Bullets in a Music Box

I can tell you one thing for sure, if you put five guys who are extremely tired all onto one bus in the middle of the night, all you can hear is loud as fuck snoring. My eyes stayed open while I laid in the bunk next to Andy. I am used to his snoring, it's cute and soft, but the other four just are pissing me off. And my headphones are connected to my computer, which is by the couch. Fuck this. I carefully climbed over Andy and jumped down out of the bunk and walked to the couch area. I can't sleep anyways, fucking insomnia. The couch was comfortable and my computer was out here. I grabbed the laptop and put it on my lap before putting my headphones in and blasting All Time Low. Might as well get writing done.

It had been at least three hours and I was still awake. I glanced at the clock on my computer and saw it was nearing seven in the morning. Damn, it's been five and a half hours. I took my headphones out and closed my laptop before getting off the couch and walking to the bathroom. I'm still not tired. Fuck. As I walked out of the bathroom, I ran straight into Ashley. He was half asleep but stopped when he saw me.

"Morning," he muttered and slipped past me into the bathroom. I sighed and walked over to the bunk and looked at Andy. He was still sound asleep. At least the snoring is gone. Maybe I can take a little nap. I climbed over Andy carefully and curled myself into his side. Almost immediately, his arm wrapped around me and his head nuzzled into my shoulder. A smile grew on my face as I closed my eyes, praying that sleep would come.


Something was moving next to me that forced me awake. As my eyes opened, I saw Andy moving around and had his phone in his hand. He glanced over at me and smiled.

"I'm guessing you couldn't sleep?" He asked.

"I don't know what you are talking about," I mumbled and he chuckled.

"Sadee, every time you climb over me I wake up. I know you like to think you're all sleuthy and shit, but you're not. Why couldn't you sleep this time?" He asked. Damn.

"The snoring was loud, not yours, I'm used to yours. It's the others and my headphones were connected to my computer," I said.

"Well, I have headphones in the cubby down at our feet. You could've woken me up," he said and rubbed my arm.

"I wasn't tired," I sighed and sat up.

"Well, did you get sleep?" He asked.

"What time is it?" I asked.

"Eleven," he said.

"I got about four hours, I'll be good, maybe I'll sleep tonight," I said.

"We're in a hotel tonight, you better," he said.

"You guys just have the show tonight, right?" I asked.

"Yep, one show tonight at six, then tomorrow, which is Valentine's Day, by the way, we have an interview with a magazine and then a show at seven," he said.

"It is Valentine's Day tomorrow, isn't it?" I asked, a smirk growing on my face.

"It is. It's our first Valentine's Day together, be happy. I'm going to buy shit for you," he said.

"Good, cause I'm buying shit for you," I said and kissed him.

"Come on lovebirds, Jon has lunch planned for us," I heard CC smack the curtain and I burst out laughing.

"I'm not even dressed in street clothes," I said.

"Nice of you to be specific. Hurry up or you don't get food," CC called back and I rolled my eyes. Andy climbed out of the bunk, with me following him. I grabbed a pair of jeans and a shirt before quickly changing in the back studio area. When I finished, I walked back out and grabbed my converse. Andy was already in pants and a shirt, a ripped shirt.

"Girls take forever to get ready," he said.

"Sorry that I have to put a damn bra on," I said.

"You could go without it," he said.

"Ha, you'd like that, wouldn't you?" I chuckled and grabbed my jacket before walking off the bus and seeing the band all standing off to the side. I skipped over to them and stopped next to CC.

"She's alive!" Ashley laughed.

"I have been alive for 22 years, thank you very much asshole," I said.

"Let's just go eat," Jon said with a tired voice. Someone woke up on the wrong side of the bunk. As I was walking towards the door, I felt an arm snake around my waist and walk with me.

"You like being sarcastic with them, don't you?" Andy asked.

"If I am not sarcastic, I will die, literally," I said. We both walked into the diner and followed the band to a booth in the back. When we were all situated, I stretched my shoulders.

"Did you know, that all of you snore?" I asked.

"I don't snore," CC said.

"Bull shit. I couldn't sleep last night. All of you are really loud snore-ers," I said.

"We are all tired, give us a break," Jon said.

"I will not, I need to sleep or I will turn into a straight up bitch, and you don't want to see bitchy Sadee. Cause I take no shit from anyone and I tell it like it is," I said.

"Don't you do that normally?" Jinxx asked.

"It's worse. If I didn't get sleep, I would tell all of you that you smell like foot and it's not attractive at all. Shower more, seriously," I said.

"Damn girl," Ashley chuckled.

"I got maybe four hours of sleep, deal with it," I said.

"Okay, can we all just relax and enjoy some food?" Jon asked.

"Nope, when I get no sleep I get hyper and bitchy so, I don't think it's possible for me to relax," I answered and heard Andy snickering beside me.

"How can you live with her?" Jon asked.

"She gets sleep when we're at home," Andy answered. I danced my eyebrows and sighed before pulling out my phone and setting it on the table.

"Or she gets laid when you're at home," Ashley said.

"Could be that too," Andy said. I looked at him and smacked his arm.

"I'm not even sorry," he said. I was rolling my eyes and getting ready to send back a snarky remark when my phone began vibrating. A sigh escaped my lips before I grabbed it and answered it.

"Silence, all of you. Hello," I said.

"Sadee?" I heard what I think is Lauren, crying. Immediately my face shrunk into worry.

"Lauren? What's wrong?" I asked.

"It's Charlie," she said.

"What happened to Charlie?" I asked as I straightened my posture.

"I found him in his room," she said. Oh no. I looked at Ashley and motioned for him to move. They let me out and I walked outside to talk.

"What happened?" I asked.

"He tried to kill himself again Sadee," she said.

"Oh my god. How?" I asked.

"What?"

"How did you find him?" I asked.

"His wrists were bloody and there was an empty bottle of vodka on the floor with his anti depressants," she said.

"Is he in the hospital?" I asked.

"Yeah, he is. Gustav is in the room with him right now, but Charlie won't talk to either of us, nor the doctors," she said.

"He's awake?" I asked.

"Yeah, he's awake," she said.

"Give him the phone, please," I pleaded with her and then heard her walking and then I heard hushed voices and then she handed the phone to someone.

"Hello," I heard his raspy and quiet voice.

"What the hell Charlie?" I asked.

"I'm sorry, please don't be mad at me," he was almost crying.

"I'm not mad, I'm confused, why?" I asked. I heard the door to the diner open and close before seeing Andy walk up to me.

"The bullying is getting really bad," he said.

"Why? What are they saying?" I asked.

"Someone videotaped me and one of my close friends, um, kissing in the locker room," he said.

"I'm guessing this friend is a guy?" I asked.

"Yeah, um, they taped it and posted it on facebook. Everyone is trashing me and I couldn't handle it," he said.

"Charlie, you know, any time, day or night, you can call me, or Andy for that matter. I will always answer, so will he. Please, don't do this when I'm not there," I said, tears almost falling from my face.

"I tried calling you, no one answered," he said.

"I never got a call from you, neither did Andy," I said.

"They're gonna put me in the psych ward," he said.

"Who is?" I asked.

"The doctors, Lauren, my dad, all of them," he said.

"Look, I've been in the psych ward, they help you. Just don't hold anything back, okay?" I asked.

"Aunt Sadee, they won't let me see Cienne," he said. Oh no.

"Do you want her to see you like this?" I asked.

"No," he said quietly.

"Look, I have to go, but, promise me, never attempt suicide again. Ever," I said.

"I promise," he said.

"I'm going to buy you a bracelet and mail it to you, when it gets there, you wear it as the promise. And when you get those bad thoughts, write a song, write down your feelings," I said.

"I promise," he said while crying.

"Okay, I will talk to you later," I said.

"Bye Aunt Sadee," he said and hung up. I held the phone by my ear for a while after he hung up.

"What happened?" Andy asked.

"Charlie tried to kill himself again," I said and felt the tears falling.

"Wow," he said. A million thoughts were running through my head. I just wanted to get away from all the shit from home, but it's following me. Something bad is going to happen, I can feel it.

Notes

Well, they are in my town. I live in St. Paul right now for college...... But yeah. Charlie, poor Charlie. Yes, lots of crap is going to happen in California while the tour is going on, and Sadee will know all about it. But Andy is there for her, always. Part two of St. Paul, MN will come out tomorrow night, I have a busy day tomorrow. Hope you liked it!!!

I forgot to add Sadee's outfits, so:
Chapter one:
http://www.polyvore.com/sadee_bullets_in_music_box/set?id=137025942&lid=3974252

Chapter Two and Three:
http://www.polyvore.com/sadee_bullets_in_music_box/set?id=137026166

Chapter Four (or this chapter):
http://www.polyvore.com/sadee_bullets_in_music_box/set?id=137089473