i don’t know what it was, his calm voice, the way he acted like he knew nothing, or his eyes that were smiling to me, mocking me. but i lost it, and i pulled my gun at him before i started screaming.
“HOW COME YE MADE US LEAVE!
HOW COME YE JIBBED OPEN MAH FAITHERS FACE!
HOW COME YE MURDERRED MAH MOTHER!
WHY YE MADE MAG BROTHER AN ORPHAN
WHY YE TEUK AWA’ MAH WEE SISTER” i screamed my lungs out and i didn’t saw anything chance in O’Phelan’s expresion, something that made me more and more angry.
i saw how O’phelan his guys pulled their guns at me, and SamBel behind me pulled theirs, to back me up.
“Gimme yin guid reason, how come ah shouldn't murdurr ye richt noo ”
“cause than you never be on time” he had this monstrous grin on his face.
“Oan time?” my arms started to shake, i knew i screwed it up.
“it was a grey SUV, wasn't it?” as soon as he said that their were tears on my face, he couldn't put me through this again, could he? instead of firing the gun, i planted my fist in his face
“Mind jimmy, yer days ur numbered in you’re wee world o' fools” i spoke softly before i took Andy’s hand, took the keys Keith threw at us and drove away on his bike.

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“what was that?” Andy said as soon as i pulled over near the hotel.
“me, pulling a gun at a motherfucker”
“i understand that, but what did he do, and what was that with a grey SUV, and did we just stole a bike?” he followed me into the hotel, and i don't know why, but for the first time in 15 years i talked about it with an outsider.
“he was behind the so called accident, he blew up the SUV from my mother, with her in it, and Ashley’s father, he banished my father from Belfast, our entire family, except my fathers wife, and their daughter”
“a grey SUV?”
“yes, and him saying that, means he threatened me, my family”
“how, cause he remembered what kinda SUV it was?”
“look Andy, you don’t know this world, but i do” i walked into the room, not waiting for his answer.
“this is crazy” i heard behind me while i tried to call Ashley.
“fack” i mumbled when he didn't answer for the 10th time.
“Andy just stay here, don’t leave this hotel”
“and what are you gonna do”
“im gonna fly back to California, hoping i’m not to late”
“why don’t you just call them”
“cause they don’t pick their facking phone!” the panic was taking over and i grabbed a pen and pulled of a sticky note.
“and i don’t know where Ashley is, and this i my fault, i have to protect them”
“you’re just 19”
“that doesn't matter in this world!”
“i don't care about that world of yours, if it’s that dangerous you shouldn't go alone”
“and you’re gonna stop me?” i knew i was mocking him, but in this moment i couldn't care less, the panic took over my entire body while i was trying to write a note to Ashley.
“wel, if i can’t keep you here till Ashley is back i’m coming with you”

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