
Unfortunately, I haven't figured out how I will yet.
Maybe I should just straight out tell them and hope for the best.
No... that could end worse.
Maybe I should butter them up by bringing out some food and booze.
Yea, I think that would be good.
I stood up and walked into the kitchen.
Hmmmmm.
There's a frozen pizza, I can throw that into the oven.
Looking around I found some cookies, chips, and other random food items.
I put everything (including the pizza I cooked while looking for everything else) onto a tray and grabbed some booze.
Slowly and carefully I brought everything out and set it down in front of the boys.
"So Rain, while you were gone we were talking about you coming on tour with us..." Jake started before cramming a slice of pizza in his mouth.
"And we decided," Jinxx said and took a long pause, " it would be awesome if you came with us."
That made me the happiest person in the world.
"YAAAYYYYYY!" I shouted while jumping next to Jinxx and hugging him.
We sat, talked, and ate for a while after that.
Every now and then someone would tell a joke, causing everyone to laugh until their stomach hurt.
Eventually I got Skylar over and she joined in on our fun.
Soon everyone, except me, fell asleep either by intoxication or just tired.
While laying down on one end of the couch I decided that tomorrow we should have a real party with everyone.
Of course for the reason of celebrating me not having to be stuck with an alcoholic anymore.
For the time being I was happy, but the longer I sat there this little thing called depression started tugging on my brain and heart.
I was going to be leaving my home, even though being here has been hell I still love it.
I have so many memories of me and my dad here.
Not to mention the fact I'll be leaving Skylar here.
She's been here the whole time while almost everyone I've gotten close to has walked out of my life as fast as they walked in.
Soon emotions and bad memories started to flood in, like the dam having my idols now turned friends (and boyfriend) have put up has burst open.
I get up to find the one thing that helps make it all go away, well temporarily at least.
I make my way into my room, and go to my dresser.
Opening the top draw, I lift a secret panel that holds my little friend.
I grab it and slowly walk into my bathroom while I look at the small blade in my hand.
Sitting down on my toilet I contemplate whether I should do it or not.
"Come on Rain, it's going to help you" my conscious whispers to me.
"But, it's going to hurt Skylar and maybe Ashley too if they find out."
"You don't know that sweetie, do it, you need to think about yourself right now. Just do it."
"Okay" I say quietly as my voice cracks.
I slide the blade across my skin once, twice, three times, twenty times until I feel a bit better.
Some are deeper than others, and I just look at my bloody arm.
"I shouldn't have done this.... but once more for good measure" I sob as I drag it across my skin hardly one last time.
I let the blood drip down my arm for a while before I start to clean up all of the blood and bandage my wrist up.
"You did good, honey" my conscious says to me as I cuddle up to Ash on the floor.
I look at his face and feel guilt crash down on me.
He would be so disappointed if he found out about this.
He can never find out about this. I will not do it again.
"Never again" I whisper before my world turned black.

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