The New Dawn
Leaving Memory Lane, Back to Reality
Katarina's P.O.V
After I finished sobbing into Tomi's hoodie, I looked up at his face.
"Thank you Tomi for being here for me", I said as I looked into his eyes. I tiptoed and gave him a kiss on the cheek.
Tomi gave me a smile and said "That's what best friends do for each other Kitty Kat , Now come on let's go back inside".
"Wait be honest Tomi, how shit is my apperance", I panicked
"Well" he smirked" take a look".
He handed me the pocket mirror he kept in his hoodie for performances and immediately I noticed how fucking awful I look. Since we never went home, my hair is still matteed and sweaty, tied up in a messy bun. My skinnies were ripped and stained, my shirt was to sizes too big and I had runny eyeliner.
"Ahh Fuck my lifeee" I moaned, handing the mirror back to Tomi. Tomi chuckled putting the mirror back his pocket and taking off his black hoodie, though being stained with my eye liner covered tears showed no marks.
"Tomi what are you doing", I asked totally confused. He looked at me coyly.
Then he whispered " Hiding your apperance" and then smiled. I laughed, God this is another reason why I love him, he makes me laugh when no one else can. I slipped his hoodie over my medium t-shirt trying to not rip the stiches, and pulled the hood up and got out Tomi's mirror. Aha much better my disgusting hair was hidden in the hood, my ugly skinnies were covered from the knee up because Tomi's so tall don't get me wrong I'm a freaking giant at 5'6 but Tomi's about seven feet. Lastly I asked because I knew he would, Tomi always has make up remover wipes in a compact on hand. He started doing this when I bitched at him for losing my makeup remover a couple weeks a ago.
"Remover Wipes Please", I asked. He took them out his jean pocket and put them in my hand. AfterI finished I looked red and puffy but it was better than raccoon eyed. I handed the compact back to Tomi and took a few deep breaths.
"Alright I'm ready to go in", I stated.
Tomi looked at me with unceartainty in his eyes. "Are you sure Kitty Kat?"
"Yep Tomi, might as well get the questions over with", I said with sarcasm
"That's my Kitty Kat".
Tomi and I walked in and immediately I wanted to run away but of course Tomi knew by the panicked expresion on my face so he clutched my non-injured arm holding me to him.
"Fuck you", I mumbled under my breath. Tomi smiled at me and sat me down at the table.and slid in next to me so I couldn't leave the booth.
Oh boy, my inner voice panicked, Here we go.
Andy's P.O.V
Tomi and Katarina walked back in and as they slid in the booth I scanned Katarina's face. My heart lurched because I immediatedly knew she had been crying. The sight of her spoltchy red face brought back the words Nina had hissed at me. She may seem strong but inside she's been beaten and broken so many times it's a mirical we've kept her alive. I looked back at Katarina face and wondered what had this girl gone through. The food was already here which made Katarina lift up the sleeves of Tomi's hoodie so she could eat and as she did I checked her arms to see if she cut. Just as I finished looking NIna stomped on my foot making me look at her face. She flashed me her steely gaze, the same one she did early, letting me know she knows exactly what I was doing and that I'd better stop. I bit my tongue and nodded, thankful I saw no cuts and then I dug into my food. I started thinking about how I could spend more time with Katarina when our bus is heading out in five days. Hmm Decisions Decisions, I know one thing for sure I'm not leaving Katarina behind, not a chance in hell.
Nina's P.O.V
That Fucker. How dare he even check, I don't care if he likes Katarina, he still had no damn right to judge her for something her fucktard of a father and brother did to her and anyways he'd never see the scars on her arms, because there are none. The minute that thought entered my mind, my mind decided to take a trip down memory lane, back to one of the worst days of mine and Sonya's life. I had just got home from school with Sonya and we walked around back to our study stop in the back yard uner our willow tree. When we heard soft sobbing coming from the edge of the woods. Sonya and I were curious but I was also cautios I told Sonya to take out her can of pepper spray she kept looped on her key chain as we walked over. Once we reached the edge of the tree line not five feet away I saw Kitty Kat lying uner an oak looking so frail and skinny with her shirt pulled up to her bra line, her bare stomach covered in jagged bleeding gaps some new and some old that had scabbed over but she tore open , and lastly I saw the razor in her hand glinting red from all the blood. I remember Sonya and I running forward and her ripping the razor out of Katarina's hand while I tore my favorite t- shirt into a long shred of fabric and tightly tieing it around her waist. I can remember asking "why?". That's how I found out about Katarina's Father and her brother gang raping and beating her every night since she was 12. That's how I found out Katarina was anoerexic but not by choice but by force if she tried to fight back she was with out food for days. That's also how I found out my best friend has been abused a million ways from Sunday while I stood by oblivious watching her wither away. I felt a tear glide down my cheek that I didn't know I was crying, it wasn't until Sonya shook me by the shoulders that I snapped back to reality. As she looked at me I let her see the pain in my eyes, she nodded remembering the same thing as she saw it through my eyes. At this point Ashley who saw this whole thing the whole thing, gave a concerned look and started to say but I cut him off with a look. Ashley nodded.
"So can we go home today", I asked as the others finished their meals trying to hide my trip down memory lane. Katarina looked up at me from her cheese burger with a confused look, she knew something was wrong with me, but she never let on.
"Sure we can but what about the guys", she nodded her head in the direction of Black Veil Brides.
"What about us", Jinxx gave Kitty Kat a curious look.
" I mean do you guys have a place to stay, if you're staying for the night, or are you guys heading out of town what are your plans", Katarina stated obviously amused with her self.
I saw Andy elbow Ash and Ash nodded.
"Well we don't really have any where to go and the hotel in town is booked, I checked."
Katarina smiled " Lucky you we've got a big fucking house", she laughed "You guys can come stay with us".
The Guys all looked at Andy who smiled. Oh boy this is going to be a long tedious week.
After I finished sobbing into Tomi's hoodie, I looked up at his face.
"Thank you Tomi for being here for me", I said as I looked into his eyes. I tiptoed and gave him a kiss on the cheek.
Tomi gave me a smile and said "That's what best friends do for each other Kitty Kat , Now come on let's go back inside".
"Wait be honest Tomi, how shit is my apperance", I panicked
"Well" he smirked" take a look".
He handed me the pocket mirror he kept in his hoodie for performances and immediately I noticed how fucking awful I look. Since we never went home, my hair is still matteed and sweaty, tied up in a messy bun. My skinnies were ripped and stained, my shirt was to sizes too big and I had runny eyeliner.
"Ahh Fuck my lifeee" I moaned, handing the mirror back to Tomi. Tomi chuckled putting the mirror back his pocket and taking off his black hoodie, though being stained with my eye liner covered tears showed no marks.
"Tomi what are you doing", I asked totally confused. He looked at me coyly.
Then he whispered " Hiding your apperance" and then smiled. I laughed, God this is another reason why I love him, he makes me laugh when no one else can. I slipped his hoodie over my medium t-shirt trying to not rip the stiches, and pulled the hood up and got out Tomi's mirror. Aha much better my disgusting hair was hidden in the hood, my ugly skinnies were covered from the knee up because Tomi's so tall don't get me wrong I'm a freaking giant at 5'6 but Tomi's about seven feet. Lastly I asked because I knew he would, Tomi always has make up remover wipes in a compact on hand. He started doing this when I bitched at him for losing my makeup remover a couple weeks a ago.
"Remover Wipes Please", I asked. He took them out his jean pocket and put them in my hand. AfterI finished I looked red and puffy but it was better than raccoon eyed. I handed the compact back to Tomi and took a few deep breaths.
"Alright I'm ready to go in", I stated.
Tomi looked at me with unceartainty in his eyes. "Are you sure Kitty Kat?"
"Yep Tomi, might as well get the questions over with", I said with sarcasm
"That's my Kitty Kat".
Tomi and I walked in and immediately I wanted to run away but of course Tomi knew by the panicked expresion on my face so he clutched my non-injured arm holding me to him.
"Fuck you", I mumbled under my breath. Tomi smiled at me and sat me down at the table.and slid in next to me so I couldn't leave the booth.
Oh boy, my inner voice panicked, Here we go.
Andy's P.O.V
Tomi and Katarina walked back in and as they slid in the booth I scanned Katarina's face. My heart lurched because I immediatedly knew she had been crying. The sight of her spoltchy red face brought back the words Nina had hissed at me. She may seem strong but inside she's been beaten and broken so many times it's a mirical we've kept her alive. I looked back at Katarina face and wondered what had this girl gone through. The food was already here which made Katarina lift up the sleeves of Tomi's hoodie so she could eat and as she did I checked her arms to see if she cut. Just as I finished looking NIna stomped on my foot making me look at her face. She flashed me her steely gaze, the same one she did early, letting me know she knows exactly what I was doing and that I'd better stop. I bit my tongue and nodded, thankful I saw no cuts and then I dug into my food. I started thinking about how I could spend more time with Katarina when our bus is heading out in five days. Hmm Decisions Decisions, I know one thing for sure I'm not leaving Katarina behind, not a chance in hell.
Nina's P.O.V
That Fucker. How dare he even check, I don't care if he likes Katarina, he still had no damn right to judge her for something her fucktard of a father and brother did to her and anyways he'd never see the scars on her arms, because there are none. The minute that thought entered my mind, my mind decided to take a trip down memory lane, back to one of the worst days of mine and Sonya's life. I had just got home from school with Sonya and we walked around back to our study stop in the back yard uner our willow tree. When we heard soft sobbing coming from the edge of the woods. Sonya and I were curious but I was also cautios I told Sonya to take out her can of pepper spray she kept looped on her key chain as we walked over. Once we reached the edge of the tree line not five feet away I saw Kitty Kat lying uner an oak looking so frail and skinny with her shirt pulled up to her bra line, her bare stomach covered in jagged bleeding gaps some new and some old that had scabbed over but she tore open , and lastly I saw the razor in her hand glinting red from all the blood. I remember Sonya and I running forward and her ripping the razor out of Katarina's hand while I tore my favorite t- shirt into a long shred of fabric and tightly tieing it around her waist. I can remember asking "why?". That's how I found out about Katarina's Father and her brother gang raping and beating her every night since she was 12. That's how I found out Katarina was anoerexic but not by choice but by force if she tried to fight back she was with out food for days. That's also how I found out my best friend has been abused a million ways from Sunday while I stood by oblivious watching her wither away. I felt a tear glide down my cheek that I didn't know I was crying, it wasn't until Sonya shook me by the shoulders that I snapped back to reality. As she looked at me I let her see the pain in my eyes, she nodded remembering the same thing as she saw it through my eyes. At this point Ashley who saw this whole thing the whole thing, gave a concerned look and started to say but I cut him off with a look. Ashley nodded.
"So can we go home today", I asked as the others finished their meals trying to hide my trip down memory lane. Katarina looked up at me from her cheese burger with a confused look, she knew something was wrong with me, but she never let on.
"Sure we can but what about the guys", she nodded her head in the direction of Black Veil Brides.
"What about us", Jinxx gave Kitty Kat a curious look.
" I mean do you guys have a place to stay, if you're staying for the night, or are you guys heading out of town what are your plans", Katarina stated obviously amused with her self.
I saw Andy elbow Ash and Ash nodded.
"Well we don't really have any where to go and the hotel in town is booked, I checked."
Katarina smiled " Lucky you we've got a big fucking house", she laughed "You guys can come stay with us".
The Guys all looked at Andy who smiled. Oh boy this is going to be a long tedious week.
Notes
Not Finished with this chapter yet I have to sign off for a bit.5/18/13
Aha I told you I'd come back to finish this chapter and now you know about Katarina's past.
5/16/13