Catch me when I fall?
Chapter 13 ~ How Long Has It Been?
~Allie's POV~
"Then again we didn't really get into the formalities did we, when we last met. Did we Allie?" he smiled before slowly walking over to me.
I stared down at the guitar, how could it be that out of most of the instruments on this sofa I've most likely picked up his. I gently put it back in its place and looked down at my hands. "I'm sorry Jinxx" I stuttered.
"Hey!" he rushed the rest of the way over and knelt in front of me. "Don't apologize" he soothed.
I looked up at him and into his gaze that gaze. He has not changed, he was still beautiful and mysterious, he still made me nervous.
"How are you feeling?" he asked gesturing at my bruised arm. His hand was just centimeters from touching me. I don't know why but I started to shake, making him frown and retract his hand away and place it awkwardly on his lap.
"I'm okay" I sighed. It was weird, how when I was around this man i was always so close to tears it always came so easily. I knew what he meant by okay. He was asking if I was stable, suicidal. Which made me angry rather than upset.
"Good..." he trailed off glancing at me. It was like he was searching me or checking if I was sane. If it was crazy he wanted I could give it to him.
It was weird, I'd dreamed of this day 100's of times, in some scenarios I would hit Jinxx for leaving me that night, or hit him in the chest whilst crying and he would hold me before he pulled my face down to his and kissed me biting my lip a little. But now it had arrived we were speechless, like two strangers on a train, passing in the street heads down; no eye contact. It felt like he was trying to be a parent to me, I know I'm 19 and he's 28 a huge age gap I also knew that while it felt like we were 100 miles away. We were 1 inch apart that I still had feelings for this man.
~Jinxx's POV~
I stared at her unable to believe it was actually her in the flesh. Last time I'd laid my eyes on her she was 15. I'd felt responsible for her, I know it sounds wrong to be 24 and feel drawn to a 15 year old girl who was depressed, but she was mature. Now looking back into those deep blue eyes with my own I felt my heart tug. Like I was home again.
"So Allie, fill me in on things, since our last meet up" I said watching her carefully.
~Andy's POV~
The interview had fucked up, due to the fans finding Allie, questions had been fired about her. Occupation? family? Was she staying on tour? Not even Andy himself knew this yet, nevermind the band. She had only been awake a day and the tour was getting further away from Manchester -where they found her- and closer to the US leg of the tour. Soon where would have to open up and then and only then could her fate on tour be finalized. Andy liked Allie, not in a romantic way, he loved Juliet. He liked taking care of her and it actually gave Juliet another girl to hang out with. Maybe he could convince Allie to stay on tour, once he got her to open up that was.
When Andy, CC, Ashley and Juliet arrived back on the bus, the air was thick with tension and sat in the middle of it was Jinxx and Allie. Once of which was crying.
~Allie's POV~
"Allie I had no idea" he sympathized after I had told him about eveyrthing minus my job. I'd told him how his money put me in a hotel for two weeks before it had thrown me on the streets and the remainder got me beaten and had been stolen.
All I wanted was to hug him and kiss him like the way I'd dreamed of but I was a ticking time bomb, he didn't need this in his life. He didn't need me. If he got too close I would destroy us both. These feelings would make us distant again.
"Jinxx how could you have an idea?" I shook my head frustrated "look at your life to mine!" I shouted.
"Allie..." he started, but I cut him off and stood up.
"Don't." I ran my hands through my hair before placing my hands on my hips. It was building up inside me like a kettle boiling waiting to spill over. All my emotions, the pain, the frustration, the love for him. It was all bubbling away threatening to explode and make me cry.
"Look, Jinxx" I hesitated. "Thank you for not leaving me for dead, thank you for that night I met you... and for not leaving me in the street" I looked at him as he stood up and folded his arms over his chest listening to me intently. "But I can't stay and keep ruining your life..." I finished.
"You don't rui---" he tried to but in.
"YOU CAN'T KEEP TRYING TO SAVE ME JINXX!" I cut him off quickly "I'M DAMAGED!"
"You're not damaged Allie!" he soothed in a raised tone, taking a step towards me.
"Don't!" I barked covering my face with my hand before I ran out of the lounge passed him and upstairs to my borrowed bunk.
"Then again we didn't really get into the formalities did we, when we last met. Did we Allie?" he smiled before slowly walking over to me.
I stared down at the guitar, how could it be that out of most of the instruments on this sofa I've most likely picked up his. I gently put it back in its place and looked down at my hands. "I'm sorry Jinxx" I stuttered.
"Hey!" he rushed the rest of the way over and knelt in front of me. "Don't apologize" he soothed.
I looked up at him and into his gaze that gaze. He has not changed, he was still beautiful and mysterious, he still made me nervous.
"How are you feeling?" he asked gesturing at my bruised arm. His hand was just centimeters from touching me. I don't know why but I started to shake, making him frown and retract his hand away and place it awkwardly on his lap.
"I'm okay" I sighed. It was weird, how when I was around this man i was always so close to tears it always came so easily. I knew what he meant by okay. He was asking if I was stable, suicidal. Which made me angry rather than upset.
"Good..." he trailed off glancing at me. It was like he was searching me or checking if I was sane. If it was crazy he wanted I could give it to him.
It was weird, I'd dreamed of this day 100's of times, in some scenarios I would hit Jinxx for leaving me that night, or hit him in the chest whilst crying and he would hold me before he pulled my face down to his and kissed me biting my lip a little. But now it had arrived we were speechless, like two strangers on a train, passing in the street heads down; no eye contact. It felt like he was trying to be a parent to me, I know I'm 19 and he's 28 a huge age gap I also knew that while it felt like we were 100 miles away. We were 1 inch apart that I still had feelings for this man.
~Jinxx's POV~
I stared at her unable to believe it was actually her in the flesh. Last time I'd laid my eyes on her she was 15. I'd felt responsible for her, I know it sounds wrong to be 24 and feel drawn to a 15 year old girl who was depressed, but she was mature. Now looking back into those deep blue eyes with my own I felt my heart tug. Like I was home again.
"So Allie, fill me in on things, since our last meet up" I said watching her carefully.
~Andy's POV~
The interview had fucked up, due to the fans finding Allie, questions had been fired about her. Occupation? family? Was she staying on tour? Not even Andy himself knew this yet, nevermind the band. She had only been awake a day and the tour was getting further away from Manchester -where they found her- and closer to the US leg of the tour. Soon where would have to open up and then and only then could her fate on tour be finalized. Andy liked Allie, not in a romantic way, he loved Juliet. He liked taking care of her and it actually gave Juliet another girl to hang out with. Maybe he could convince Allie to stay on tour, once he got her to open up that was.
When Andy, CC, Ashley and Juliet arrived back on the bus, the air was thick with tension and sat in the middle of it was Jinxx and Allie. Once of which was crying.
~Allie's POV~
"Allie I had no idea" he sympathized after I had told him about eveyrthing minus my job. I'd told him how his money put me in a hotel for two weeks before it had thrown me on the streets and the remainder got me beaten and had been stolen.
All I wanted was to hug him and kiss him like the way I'd dreamed of but I was a ticking time bomb, he didn't need this in his life. He didn't need me. If he got too close I would destroy us both. These feelings would make us distant again.
"Jinxx how could you have an idea?" I shook my head frustrated "look at your life to mine!" I shouted.
"Allie..." he started, but I cut him off and stood up.
"Don't." I ran my hands through my hair before placing my hands on my hips. It was building up inside me like a kettle boiling waiting to spill over. All my emotions, the pain, the frustration, the love for him. It was all bubbling away threatening to explode and make me cry.
"Look, Jinxx" I hesitated. "Thank you for not leaving me for dead, thank you for that night I met you... and for not leaving me in the street" I looked at him as he stood up and folded his arms over his chest listening to me intently. "But I can't stay and keep ruining your life..." I finished.
"You don't rui---" he tried to but in.
"YOU CAN'T KEEP TRYING TO SAVE ME JINXX!" I cut him off quickly "I'M DAMAGED!"
"You're not damaged Allie!" he soothed in a raised tone, taking a step towards me.
"Don't!" I barked covering my face with my hand before I ran out of the lounge passed him and upstairs to my borrowed bunk.
Notes
Hey guys! Thank you for your support! I never thought I'd get so much love on this story. It really makes me want to continue writing it.
However, please give me feedback instead of "Update" I want your input and ideas.
I'm putting this story on Mibba too now, I feel its worthy of it :)
Big things are brewing, I'm pre writing them, Jinxx will find out what Allie does for a Job... but how!? >:D
Love you <3
I can't wait to read more. I'm so addicted to this story
12/24/14