My Darkest Desire (Ashley Purdy/OC/Andy Biersack)

We arrived at the venue pretty fast. I was nervous as hell and Kaylie felt it.

''Calm down, we are going to a concert not to the death.'' she said stroking my hand once I parked the car.

''I know but I need something to calm me down'' I said as I was going to the back of my car hearing Kaylie sigh.

I know it's not good but I really don't give a fuck right now.

I grabbed 2 cans of Monster since it was my third addiction after pizza and cigarettes and a bottle of vodka and then I returned in the car. It was way too early and the venue was still empty. And we had VIP's so it didn't matter anyway.

I handded Kaylie one Monster while I opened the bottle of vodka and took a large gulp. I opened my Monster after that and took a sip to ease the burn in my throat.

''Are you out of your fucking mind?! How the hell are we supposed to go home after the concert?!'' Kaylie yelled opening the Monster I gave her.

''We'll call a cab'' I said calmly taking another gulp of vodka.

That shut her smart mouth.

To be honest, I don't know what was wrong with me. I just felt like I would faint any minute. I didn't like the feeling. My hands were trembling and my legs as well. I usually don't have this kind of problems. We have a band, I play in front of dozens of people and I'm not that nervous. I just have a weird feeling that something will happen and I didn't know what and that drove me insane.

''What the fuck is wrong with me?!'' I whispered angry.

''You're just nervous, that's it. They are our idols, they saved our lives, they helped us in our worst moments, we covered a lot of their songs so that's why you are feeling weird. Because actually being face to face with them was just a dream until today'' Kaylie said.

I looked at her. I didn't know if I wanted to slap her because she was so confident or hug her because she was comforting me. I decided to do nothing.

We stayed in the car for a little while and then we headed to the venue. I wasn't even tipsy but I made sure to take a chewing gum before I exited the car.

The time finally passed and the concert finally started. We were in the front row screaming our lungs at every song. Way too soon, In the End was coming to an end. My anxiety came rushing back because in less than a half an hour I would actually meet them. Kaylie squeezed my hand and smiled at me. I felt a little better as we headed backstage.

After a motherfucking looooong line it was finally our turn. We grabbed our CD's and Jinxx was the first to sign them.

''So ladies, how did you like the concert?'' he asked smiling.

''We loved it!!'' Kaylie and I said at the same time.

He chuckled and handed our CD's back.

The next one was Jake.

''Oh my God!! Where did you get that bracelet?'' he said pointing to my right arm.

It was an ''I LIVE FOR PIZZA' bracelet that I got from God knows where. I think I was drunk at the time I bought it because I bought 5 of them.

''I dunno. Can't remember. But here, you can have it, I have four more at home'' I said taking it off my wrist and giving it to him.

''Cool, thanks a lot!'' he said his face lighting up.

I just smiled at him while Kaylie rolled her eyes. Jake noticed and asked her about it.

''I'm in the room with two pizza addicts. I swear to God that the next time I see a pizza I'm gonna throw up'' she said punching lightly my arm.

''Screw you too, Kaylie!'' I said which made Jake burst in to laughter.

''Good to know I'm not the only addict'' he said winking at me.

''No, you're not, buddy'' I said winking back and moved over to CC.

''Hiyaaa, girls!'' he said in his hyper usual way.

''Geez, how many Monsters did you drink, CC?'' Kaylie asked and CC's eyes found hers.

He looked at her. In a ...way... I dunno... In a cute way.... Argh!... Fuck He was staring at her!!

''CC!? Are you OK?'' I said clearing my throat.

''Huuh? Yeah I'm fine I was just thinking about how many Monsters I had." he said looking at me. "And I honestly don't have any idea.'' he continued and his eyes found Kaylie's again and smiled.

Kaylie kinda blushed and giggled.

Wait, what? Kaylie?! Giggling?! Oh my God!! Hell froze or what?!

''Thank God I am not the only one who loses count after the 5th Monster'' I said laughing.

CC grinned at me, signed our Cd's and we walked to Andy.

''Bye Kaylie and Nikki'' CC yelled after us waving his hand like a little kid.

''Bye CC'' I yelled back while Kaylie just waved.

Andy smiled at us before we handed him our CD's.

''I think this is the first time you two are at one of our concerts, right?'' he asked as he was signing Kaylie's CD.

''Yeah, how'd you know?'' I answered because Kaylie was to busy staring at him.

I elbowed her and she snapped out of it. I didn't know how but my anxiety was gone and I felt like I was walking on cloud 9. Maybe I am a little tipsy after all....

''I think I would've remembered if CC was staring at a girl like that'' he chuckled and Kaylie blushed again.

He signed my CD and admired my Batman nails.

''Oh, these are so cool!'' he said wide eyed.

''That's it Biersack, sometimes it just sucks to be a guy because you can't have these'' I said wanving my nails in his face, while Kaylie laughed.

''That's mean!'' he pouted.

''I'm sure you will live'' I said winking. He smiled and then we walked to Ashley and my anxiety kinda came back.... FUCK!!!

Yeah! I do have a small crush on Ashley Fucking Purdy! And I do hate him sometimes because he is a manwhore. But then I think about the fact that I am practically a whore too so I'm back at having a crush on him.... Told you I'm weird....

''Hello, ladies'' he said taking a glance at Kaylie and then checking me up and down.

I sure as hell blushed and then I really thought that the hell actually froze! I DO NOT blush! But now I am... But usually I don't... Arghh... Anyway....

''Hi'' Kaylie said noticing I was kinda starstruck. She handed him her CD while he asked for her name.

It was my turn to give him the CD but when I did that I didn't realized that my sleeve lifted up showing some of my scars. Kaylie tensed imediately. I tried to snatch my hand away but Ashley caught it and looked at my scars. They were old ones. I have been clean for six months. His touch sent a shiver through my whole body and I was surprised that my hand wasn't shaking.

''I suppose you are feeling better now since these are completely healed, right?'' he asked looking straight in to my eyes still holding my wrist. Kaylie just stared at us and didn't even flinch.

I thought that I would die on the spot as his soft gaze met mine. I just nodded like an idiot and he squeezed my wrist

''Just don't do it again. It's not helping you'' he said finally letting go of my hand. I instantly missed the feeling of his fingers over my skin.

''So what are you doing later, girls?'' he asked returning to his player self.

I finally found my voice and said in my bitchy attitude.

''Well, since it's Saturday... "I looked at Kaylie who was clueless... "I dunno, probably get home and get drunk... Ya know just have some fun'' I said like I was just talking with some guy that will get home with me not with THE Ashley Purdy.

''What will your parents think about that?'' he said holding his ground and flashing his famous grin.

Kaylie was kinda shocked so I just ignored her.

''I live alone with this redhead who can't close her mouth right now. I have no parents to worry about'' I said confident.

What the fuck am I doing?! My mind screamed countless profanities at me but I just ignored it!

''And wouldn't you like some company?'' He said standing up from the chair

My breath was caught in my throat but somehow I still managed to form words.

''Why? You wanna join?''

Ashley looked at the guys who were now coming to us since we were the last ones who were here.

''Well, we do have a three weeks break from the tour. What do you think guys?''

''Think about what?'' Jake asked as the boys were now near us. CC was still checking Kaylie while she stared at Andy.... Oh boy....

''About getting wasted at my house tonight'' I said smirking.

''Well, you don't look like the usual fans... All over us, I mean...'' Jake commented.

''And if it won't get you in to troubles why not?'' Andy said while Jinxx nodded.

''Before you ask, yes, I do have countless cans of Monster and several pizza flyers'' I said to CC and Jake.

''She is my new BFF'' CC yelled raising his hands.

''Back off, Mora! I saw her first'' Jake slapped his shoulder.

Kaylie and I burst into laughter.

''Well, then it's a deal'' Kaylie said ''Let's get wasted!!'' she shouted and startled me.

''Finally, you spoke!'' I said in fake shock.

''Shut up, bitch!'' she smacked my arm playfully.

''Bite me!'' I said stucking my tongue at her.

The guys were laughing as Kaylie walked out of the theather with CC on her right and Jinxx on her left. Andy was talking with Jake, and Ashley and I were the last group.

''Sooo.... Favourite booze?'' Ashley asked smirking.

''Vodka....or Jack....'' I said grinning.

''I think we are going to get along just fine'' he said throwing his arm over my shoulder and grinned at me.

I must have been drunk because I was still walking on my feet! Ashley Purdy had an arm around my shoulders. I was about to get wasted with Black Veil fucking Brides in my house. Cc likes Kaylie.

Why the fuck I'm not hyperventilating right now?!!! I thought to myself as we headed to the cab station.

Notes

Here it goes! second chapter. Please rate and comment. if you have any ideas for the story I would love to hear them.
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