Bullets in a Music Box

The warm Australian sun shined down on my bare legs as I sat on the ground outside the venue. The band is practicing for the set tonight and I didn't want to be inside the building. It has been a long time since I could wear shorts and enjoy the sunshine. I was alone and it was giving me time to think. When I had my panic attack in Sydney, I was scared out of my mind, I didn't know what was going on. It wasn't like any other panic attack I've ever had. A sigh escaped my lips and I herd the door open. At that point, I didn't care who it was, well, I did, but not really. Then the person sat down next to me. I know it's not Ashley, he's not that stupid. I opened my eyes and saw Charlie smiling back at me.

"What's up?" I asked.

"I just got the best news ever," he said.

"Okay?" I raised an eyebrow and he did a happy dance.

"I'm gonna be taught bass and Tyler is considering putting me as an alternate for Ashley," he said.

"They're gonna replace him?" I asked.

"I think Jon said something about just suspending him for a little while," he said. No, I don't want that. I got off of the ground and walked inside. Jon was talking to Andy when I spotted him.

"Jon, don't replace Ashley," I said. He looked up at me and raised an eyebrow.

"What?" He asked.

"Charlie just told me that you guys are going to teach him bass so he can be an alternate for Ashley. Don't do that. I understand that this whole thing is shitty, but this is Ashley's job," I said.

"It's not up to me Sadee," he said. I groaned and sighed.

"Then I'll talk to Tyler," I said.

"Sadee, if Ashley is suspended, it would be for like two weeks, but he would still be doing stuff for the tour," Jon said. Andy had his arms crossed and he was watching the two of us.

"As long as you promise me that he will still get the money he deserves for being in the band, I'll be okay with Charlie learning bass," I said and he nodded.

"Alright, Andy, do what I said, and I have to go do something, Jon said and left. I looked at Andy and he was smirking at me.

"What?" I asked.

"It still amazes me how much you care for other people, even when shit happens," he said. I shrugged and wrapped my arms around him and rested my head on his chest. He wrapped his arms around me and hugged me tightly.

"Do you want to come out on stage tonight?" He asked. I looked up at him and thought for a second. I should do something fun for a change.

"As long as Ashley stays the fuck away from me," I said.

"I will make sure of it," he said.



Later in the night, the band was playing, I was standing side stage with Charlie, watching and bobbing my head. I was having some fun. Charlie and I had danced around a little bit and Andy was singing Devil in the Mirror, which he knows is my favorite song. Then a sound tech handed me a mic and I closed my eyes before sighing. Andy was watching me with half concerned eyes. I walked out on stage and the crowd went absolutely wild. There were screaming girls who wanted me to see them and I was kind of enjoying it, and then I saw Ashley watching me and I immediately bit my lip and looked at Andy. Andy put his arm around me and looked at the crowd.

"Sadee here has been having a bad week, why don't we all cheer her up?" He said to the crowd and they screamed and a big smile grew on my face.

"Look! We got her to smile! How about we get her to smile more with the next song?! Scream your fucking hearts out!" Andy yelled into the mic and the song started. It was Sons of Night. I stood on the grate thing and swayed myself back and forth while bobbing my head. Andy started to sing and he walked around on the stage. The crowd was rockig out, they were all holding their hands up and screaming for me and I was so happy. Then I heard someone say something next to me. When I opened my eyes and saw Ashley, I jumped and gave him a look. He was playing but I could tell he was waiting for me to answer. I walked past him and over to where Andy was, an apprehensive look on my face. I began singing and I tried to get Ashley out of my mind, but it wasn't working. When Andy took over singing, I walked up to where CC was and saw him giving me a concerned look. I shrugged and danced up by the drum set. The song ended and I was sitting on the edge of the speakers.

"Okay guys, last song for the night, this is In The End," Andy said and they began playing. Andy walked over to me and put his hand on my leg.

"You okay?" He asked. I nodded and started the song before Andy could. As I sang, he watched me carefully. When he started to sing, I watched him walk around the stage, but he was clearly avoiding Ashley, and if I noticed it, I know the crowd did.

When we finished and walked off the stage, I grabbed a water bottle and took a drink of it before sighing. I turned around to face every one else, but I saw Andy wasn't there, just Ashley. He was looking at me through cincerned eyes.

"Look Sadee, you have to know how sorry I am," he said.

"Who the fuck said you could talk to me? You do remember that I had a panic attack the last time you talked to me? I don't give a shit how fucking sorry you are. What you did has screwed me up and it is taking every ounce of me to not cry right now. Stop talking to me, I don't give a shit what you have to say right now. All I care about is that you are going to teach Charlie bass so that he can be your alternate. And even that I am apprehensive about," I said. He held his jaw open and I threw my water bottle at him before walking away. I can't believe he thought it was okay to come and talk to me. I bit my lip as I walked over to where I saw Andy, he was talking to some fans. One of them saw me and freaked out with a smile on her face.

"Awe look, we have a Sadee," Andy smirked and wrapped his arm around me when I stopped next to him. I know he could tell I was uncomfortable andhe smiled at the fans.

"So sorry, but, we have to go talk to our manager, maybe I'll see you and the meet and greet," Andy said and we both walked away from them When we were far enough away and out of view, he turned me to face him and stared into my eyes.

"What's wrong?" He asked.

"Ashley tried talking to me again and I might have thrown my water bottle at him and said that I don't want him talking to me," I said.

"I swear, he doesn't fucking learn," Andy said and pulled me to his chest. As his scent engulfes me, I closed my eyes and wrapped my own arms around him. I just want to move past this, I don't want Ashley to be freaking me out anymore.

Notes

Not that dramatic, but I did possibly take the idea of a commenter, you know who you are. :3 But I have some stuff up my sleeve for the next while in the story, so yeah. And shits gonna get heavy between Andy and Ashley, but not quite to the point of Andy fighting with Ashley, not quite yet. Hope you liked it!

I don't have any questions of you, but I am liking the suggestions! Keep em coming!!!

Sadee's Outfit:
http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=139733851

Smiles! (As always)