My actual adoption..

CC's PoV
i got up and walked over to where jake sat. he was on the edge of everything that was going on. "hey can we talk?" he nodded and i walked into the living room. i wanted to keep an eye on jez. "i dont know what to do." i sat on the arm of the couch and started playing with jez's hair. i explained what ashley said and how i felt. "hmm that's hard to figure out what you need to do. jex is important to you but jinxx is like a brother to you." i nodded and jake continued "who do you have a greater loyalty to?" i was shocked. "i dont know. i feel like its a tie between the two." jake nodded and took a sip of his coke. "i feel like i need to take care of jez and she needs me."
"i dont think jez needs you as much as you think. she knows she needs you because you help her and care about her. she's attempted and you kept her safe, but what about when a baby's there? how are you gonna keep her safe if you need to care for a baby too?" i stared at him in shock. why the hell would he say that? "i can care for her and a baby. i'll always be there for her." jake started walking around. "but what about when we're on tour and she's home cuz she has a job and a baby? how can you make sure she wont attempt if your not there?" i couldnt answer that. i felt tears in my eyes. "why the hell are you saying this?" i stood up trying to blink tears away. "you need to see the big picture." i wanted to slug him. "your a bitch jake a total bitch. you want me to be fucking miserable dont you?" jake just watched me. "get out of here." i wanted to cry but i wasnt with jake in the room. he left and i felt tears going down my face.

Notes

aww poor cc..