The Devil in the Mirror

Rose's POV:

"What could you possibly want right now Andy?" I ask, sarcasm and pleading evident in my broken voice.

I sound pathetic, but all I want is for him to go away. My so-called 'boyfriend' brought me face to face with my worst nightmare. And he was abandoning me also, to add to the matter. Now I was having a extremely unpleasant conversation with my ex-boyfriend, which would most likely lead to him questioning why I am crying at this very moment. Fuck my life.

"Did you hear me? I asked you to go away! And leave me the hell alone. You're certainly good at that, so it shouldn't be very hard," I hissed, directing all the untended heartache he caused into that simple sentence. Hoping it had the effect I had intended.

His wince proved that it did.

"Look, Rosie, you and I both know that I acted immature and well, like a dick. But I want you back, so badly, baby. And seeing you hurt, or in pain over something is crushing me from the inside out, because I can't do anything to soothe those tears. But I can an will try."

I lift my gaze so that it intercepts with his brilliant blue one, his crystalline orbs piercing mine and looking into my very essence, a look so powerful I am forced to avert my gaze. I am fully aware of his possible feelings towards me, but I am still deeply wounded from how we ended things so quickly and tragically last summer. And that's something j simply cannot risk putting myself through again.

Chris isn't perfect, hell, I'm far from it myself. But he tries, each and every day he tries. So hard. And he managed to pick up my broken pieces and put me back together, not perfectly, but good enough that I can try to hope to forget the crack that Andy inflicted upon my fragile heart. I just can't risk getting heartbroken again, it nearly killed me the last time, and I can't do that to myself again. Not anymore.

However, I'm crying right now because of my said amazing boyfriend. Because he hurt me, and probably realized he did, but ignored it, and instead focussed on the idea of getting wasted. Some knight in shinning armour I've got there, rushing to my aid.

"What do you want?" I ask again, my voice softer than before.

Andy smiles a sad, small smile, "you," he responds simply, "but I'll take whatever it is you're about to tell me."

Notes

short, filler chapter, I know.
but there is an actual point to this one, it's kinda where Rose is realizing that maybe her relationship with Chris isn't as perfect as she thought, and she's beginning to have doubts. Could be trouble for Chrose? Maybe a good thing for Randy?

Qotd: if you could dye your hair any colour, what would it be?

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