Bullets in a Music Box

Empty shot glasses were lined up on the bar as I made my way down a row of 21 shots of various alcohols. The band and I have been here for over five hours and I am feeling great. I deserve to get drunk off my ass after all the shit life has thrown at me the last five months. When I finished the 21 shots, I could feel the alcohol beginning to work. There were mass amounts of cheers around me and I put both of my arms up and cheered with them. Then I felt arms around my waist.

"Come on miss overly excited," I heard Andy say as he pulled me from the bar and took me towards the table.

"I am feeling amazing right about now," I exclaimed as I sat down.

"I did not know you could hold your liquor that way," CC laughed and I smiled.

"When you have as shitty of a childhood as I had, you learn to hold your alcohol," I smiled and CC nodded.

"So it's nearing eleven," Andy said. Damn, we've been here that long?

"Can I just get one more mixer and then we can go?" I asked. Andy sighed while looking at me.

"Fine, but, it better be mostly juice. As a matter of fact, I'll go get your drink," he said and left the table.

"So tell us, how excited are you really to be back in Nashville?" CC asked me. I looked at him and sighed.

"Part of me is happy, because all of my high school friends and family are here, but then the other part of me is like, fuck this city, my mother lives here and she is an ungrateful bitch who doesn't care a single ounce about her children," I said with a smile.

"Are you gonna visit any friends?" Ashley asked.

"Since none of them still live where they did when we were seventeen, if I run into them, yes I'll see them, otherwise, nah," I waved my hand and scratched my arm.

"So the last time you got shit face drunk, you cut all of your hair off, what crazy shenanigans are you gonna do tonight?" Ashley asked.

"Erm, well, we are in a hotel, you can connect the dots on that one. Otherwise, maybe I'll dye my hair!" I exclaimed as Andy came back to the table.

"No, cutting your hair off is one thing, no dying of the hair, not while you're drunk," Andy said as he set my drink in front of me.

"Damn party pooper," I said as I took a drink.

"Yep," he smiled and put his arm around my shoulders.

"What the fuck did you get me?" I asked.

"A screwdriver with one part vodka, three parts orange juice," he said.

"Oh, thanks babe," I smiled and gave him a really sloppy kiss before going back to drinking my drink.

"Does she always get this clingy and outburst-y when drunk?" CC asked.

"Yeah, but I don't mind," Andy said.

"Good. Well, we should probably get this drunk person back to the hotel before she does any more damage to her liver," I heard Ashley say and I gave him a look.

"My liver is my responsibility, back off Purdy," I said and he looked at me. Andy nodded at him and then grabbed my arm and I looked at him.

"We're going back to the hotel, come on Sadee," he said and pulled me towards him. When I stood, my legs got really wobbly.

"Why is the floor moving?" I asked.

"It's not, come on," Andy chuckled and put his arm around my waist and pushed me towards the door. As we got outside, and the cold air hit me, I immediately felt the urge to puke.

"Cold air and being drunk so do not mix," I said as I bent over the sidewalk and puked whatever was in my stomach.

"Come on," Andy said after I finished and pushed me to the car. We climbed in and when I was sitting I looked around. It was just me, Andy, and CC in the car.

"I have a question," I blurted and the two looked at me.

"You wanna know the reason I hate my mother so much?" I asked.

"Why?" Andy asked.

"Cause she let her damn boyfriends beat the shit out of me and rape me while she was on tour, promoting herself to the world," I said. Andy's face got really serious and he put his hand on mine.

"Your mom's boyfriends raped you?" He asked.

"Yeah, that was the reason I tried to kill myself," I said. My filter was completely gone by this point.

"Well, I'm glad you didn't succeed," Andy said as he kissed my cheek.

"Yeah, my mom didn't realize what the fuck her boyfriends were doing until after I attempted suicide. Then she became super protective mom and took me on tours and shit. Which is why I tried it again when I was fifteen," I said.

"Damn girl, this shit is not something you just say," CC said. I shrugged and looked at him.

"I trust you guys with this information. I hate keeping it to myself," I said and laid my head down on Andy's shoulder.

"We will keep it safe," Andy said and kissed the side of my head. I closed my eyes and sighed. This is the life. The car came to a stop and I sat up to see we were at the hotel. As Andy climbed out of the car, he reached back in to grab me. When my feet hit the ground, I stumbled and fell into Andy. He chuckled as he stabilized me. We walked into the hotel and up to our room before I realized what was happening. The moment I saw the bed I got this big smile and I jumped up, or attempted to, and fell into the bed. I heard Andy chuckling behind me and I turned to him.

"We have not fucked in like a month," I said.

"Good observation," he said and took off his shirt.

"And you stripping is not helping the situation at all," I said and he chuckled.

"Are you implying that you are horny?" He asked.

"Maybe," I said. He chuckled before walking over to me and climbing over me so he was hovering me.

"I might have to change that," he chuckled as he kissed me.


The intense brightness of the sun shook my from my sleep and I instantly regretted opening my eyes. A head splitting headache coursed through my brain and my entire body was sore. Holy shit, I do not remember much after the shots. Movement next to me snapped my attention to the thing that moved. When I opened my eyes and saw Andy, I sighed contently.

"Good morning," he said quietly.

"Morning," I muttered and rolled over so my face was in the pillow.

"What do you remember from last night?" He asked.

"Everything after the shots is a big blur," I said.

"Ah, so you don't remember what we did?" He asked. I thought for a second before smirking.

"Nope, I remember that," I smiled and looked at him.

"Good, cause it was amazing," he said and I laughed. It was amazing. A knock on the door shook my attention and I groaned. Andy got off the bed and quickly put on a pair of shorts before walking to the door to answer it. I curled myself into the blankets to make the sun go away. I heard muffled talking and then the door closed.

"Who was it?" I asked.

"It was Jon, apparently, your mother has requested both of us go to lunch with her," he said.

"Fuck her, I am not in the worlds best shape to get food," I said.

"She said if you go to lunch with her, she will leave us alone at the concert and not go," he said. I looked at him for a long time before sighing.

"Fine, but I am only getting lunch, and if I open my mouth and say shit, please stop me, you have to promise me," I said as I sat up in the bed.

"You have my word, now, are we gonna take a shower together, or separate?" Andy asked.

"We should probably be good people and save water," I giggled and climbed off the bed before walking into the bathroom, Andy following close behind me.

I pulled my small black cardigan over my dress and sighed. Andy was wearing really nice clothes, ones I had no idea he owned. I turned to him and sighed again.

"What?" He asked.

"I really don't want to see my mother," I said.

"I know, but, I want you to have fun at the concert tonight, and if she's there, you won't," he said as he got off the bed and walked over to me, wrapping his arms around my waist. I looked up at him and stared into his blue eyes.

"Fine, come on, let's go before she freaks out," I said and grabbed my phone from the table and began walking to the door. Andy wrapped his hand in mine as we walked down the hallway to the elevators. As we walked, a hotel door opened and Ashley walked out of the room.

"Where are you two going all dressed up?" He asked.

"Sadee's mom wants to get lunch," Andy answered.

"You have fun with that," he laughed and I hit the button to go down on the elevator. We walked into the elevator and I looked at him.

"I am serious, if I open my mouth, please stop me," I said.

"I will, don't worry Sadee. We're a team," he said and gave me a kiss quickly as the elevator door opened. We quickly walked through the lobby and out to the car before the fans saw us. The car began driving and I sighed again.

"You keep sighing, what's wrong?" Andy asked. I looked at him and bit my lip.

"I thought I'd be a little happier being back in Nashville, but to be honest, besides drinking with you guys and being in the hotel, it has been miserable," I said.

"I know. There's lots of demons from your past here," he said. I looked at him and furrowed my eyebrows.

"What are you talking about?" I asked.

"You really don't remember last night do you?" He asked. I shook my head and he rubbed my hand.

"You told me and CC what your mom's boyfriends did and about your two suicide attempts," he said. Oh my gosh, I said that?

"Oh," I said quietly and looked down.

"It's fine, I know you better now. And I hope we can both know everything about each other, eventually," he said. I nodded and rested my head down on his shoulder. The car came to a stop shortly after that and we both got out of the car and walked into the restaurant. I immediately saw my mother sitting at a table with someone.

"She's with someone," I said as we walked closer. Andy looked at her and furrowed his eyebrows.

"I don't know," he said as we got to the table. My mother looked at me and got a big smile.

"Sadee!" She exclaimed as she climbed out from under the table to hug me. I kept my hand in Andy's as she hugged me.

"Hi mom," I said, trying to be nice. We all sat down and I looked at the guy with her.

"Who's this?" I asked. She looked at him and then back at me.

"This is my fiance," she said. Fiance?

"You're getting married?" I asked, shocked.

"I am, and that is one of the reasons I wanted to meet you for lunch," she said.

"Since when are you getting married?" I asked. She smoothed the napkin in her lap and licked her lip.

"Sadee, that doesn't matter. I wanted to meet you cause I have a question," she said.

"I'm not going to be your maid of honor," I said. I felt Andy put his hand on my knee and I looked at him for a second. He was giving me a look to calm down.

"Why not?" She asked.

"Because we don't necessarily have the best of relationships," I said.

"Sadee, please. I don't have anyone else," she said.

"What about Lauren? Or any of your stupid country star friends?" I asked.

"All fo them are on tour, and Lauren has her own life, her kids, Gustav, I can't ask her," she said.

"And I don't have a life? I'm on a fucking world tour with Black Veil Brides. I'm not going to just hop off the tour to me your damn maid of honor," I was getting heated.

"Watch your mouth! I know you are on tour, but you could be away from the tour for a weekend and then go back like nothing happened," she said.

"No, I'm not doing it. Ask Lauren, she'd be more than happy to do it," I said. My mom was looking at me with a death glare as the waitress came by.

"Good afternoon, I'm Kelsey, and I'll be your waitress. What can I get you all to drink today?" She asked.

"Grape juice," I said and she nodded before looking at Andy.

"Mountain Dew," he said. I rolled my eyes at his choice. My mom and the guy ordered and the waitress left.

"Can you at least consider it in case Lauren does say no?" She asked. I looked at her and then at Andy. He shrugged and I sighed.

"Fine, but just because I might be your maid of honor, does not mean I forgive you," I said.

"I know. Okay, this is Thomas," she formally introduced him to me and I smiled.

"Sadee," I said and he nodded.

"That is Andy, Sadee's boyfriend," she said to Thomas and he nodded.

"Nice to meet both of you. Do you also live in California, like Lauren?" he had an accent, but I have no idea from where.

"We do," Andy answered and Thomas nodded.

"I've always wanted to live in California," he said. I don't know why, but he seems really sketchy or something like it.

Notes

Okay, so, originally it was Andy who got shit faced drunk. But then I was like, that doesn't make sense and I don't like the way the chapter is going, so I made Sadee get drunk. Worked so much better. Not too much drama, and I know all of you love the drama, but it is coming, I promise. I just have a few final decisions and details to get down before the chapter comes up! Please keep reading! Hope you liked it!!!


Sadee's outfits:

(Lunch with Lori)
http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=137727952

(Drinking with the band)
http://www.polyvore.com/sadee_bullets_in_music_box/set?id=137637586

SMILES!!!