Bullets in a Music Box

Seven glasses of champagne and a mixer circulated through my system as I walked out of the building hand in hand with Andy. We are on our way back to the hotel to attend the party there. That party was put together by Jon and Falling in Reverse’s manager as a breather from the tour. There’s a show tomorrow night here in New York and they wanted us all to relax for a night, which I do not mind at all. I was slightly tipsy, but not so much that I can’t perform.

“When we get back to the hotel, I’m gonna head up to the room to change, alright?” I asked Andy and he looked at me.

“Whatever. Jon told me that I’m not allowed to leave the party until he says so,” he pouted and I smiled.

“You are the lead singer of Black Veil Brides, so,” I said and patted his knee.

“I know that, it’s just. What if I wanted to just have a few drinks, talk with a few people, and that’s it? I don’t want to be forced into being at a party all night,” he said.

“Jon and Gary put together this party for everyone, not just your band Andy. Everyone has to suffer,” I said.

“You don’t,” he said.

“What do you mean?” I asked.

“I mean, you don’t have to stay at the party all night, you can do your performance and leave if you want,” he said.

“Fuck that. If you have to suffer, I’ll suffer with you. We can both get drunk and have some fun,” I said and rested my head on his shoulder.

“Sadee, if we’re gonna get drunk, it’ll be a short night for you,” he said.

“Hey, I’m gonna be performing, I’m gonna sweat. It’ll be fine,” I said and then the car stopped. We both climbed out of the car and walked into the hotel lobby. Andy turned to me and gave me a kiss before we separated and went our own ways. I went upstairs to our room and he went downstairs to the ballroom. When I got to my room, I opened the door and walked inside. It was dark in there. Duh, it’s nighttime and all the lights are off.

“Damn, I’m more drunk than I thought I was,” I laughed at myself and turned on a light. I kicked off my heels and grabbed a different outfit from my bag and changed quickly. Someone knocked on the door and I groaned.

“Hold on!” I called out and tripped my way to the door and opened it. Zara and Jackson were standing there. My eyes got wide and I covered my chest.

“Whoa! Hold on!” I exclaimed and ran into the room and grabbed my shirt before quickly pulling it on.

“It’s fine. I’ve seen a girl in a bra before,” he said.

“Not the point. What’s up?” I asked.

“Are we ready to perform?” Zara asked.

“Hell yeah!” I exclaimed. “But let me put on my shoes first.” I grabbed my shoes from my bag and pulled them on quickly before leaving the room and walking to the elevator. We all rode the elevator to the basement area and walked to the ballroom. Inside it was dark, which is expected. But there were colorful lights shining and rock music playing. It looked quite similar to the AP party, but in a smaller room. Zara hooked her arm in mine and we walked through the crowd, I was trying to find Andy, she was trying to find CC, and hopefully they are in the same spot. I spotted Andy quickly, him being so tall, but I didn’t see CC. As we got closer, I saw it was just Andy, and he was talking to Jon.

“Hi,” I said and Jon looked at me.

“Hi, are you ready to perform?” He asked.

“Fuck yes,” I said and looked at Andy, who was smirking at my enthusiasm.

“Well, come on then. We need to get sound shit done,” Jon said and pulled me and Zara with him. We stopped at the makeshift backstage and I was handed my ear pieces and my mic.

“Make sure it’s working,” he said. I nodded and tested the mic. Works just fine. My body was warm, damn this alcohol is taking effect.

“You guys go on in ten minutes, be ready,” Jon said, patted my shoulder, and walked away.

“Oh my god this is exciting. We’re performing in front of important people in music. Holy shit,” Zara said.

“We perform in front of important people all the time,” I said.

“But this is different,” she said. I rolled my eyes and sat down on a stool.

“After this, we are all going to get drunk, alright?” Jackson asked us as he put his arms around our shoulders.

“Of course. I need alcohol,” I said and he chuckled. I looked at the time and smiled.

“Let’s go guys!” I jumped up and walked over to side stage. Zara went out behind her drumset and I heard Jon introducing us. The other two went out with their instruments and I smiled, took a breath, and walked out on stage. I waved at everyone and the music started.

It was amazing performing in front of all of them. They all paid attention and cheered us on. We did our entire set we do every night and then walked off stage. I was pumped and ready to drink.

“Alcohol!” I yelled and we walked out into the crowd and went to the bar. I ordered a mixer and when the bartender gave it to me, I downed half of it and walked away. Zara walked next to me and we found Andy and CC, as well as the rest of Black Veil Brides, sitting at a table, talking.

“Well if it isn’t Falling For Fatality,” Andy said and I smiled as I sat down next to him.

“Well if it isn’t Black Veil Brides,” I smiled and Andy kissed the side of my head. CC and Zara hadn’t told anyone, besides me, of their relationship so she stood near him awkwardly.

“Okay you two, if you don’t tell the rest of them, I will. You look so fucking awkward right now,” I looked at Zara and she swallowed.

“I don’t know what you are implying,” she said.

“Bull shit. Tell them, they are family,” I said. The band all looked around, confused.

“You are a bitch, you know that right?” Zara asked.

“Only the best,” I smiled and she sighed.

“Fine, me and CC are dating,” she said and they all shrugged.

“We kinda figured,” Ashley said.

“Okay, now Zara, you can stand or sit by CC now,” I said. She flipped me off and I smirked.

“Nope, I have Andy for that,” I said and she rolled her eyes. I finished my drink and sighed.

“Now I have to get up and get another drink,” I said.

“We all need drinks. Let’s go do some shots,” Andy said. We all got up and walked to the bar. Andy ordered nine shots of some alcohol I don’t really know and when it got to us, I sniffed it quickly and almost gagged.

“What the fuck is this?” I asked.

“Good, down it,” he said and I sighed before doing the shot. As the alcohol went down, it burned and hurt. I coughed and set the glass down.

“Oh god that’s disgusting,” I said.

“It is, but it’ll get you drunk fast,” Ashley said.

“I don’t want to get drunk fast though,” I said.

“You are a lightweight Sadee, you’re gonna get drunk fast regardless of what drink you have,” Jake said.

“Fuck you Jake,” I said and chuckled as the bartender set another shot down.

“Who ordered this?” I asked. Jackson smirked and I rolled my eyes before downing it. That tasted better.


The night went on and only two short hours later, I was completely trashed. Andy was kind of trashed but I was gone. It was midnight and I was slurring my words, dancing seductively, and being all clingy. Andy was enjoying it though, I could tell.

“I can’t wait to get back to LA and start recording,” I said and looked at Andy.

“Neither can I. You guys are gonna make a bad ass EP,” he said.

“Thank you babe. Now, I think I need another shot,” I said.

“Oh no you don’t. Let the last fifteen rest for a bit,” Andy held me back.

“No, I want to get shitfaced,” I said.

“You are shitfaced,” Andy chuckled. I sighed and crossed my arms.

“Party pooper,” I muttered.

“Definitely,” he said and I looked out at the dancefloor. Zara and CC were dancing, and were having fun.

“How about I do one more shot and then I’m done?” I asked. Andy stared at me for a long time before answering.

“Fine, but I get to choose the shot,” he said. I shrugged and we both got up from the table and went to the bar. Andy ordered me a shot and I downed it quickly before realizing what he got me.

“Fuck you. That shit is disgusting,” I said.

“You let me choose,” he said. I stumbled back to the table and rested my head on the table.

“Are you gonna fall asleep?” Jackson asked.

“Quite possibly,” I muttered and I heard Andy walked back to the table.

“Hey Andy, I think she might pass out,” Jackson said.

“I’m not gonna pass out dick weed,” I said.

“Dick weed? That’s a new one,” Jackson chuckled and I flipped him off.

“Actually, I think he might be right. Could you take her up to the room for me? I can’t leave till Jon says I can,” Andy asked Jackson and I heard Jackson nod and get out of the chair.

“Jackson’s gonna take you up to the room. Please do not pass out on the way there,” Andy helped me up and Jackson put his arm around my waist and we began walking to the room. Partway to the room, I blacked out, and couldn’t remember anything after the party.


An intense pain ran through my head as I laid on my bed. All the alcohol I had last night was coming back to haunt me. Fuck. What the hell happened? How did I get in bed? I rolled over and opened my eyes. As they focused, I basically shot myself out of the bed, pulling the sheets with me.

“What the fuck are you doing in my bed?” I asked. Jackson was laying in the spot where Andy usually is.

“What?” He asked.

“What the fuck? Why are you in here? Why am I naked? What the fuck did we do?” I asked all the questions at once and he thought for a second before smirking.

“That was fun,” he smirked.

“What was fun? Please tell me we didn’t,” I said once my brain connected the dots. He looked at me and kept smirking. This is not okay. Oh my god. Did I cheat on Andy without realizing it?

“Oh my god,” I said and shrunk down to the floor. I cheated on Andy. He is not going to forgive me. Holy shit.

Notes

BAM! Bomb has been dropped! Next chapter will be Sadee figuring out how to tell Andy. Then the chapter after that, I believe, is when she tells Andy. Then the chapter after that is the shitstorm! So excited. I should not be excited about this. If some of you hate me, just wait, you'll hate me more. Hope you liked it!

QUESTION TIME: I don't really have a specific question, but I do love hearing your thoughts and shit on what I should include, so keep the ideas coming! I love them all! And the spin off called The Irony of Your Perfection will begin probably on December 18.

UPDATE: I have finals coming up in school, I'm in college. So, I might not be able to post as frequently, but I will I promise! I am no where near done with this story. But yes, once December 18 hits, I will pick it up. So I will post a chapter every other day, or every two days. So expect the next chapter either on Wed. or Thurs. :3

Sadee's Outfit:
http://www.polyvore.com/sadee_bullets_in_music_box/set?id=141709712&lid=3974252

SMILES!!! (as always)