A Warrior Of Youth

Lissas POV

"Hey where were you yesterday?" Sandra asked as we entered our music class.
"Umm, me, Jake and Jinxx got into some trouble with Andy, Ashley and CC yesterday" I said quietly in case they were listening to me.
"What kind of trouble?" She asked worriedly.
"They saw Jinxx hanging out with me and Jake and decided to start beating them up" I said then held up my arms to show her my bruising. "CC did this to me, restraining me from helping them. They wouldn't stop" I said sadly.
"Are they okay?"
"Yeah. Jake had to get a couple stitches on his lip and Jinxx also got stitches above his eye. The only reason they got beat up is cause of me" I said hanging my head.
"No it's not! You can't blame yourself."
"Well who do I blame?! They are home resting and I'm sitting here."
"Try not to worry about it. They'll be okay and hopefully Andy will ease off a little" she said trying reassure me.
"I hope so. The fact that they aren't here today should be an indicator that they really hurt them. Their supposed 'friends'" I said making air quotes.
"Andy is always horrible to his friends. You should have seen the way he acted towards CC when he first came to the school. He didn't actually hurt him, but it was a while before Andy would talk to him like a normal human being" she scoffed.
"What about Ashley? He seems to just clone Andy..." I said glancing at the doorway where I knew Andy, Ashley and CC were working.
"Ashley is a clone. Does whatever Andy tells him to. They have known each other for a long time, but Ashley has always felt like he has had to prove himself to him. Like they are father and son. They have a weird relationship" Sandra said pulling a face.
"Hmm, I'll have to pay more attention the next time they try and beat me up" I said pulling my headphones so I could use the keyboard without anyone listening.

At the end of the school day I took Sandra home and went over to Jinxx's house. I felt like shit after everything that had happened. After cutting myself at the hospital, I felt a little better, but it didn't work as well. I promised myself that I wouldn't cut again until after I see Jinxx and if he is not okay. I just wish I didn't get him tangled in my mess. He didn't deserve any of this. We barely knew each other and because of me, he is getting hurt. I couldn't leave things the way they were.
As I pulled up in front of his house, my stomach grumbled. I hadn't eaten anything all day. I never eat anything. Although I wasn't fat before, I'm really skinny now. My ribs are just starting to show through and my hip bones were also starting to stick out. I was hoping no one would ever notice. I shook the thought away and exited my car.
I knocked on the door lightly and a man answered the door.
"Yes?"
"Uhh, hi. I'm Lissa. A friend of Jinxx's" I said nervously.
The man cocked his head and look to be in deep thought. "Lissa... Oh, were you the one who drove Jinxx to the hospital?" He asked.
"Uhh yeah. I was just coming by to see if he was okay."
"Okay, umm, he's in his room. I'm sure he'll be happy to see you. I'm Jinxx's father, Peter" he said leading me through the house to Jinxx's room. He knocked on a closed door.
"Jinxx?" Peter called through the door.
"What?" Jinxx called back.
"Your friend Lissa is here."
"Okay. Let her in."
Peter opened the door for me, then shut it behind me.
Jinxx was sitting up in bed watching a tv the was mounted on the wall across from his bed.
"Hey Jinxx, how you feeling?" I asked shakily.
"Hey, uhhh, I'm okay. My head hurts a little" he said flicking his fringe aside to reveal the scar.
"Oh my God! How many stitches did you end up getting?" I asked walking over to his bed and sitting down so I was facing him.
"I think eleven or twelve."
I reached out and gently moved his fringe out the way to have a closer look. The gash looked puckered and a little swollen. His black eye looked worse then it did yesterday as well.
"I'm so sorry" I said feeling a lump grow in my throat. "I didn't mean for anyone to get hurt" I said choking up.
"Lissa, it's not your fault. I decided to stay friends with Jake. I couldn't care less about the others" he said placing a hand on my face.
"Jinxx, it is my fault. People have to see that. I keep getting told that! I shouldn't have told anyone about what happened to my brother" I said with tears brewing in my eyes.
"Would you tell me? What happened?"
I looked up to him. His crystal blue eyes gazing at me. I couldn't say no to those eyes. I told him all about my brother and my life in Philly.
"That's horrible! Did they really push your brother that far?" Jinxx said outraged.
By this time tears were streaming out of me. "It was so bad. I wish I saw it sooner, but I was too late. I think moving here has had the opposite effect that my parents wanted..."
"Why do you say that?" Jinxx asked curiously.
"I'm miserable here. I've made others peoples lives miserable too. First Jake, now you! I'm not sure I can live with myself. I can handle people hating on me, but not on other people because of me. Just all this bullying is making me wonder if this was how Benji felt" I said wiping my cheeks dry.
"You know we are here for you" he said hugging me. We were now sitting next to each other, my arms wrapped around his stomach and his arm over my shoulders. I was mindful of his other arm that was resting on my stomach.
"I don't need to burden you guys. You have enough to worry about without me. What were you guys like before I came to the school?" I asked to get the topic off myself.
"We were the school pranksters. Everyone knew us. I suppose we are popular... No one at the school really hates us. Me and Jake met Andy, Sandra and Ashley in freshman year and we all really hit it off. Just we were that group that you could have a laugh with and everyone loved us cause we'd give the teachers hard time. Things only recently changed with Sandra after her and CC broke up. I know the truth, not what CC told."
"Why didn't you say anything?!" I said butting into his story.
"Cause CC is my friend as much as I hate him for it, I just couldn't bring myself to saying anything..." He said trailing off.
"I suppose that's fair enough. I mean, Benji left a suicide note for me. Just me. In the note he told me not to show mom and dad. I honoured his last wish."
"Wow, that's a big promise to keep" he said a little surprised.
"I had to. My parents aren't exactly the most involved in our lives, so they really didn't understand what was going on. I told them the basics when Benji died and some of the reasons, but not the whole story. Now they like to know every little thing about me" I said a little annoyed.
"Well at least you know they are paying attention to you" he said hugging me closer.
"I rather they didn't. They think I'm going to become like Benji. Sometimes I feel like I am" I said looking down at my bare wrists.
"You're not Benji. From what you have said about Benji, he was pretty bad with the cutting and making himself anti-social. You pushed through that wall to get to him. You were good to him and I'm sure he was grateful to have someone there for him."
"I suppose" I said looking up at him. His face was inches from mine. His beautiful blue eyes gazing into mine.
He placed a hand on my face and closed those last few inches. His soft lips colliding with mine. His arms wrapping tighter around me, making me feel safe. His hand traveled from my face and tangled into my hair, pulling me closer. I was starting to worry about his other hand that was caressing my skin on stomach. He would surely notice how skinny I was. I had to stop this.
"Jinxx..." I said against his lips. I pushed him away gently and he lent his forehead to mine.
"What's wrong?"
"Jinxx... What are we doing? You have a girlfriend and I kinda have a thing with Jake. We can't be doing this" I said getting off the bed. "Look, I promise I won't tell anyone. I have enough to deal with right now."
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean for that to happen. For some weird reason I'm so drawn to you" he said also getting off the bed and standing in front of me.
"Jinxx, don't do this to me. I'm having enough problems at school, then with Jake, and all this anxiety I have developed, along with my not eating and cutting and..." I had to stop myself rambling and pray Jinxx wasn't paying attention.
"Cutting?"
Oh fuck...

Notes

Oooooo, Jinxx, what have you done?
Lissa, you may have said too much...
Hope your enjoying, please let me know! :)
It's so weird not writing smut, cause in my other stories there were smut chapters, but I'l try and work one in soon ;) We'll see
-Tina xx