When all else fails... fake a smile.

Brooke's POV

So me and Leah were up at 6 in the fucking morning.... with little or no sleep. I was out side smoking waiting for her to come out. Just then I heard "Walk Away" by Black Veil Brides...

"Now our lives have changed, I wish that I could heal
Time has taken love, a darker side revealed
For every lie begins, with what we used to feel

Blaming myself, tied to these chains, living in pain
All of your tears, everything's gone, is it too late? Walk away!

A lonely heart remains until we know the truth
But if it stays the same, can we make it through?
A life without the hurt, a life without you

Blaming myself, tied to these chains, living in pain
All of your tears, everything's gone, is it too late? Walk away!"

I felt tears spring to my eyes. I felt the words come to my heart and wrap around it, or what was left holding it.I have come clean, I have lost the one person I used to love, myself. I lost her that night that I was rapped, the night I first cut. Is it really to late to just walk away from all of this? Even the only people who have been there for you? I let a tear roll down my face.

Just then I heard foot steps coming towards me. "Brooke?" a hushed male voice said. I looked up to see Ashley. He had my phone in his hand, playing the song. "Don't cry love. You are too pretty for tears," he said as he held my face in one of his hands. "Have you ever felt like you lost everything, even yourself," I asked, my head still in his hand. He sighed, "I did, then I meet you." I looked in to his eyes, I seen feelings in his eyes I thought I would never see in someone like him, love, honesty, and understandment. I smiled. I wrapped my arms around his neck. I gently kissed his lips. My first real kiss.

Ashley's POV

Brooke softly kissed me. I know this is going to sound chessy, but I felt sparks. How is possible for someone like me, someone being known as a player, and everything but a nice white boy, to have fallen in love? Yes I have fallen in love with Brooke. Ever since I first seen her, I felt the need to protect her, hold her close, to love her. I wrapped my arms around her waist. Our kiss becoming filled with passtion. I slowly licked her bottom lip, asking to enter. She paused slightly, then allowed. Our toungs moving together, dancing. She ran her hands through my hair, slightly pulling it. A moan escaped.

Brooke's POV

He moaned slightly, I laughed. I pulled away."Well," Ashley asked. I smiled, a real smile, "Pretty fucking amazing, for my first kiss." I blushed seeing Ash's face, "That...that was your first real kiss?" I nodded, "Yeah." He put his hands on my face, holding me close enough to his that i could feel the wind coming off of his eye lashes when he blinked, "I am sorry, about everything before. I just don't want Andy or CC to take you away. Brooke I WANT you, forever." I felt a tear roll down my face. Ashley whipped it away, "Why are you crying?" I smiled, "I have never heard anyone say anything like that to me. I... its sweet." I leanded my head on his chest. I could hear his heart beat,thump, thump, thump. "You will never go back there ever again. I won't let you and if you get past me, CC and Andy will be there."

I heard my phone go off. A text message. "Oh here," Ahs handed me my phone. It was from Jackob. I unlocked my phone...
"Brooke...um..well I didn't have Leah's number so I am texting you. Well, I am sorry to tell you this, but your dad has died. He was in a car wreck, he was drunk. Honey I am soo sorry."
I just stood still, not breathing. How am I supposed to feel? "What's wrong," Ash read the text. He hugged me. "I am soo sorry. I..." He was cut of. "Don't. I don't love him, well didn't. I don't know how I should feel...I HATE him, did. He BROKE me." I felt anger rising in me, then pain and joy. I laughed, "I'm finally free!" I twirled around, he just stood there. I felt tears running down my face, "YOU CAN'T FUCKING HURT ME ANY MORE!!! I HATE YOU!!" I yelled and fell down to my knees, tears of anger and joy and pain running down my face. "You can't hurt me any more," I mumbled, "not any more, you fucking cunt. I am free."

Notes

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