The Devil in the Mirror

Rose's POV:

I was stunned, shocked, hurt, angry, upset, numb, pissed off, and nervous all at once A real turmoil of emotions cast upon me in a forever downpour, and I only wanted was for someone to save me, maybe bring an umbrella and shield me from this endless rain of hurt. But I was in this alone.

I was seated on Andy's bunk, the bunk that used to be my own, and Andy gently cleaned my face. My tears had caused for my leftover makeup to create ugly dark streaks and smudges across my face, and the bruise wasn't helping. The wound wasn't actually too bad, it hurt to look at because it reminded me of who put it there, my boyfriend, the person who was supposed to protect me from harms way, not create it.

Andy was furious, as were the other members of BVB who were closer to me than my own family. Ashley had wanted to kick Chris' ass for what he did to me, and Chris and Ashley were friends. CC and JInxx had witnessed the damage first-hand, and were pacing the front of the bus while they filled Jake and Ash in on everything.

i winced as Andy applied pressure to the cut the was leaking blood down my cheek, and he offered a sad, apologetic smile, "I'm so sorry, Rosie. This is all my fault."

I frowned, "Andy, look at me. This is not your fault at all. You were defending me, and well, Chris was being rather persistent, and was probably drunk. So it was self-defence. And what happened to me, well he wasn't trying to intentionally trying to hurt me, and i know that's no excuse, but still."

Andy sighs and pulls me to his chest. The gesture is somewhat awkward considering our past, but I let the thought slip away and rest my head on his shoulder.

"I don't want you staying with him anymore. You can stay on our bus, we've still got your old bunk," he says, his eyes lighting up slightly at the idea.

I shake my head and his hopeful expression drops, "I'm sorry, but I can't. Well, I shouldn't at least. I need to talk to him, sort this out. I can't have another relationship ruined due to lack of communication." Andy winces at that, and I apologize quickly, having forgotten that we used to date momentarily.

"I just really don't think you should be there alone with him. And he's left you alone so many times this week alone. I want you safe, and at least with us I can assure that one of us will be with you at all times, ad we'll bring you to all of our shows, everything. This could work."

I shake my head again, "no, Andy. Tonight, I'll stay on the BVB bus, but tomorrow morning I feel like I should at least hear what he has to say. Besides, I won't be all alone with Chris, I'll have Ricky, Ghost, Balz, Ryan and Vinny (a/n: Vinny is the drummer who accompanies MIW on tour) with me. They'll keep me safe."

He sighs, but drops the subject for the time being.

I follow him to the front lounge where all the guys are seated on the couches, deep in discussion. The moment I enter they hound me, saying I need to say with them for the remainder of tour, and while the gesture is touching, I simply can't.

"Why not?" Ash asks, a puzzle look on his handsome face.

I sigh and sit beside him on one of the leather couches, "because I need to talk to Chris. Figure out what the hell has been happening."

"We just don't want you to get hurt again, Rosie,' Jake interjects.

I smile, "it means a lot that you guys care this much, but I need to fight this battle on my own. I'm sure Chris feels like shit for what he did-"

"and he should!" CC shouts, cutting me off.

CC jumps up and begins pacing the length of the bus angrily, "he shouldn't get away with what he fucking did. He hit you Rose, he fucking hit you. He hurt you, and you're like our sister, and when you fuck with our sister, you fuck with all of us."

I'm shocked at how worked up CC is, he's never been one to get so angry before.

"CC?" I ask cautiously, "is everything alright?"

"No everything is not alright!" he snaps, "Chris fucking hit you. And that would've never happened if you and Andy were still together, but you both had to go and fuck everything up. You guys were perfect for each other and were always smiling. I've never seen you or Andy breakdown so much, and this is because you two aren't together. We haven't seen you in months Rosie, months. All because you broke up, which in my opinion, is bullshit!" He yells.

I'm speechless, Andy is speechless. Everyone is speechless. CC glowers at us once more before storming off.

Notes

Damn, CC sure is pissed.

should Rose forgive Chris? would you? I'm not sure, like it was accidental, but that doesn't really make it better does it?

qotd: fav character in the story so far?

Personally, I like rose a lot, not just because I made her up, but she's really brave and strong. Like I don't know anyone who could go through everything that she goes through and still, like survive and smile.