My Fallen Angel

So, last night was the BVB concert and meet and greet. I didn't cry, thank god, but I almost did and I was smiling like an idiot the entire time. I gave Andy the paper with your little letters on them for those of you who wrote a letter in the comments of my "Saviour" fanfic and told him what it was and he said "That's nice, I'll be sure to read it" and then I gave him my letter and he smiled at me again. I got two things signed, one of which I'm giving to my boyfriend for Christmas and he is going to flip.

Okay, so after the signing they had us line back up to take pictures. Everyone was going to stand in between Ashley and Andy, but I wanted to stand in between Jinxx and Andy, so I did and someone, I forgot who, said that I was supposed to stand over there next to Ashley and I said I wanted to stand next to Jinxx and Jinxx looked so happy and Andy was just standing confused and Chris (Andy's dad) said something along the lines of "Oh, yea, she wants to stand next to Jinxx" very loudly and laughed which caused the guys to laugh and then the security guys for the band took the picture.

At the concert I was fine all the way through Drama Club and Set it Off's sets and most of Falling in Reverse's set until people started crowd surfing (I was right on the barrier and where I was standing, security was pulling them right over top of me) which during their set I was mostly fine, but about 3/4 the way through BVB's set they started crowd surfing again and I starting having a panic attack (I have severe anxiety with a panic disorder) and I was crying and shaking and the whole deal, so I tried to get the attention of one of the security guards, but they were too busy with the crowd surfers so I was stuck in the crowd. After about 5 minutes of that I started lashing out and one of the security guards grabbed my arm and yelled at me, which caused me to panic even more and by this point I wasn't even aware of what was going on, so apparently I wasn't moving anywhere so he came around to get me and he grabbed my arms really harshly (I have bruises everywhere because of it) and he was gonna drag me out only I apparently took off and I went running for my mom and I clinged to her and when we got outside I collapsed and was throwing up and having a hard time breathing (I have asthma as well) and the security guard refused to let go of me and was trying to stand me up and was saying stuff like "She faking it" "She's just having a hissy fit 'cause she didn't get her way" and crap like that. And that's when a nurse or something; she was another parent of someone watching the show; says "No you can't fake lie that get her an ambulance" And in the mean time my mom is cussing out the security guard because he was still being a bitch and kept putting his hands on me. So I go into an ambulance, by this time I'm calmed down enough that I know what's going on, and the owner of the venue was talking to my mom and he gave her a refund for the tickets even though I only missed like 2 songs and gave her money to get me something from the merch table, 100$ in all, so I got one of those Letterman jacket things that BVB has out of the whole ordeal which was good

Other than that incident, the concert was AMAZING and I had so much fun and also, my mom is planning on suing the security guard, so yea.

Notes

Sorry if I'm missing "K"s anywhere, my "K" key isn't working too well

I promise I'll update soon

Also if you want to check out any of my live pictures, I posted most of the good ones to my Instagram @GrellSScared