Forever Us

“Fuck.” I said harshly and I felt tears escaping from my eyes.

I looked down at the little stick that had a simple blue plus sign on it, and threw it into the garbage can. I walked into our room again and threw myself onto the bed, face first with tears soaking the bed sheets.

“Why me...” I sobbed.

Suddenly I felt little whiskers brushing my face, I looked up and Crow automatically licked away the tears softly.

“Crow, what am I going to do?” I cried. She meowed in response.

I sat up and pulled her onto my lap, and cried into her soft, black fur.

After 20 minutes of crying I decided to call Andy.

I got out of bed and walked into the front room, grabbing my phone off of the couch and I pressed 2, Andy is on speed dial, I shivered and butterflies started pounding on the inside of my stomach as soon as it started ringing.

“Hey, babe, you okay? Need me to come home?” His calming voice asked.

“No, it’s alright, I just need to tell you something…” I started.

“Sure, anything.” He said.

“I’m…” Suddenly I felt like I was going to throw up again and I couldn’t speak anymore, I stopped. “I’m just really excited we moved in together, babe.” I choked out.

“Oh me too, dear.” I could hear his smile.

“I have to go.” My voice shook and I could feel the tears coming back. Then without another word I slammed my phone shut.

I walked over to Crow and gave her a big hug with tears sliding down my face.

“I have to go.” I whispered.

I can’t deal with the pain of once Andrew know that he’ll leave me, or worse, I have to go. I walked into the closet and packed all of my shit, thankfully some of it was still packed from the move and I zipped up to last bag that I had finally. I walked into the kitchen and grabbed a pen and paper and wrote down the following:

‘Andrew,
I’m sorry it had to come to this, I really am. I just had to leave and maybe someday later you will know why, but for now, I’ve decided to keep it to myself. Anyway, the cats are yours, I love them, but they’re yours. Thank you so much for everything you’ve done for me, and just because I’m leaving doesn’t mean I don’t love you anymore, because trust me, I love you with every fiber in my body.
-Love,
Skylar <3’
I set the note on the counter, said goodbye to Crow and left.

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