Raven’s POV
I was ready to scream. One day, I just wanted one day where nothing went wrong. But that can’t happen. I was having a great time when we did all of that shit to Ronnie, but then the tweets started coming in. And then the comments on my Instagram. I couldn’t win for loosing. I had tweets calling me a slut and a hoe. They were attacking me, and I was through.
I went into the tour bus’s bathroom and shut the door behind me. I opened my phone case and pulled out one of my two blades. Just a few times. It can’t hurt right? I turned on the shower and hopped in, making cuts up and down my thighs, carving those hateful words into them. The pain was bliss to me. After about twenty cuts, I stopped, letting the water wash away the crimson blood as it left my body.
After I got out, I slid on a pair of sweatpants and a Misfits shirt and walked into the sitting area. CC was on the couch so I sat by him and cuddled up. He kept asking if I was okay, and in response, I nodded my head. Then, Alex noticed that I was being something I never was: quiet. She knew something was up so she dragged me into the bunks and started to ask the questions.
“Where are they?” She asked. Without saying a word, I slid my sweat pants down far enough to the show them. “Why would you do it Raven? You were doing so well.” She tells me. I just hand her my phone. She reads everything and sets it back down. “Wait here. I’m going to go get CC.” She says before walking out. I slide into the bunk closest to me before they get back in.
“Raven, come here. Please?” CC asks me. I shake my head in response and he just reaches in and picks me up gently. As he pulls me out, he says “You are none of those things. Don’t even listen to them. In a way, that’s just people showing you how lucky you are to have people like Alex and the band around to support you.” He says, holding me close. He kisses my forehead.
“Ray, we love you. We don’t want you to hurt yourself anymore.” Alex tells me. I look at her with a look she was shocked to see.
“Then why don’t you give up your blades, huh? I know you still have them, just like I still have mine. Alex, look. It isn’t that easy, but I’ll try again if you will.” I tell her. She hands me my phone.
“Give yours up and I’ll give mine up.” She tells me. Without another word, I pull my phone case off and hand CC the blades. But I have more, and Alex knows where. She reaches into the drawer in the bathroom and rips them from where they were held. CC takes those too.
“Deal.” I tell her. CC sets me down so I can walk into the sitting room. “Alex has something to give you Andy.” Andy gets up and goes into the bunks. Words are said, and by the end of it, Alex is sobbing into Andy’s chest. But I know it’s a good sob. It’s a sob that says ‘I’m going to try so hard.’ And that is all that matters.
Tomorrow, as I have predetermined, will be better than today. I will have a good day with my boyfriend, sister, and friends. We will have fun. And god damn it, I want to play spin the bottle.

Notes

Soooo bad to good? Jaja sooo ALEX ITS YOUR TURN
XOXOXOXOXOXO
Raven