Two Days Later

Star's P.O.V.~

I got into the shower and thought about what Britney had told me two days ago. That gave me one day to make my "decision". I pulled a pair of my Indigo High Waisted Skinny Jeans and my Hello Kitty Tonal Pullover Top Ashley got me for my early birthday present. I plugged in my curling iron and began to draw spirals on my eyes with liquid eye liner.

After brushing my teeth and applying so Cherry Lip gloss, my curling iron beeped; I sprayed my hair down in hairspray and walked into Andy's room. "Andy, wake up sweetheart" his blue gems peered open as he rubbed them with the back of his hand making him ten times as adorable. "I have to go to school, I just wanted to say goodbye." I kissed his forehead, nose, and finally his lips, only to be pulled down with him. He rolled me under him and his head was plopped onto my chest.

I giggled at his childish action. "Andy, I have to go." He scowled while replying. "No. Stay." I playfully rolled my eyes and attempted to roll him off of me. His strong arms went under my back and held me close. I played with his hair before moving my foot upwards, making a groan leave his lips and his eyes go wide. "Hey!" He growled, letting me go. I smirked and kissed his lips after getting up. "Bye baby." He muttered a 'bye' before closing his eyes again.

My feet then carried me to Violet's room, I knocked three times. "Violet! Get up its time for school." I heard mumbling and Violet come over to the door, fully dressed. I rolled my eyes and fixed her messy hair. "Get some before school?" I teased, noticing Ashley taking his time pulling up his jeans. Her cheeks flushed pink before pecking Ashley on the lips and walking with me towards the front door.

I turned the stereo on in her car, only to be greeted with the new Falling in Reverse album, 'Just Like You'. I sent a small glare to Violet "what? I wanted to hear it, I heard it was good" she defended before changing the station. We made it to school in silence, the only noise was the wind blowing through our hair and the occasional beeps from other cars. "I'll see you in lunch" I waved Violet off and walked into the school, straight to my locker to grab my first and second period materials.

I walked into Math Class and shyly waved at Anthony, who was saving my seat as usual. "Hey Star, how are you feeling?" he asked, pulling my chair out for me. I plopped down and turned towards him. "I'm tired, stressed, the usual. You?" He twisted his lips and pulled his eye brows together. "What happened?" I sighed and began to speak. "I came home the other night to CC and Ashley having a screaming match with Jacky and Ryan, then to find Ronnie on top of Andy continuously throwing back and forth punches. I moved out of Ronnie's and back into Andrew and the guys' house." He bit his lip and shook his head. "Damn, you alright?" I shrugged and lay my head down on my desk.

"Star! Come on, you have to see this!" Winter yelled while sprinting towards Sunni, Violet, and I under our tree. "What? What's going on?" I started to panic as she grabbed my hand and practically dragged me inside the cafeteria. What I saw nearly made my heart come up my throat. Britney had printed the pictures and stuck them around the school. Only, they weren't the same. It was a real picture of me, a picture from the last time Andy and I have done anything sexually. My waist-down was covered, only showing my bare leg, but the only things covering my chest were hands, Andy's hands. "Are you fucking kidding me?!" I screeched, causing everyone to turn towards my direction. Boys were winking at me, and girls were giggling. Suddenly, the whole cafeteria burst into laughter.

Tears sprung my eyes from embarrassment and anger. I walked up to Britney and shoved her back into Terrance. "This was not apart of the deal you sick fucking cunt!" I gritted my teeth together, trying to contain myself. "Oh, trust me, I am aware. But once Terrance, here, showed me the photos he got, I couldn't let them go to waste!" I felt my face heat up as my fist blew hard into her pierced nose. "Deal is off bitch. Andrew is mine." I walked away and tore off a photo that was hanging above the garbage can. Violet and Sunni stood in shock as Winter came back with the Principal at her heels. "What happened Ms. Benson? I can't say I am surprised to be hearing back from you again." I turned my heel towards him. "You know what? Fuck you and your fucking educational school system. I'm beyond fucking done. Kiss my ass." I flipped the cafeteria off and stormed out of the building.

"Star, are you okay?" Winter asked me, giving me a comforting squeeze on my shoulder. "I will be. But I have to go home and tell Andy that the pictures aren't real of Ronnie and I. Bye Winter, thank you for everything." I gave her a sincere hug and squeezed into Violet's car.

"Andrew! Andy!" I shouted as I ran into the house. "He's not here Star, he left half an hour ago." Jake explained. All the guys were sitting on the couch, not even the tv was turned on. "What's going on? Where is he? I have to talk to him." I stumbled through my vocabulary, but watched as Ashley motioned for me to walk towards him. "We know Star, he saw the pictures." My heart dropped. He must've believed them, that's why he's gone. "But...it was fake. I swear!" I raised my voice, water building up into my eyes making my vision slightly blurry. "We know Star, we know." I dropped my secure posture and slouched against the wall, I had lost him. For real.

"I know too, Star." A voice said behind me I turned quickly and saw Andy standing there with his arms crossed and a soft expression. He held out his arms and I ran into them, hugging his waist tightly. Tears were flowing softly out of my eyes as He squeezed me tightly against him. "You're never going to lose me Star, No matter what happens. I love you." I moved my face so he could hear me. "I love you too."

"Why are you home so early?" CC asked me as I sat comfortably on Andrew's lap, playing with his hair. "I...uhm..I dropped out. I told the Principal to kiss my ass and walked out." Why?" Jinxx asked, leaning forward, showing interest. I took a deep breathe and began. "Britney's new boyfriend, Terrance, took photos me and Andy, in the bedroom. He gave them to Britney and she printed them out all over the school. Everyone there sees me as a worthless slut, there's no point in going back there. If anything, I'll go cyber. I can't take it anymore, Britney's tearing me apart and she's getting better at trying to break me." I was sobbing into Andy's tshirt now, feeling his cold hands rub up and down my spine. "shh, baby, you're okay." I shook my head.

"No Andy, you don't understand. None of you do. You boys are in college for music and more education. I have spent my Middle and High school experience crying, hiding, and wishing for the constant heartache to stop. I don't know how much longer I can handle all of this. I've wanted it to end so much lately, it takes everything I've got to keep myself here. You guys are the only thing keeping me from leaving to meet my mother, because I have prayed that she would take me away in my sleep. Anything. And the scary part is, I don't know if leaving school will help me, or if I am already far to broken to be fixed. It scares me, but it's how I feel. I can still see the forever scars on my wrist from Britney slicing them open. I can still feel the existing fat on my stomach and thighs like they have told me, even though I have done everything to get rid of it. I can feel the hits and kicks from different people in Britney's group. And I can still see and feel the ache in my chest of Britney shoving Andy in my face only to take him away from me to shatter the rest of the life I have into pieces."

Everyone had tears in their eyes as I finished my rant. And that's when I realized, I had just told them everything. The pain, the not eating, the wishes. Everything, I began to panic and all I could think of doing was to run away, but Andrew's grip on my waist kept me from moving. Andy was crying the hardest, which only made me feel worse. "Why didn't you ever tell me any of this?" Andy desperately asked. "I have Andrew. From sixth grade to ninth. In tenth grade, when you would watch what they did to me, I gave up on trying to get you back. I was afraid you would ignore my pleads for help again." His grip loosened in defeat. "I'm so sorry Star." Andy pleaded, wrapping his strong arms around me again. By now, I felt numb. I felt absolutely nothing. No pain, no sadness, nothing.

"We're going to help you Star, I promise." Jake said, nudging the others as they spoke up to agree. I clung onto Andy and curled onto his lap. "Thank you" I whispered, before forcing my eyes close to fall into slumber.

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I woke up with my head on Andy's bare chest, following his heartbeat as It continued to beat in a steady pace. I turned and looked at the clock; 8:42 am. I huffed and sat up slowly, careful not to wake up the raven haired boy lying in my bed. I stumbled downstairs and instantly spelled bacon, my stomach growled but the smell made me sick. "Good morning Star, bacon? Eggs?" CC offered, gesturing to the pans on the heated stove. "no thank you, I'll stick to my coffee. "Star, you have to eat." I rolled my eyes silently. "I didn't blurt that out for you to use it against me. I don't want to talk about this, or do any of this." I stood up abruptly and walked out to the back deck.

"Star, I'm sorry if I upset you, I just thought you'd want something to eat." CC explained gently, sitting next to me. " I know, I'm sorry for snapping at you. I really am lucky to have you." I gave him a quick hug as he kissed my temple and went back inside. "Guess who" A deep, seductive voice said as he covered my eyes with his hands. "Batman?" I teased, I heard him gasp. "Oh no, babe please don't tell the others. They can't know." I looked at him confused. "Know what? That my incredibly sexy boyfriend is Batman?" He covered my mouth and looked around. Suddenly, we both start laughing uncontrollably.

"What do you want to do today?" Andy questioned, stripping down to get a shower. "Surprise me." I got down to my bra and underwear, surprising him when he turned around. His eyes went from lust to worry. "Babe, when's the last time you actually ate a full meal?" I frowned and covered my stomach. "Why?" I asked, hugging my body close. "Baby, I can almost see your ribs, that's not healthy sweetheart." I looked away as he tried to get me to look at him. "Star, I didn't mean it that way-" "No it's fine. I get it. Just get your shower." I pulled my shirt back over my head and walked out of the bathroom, leaving him alone.

As the shower stopped, I hugged the comforter closer to me and snuggled my face into the pillow. Andrew came out in his batman boxers and sat net to me, making the bed dip. "Star, please look at me." I turned further away, not wanting me see how disgusted he must be. "baby you're beautiful I just-" "Don't call me that." I sobbed, hiding my face from his view. "Star, I just want you to be okay." "Then you don't start off by pointing out my flaws. I know I am not perfect. I don't need to hear it from you too." He sighed heavily and came under the covers with me. He lay his hand on top of my hip bone and began rubbing with the pad of his thumb. I clenched my eyes shut and ignored the repeated words in my head.

"How long?" He asked in a slight whimper. "I stopped in eighth grade, started again in tenth." He was silent for a while. "But eighth grade is when I gave you the locket?" I bit my lip. "Hence the reason why I said I stopped. You made me feel beautiful Andy. But when you left, you took a lot of me with you." "Why do you do it?" I sighed, I really didn't want to talk about this. "Violet and Sunni helped me for awhile, that is, until I caught Sunni throwing up in the bathroom. Everyone made me feel so imperfect, this was the one thing I could control. I didn't want to be the label "pig" or "fat". Britney made me feel like such shit. When we were in seventh grade, her and her friends head me down and made me throw up everything I had that day. I started off as 120 pounds." He looked at me. " What about now?" I looked down. "Haven't checked." He stood up and grabbed my hand and pulled me to the bathroom.

"What're you doing?" I asked, worried. He pulled out a scale and I instantly had the urge to run over to the toilet. He looked down at the scale and up at me. I shook my head and ran out of the bathroom. "ASHLEY! COME HERE NOW!" Andy screamed. Ashley's arms wrapped around my waist and picked me up. I started screaming and thrashing around. Hot tears were streaming down my flushed cheeks. "I fucking hate you! Put me down!" He set me down in front of the scale and blocked my way out. Andy picked up and set me of the scale. My hands were shaking and I was still crying. My eyes were on the ceiling.

"Shit.." I heard Ashley gasp. I started crying harder and Andy slapped him on the back, hard. "94.8 pounds" Andy exclaimed, rubbing his temples. I jerked myself out of their grip and slammed the bathroom door shut as I stomped out of the bedroom. I walked into Andrew's room and locked the door.
94.8 pounds The way he said it, I could tell he was disgusted. A soft knock was on the door, I ignored it and stared at the ground. "Star baby, open up." I glared at the door. "go away." I spat, crossing my arms. "But, this is my room." Realizing I couldn't argue, I unlocked the door and turned my back on him. "Star, I'm sorry." I huffed. "You had no right to do that. You had every idea that I was uncomfortable so what do you do? You bring Ashley up. You had no right to force me to show you how much I weigh.. So fuck you on that part.

"I know, I'm sorry baby. I promise, I'll never force you to again. Please forgive me" I turned towards him slowly and pouted. he pecked my lips, I kissed him a gain, harder. His arms went around my waist and pulled my shirt up. I hissed and pulled it back down. "please, just, hold me." He gave me a small smile and climbed into bed. He turned the lights off and began singing a song I had never heard before. His raspy, yet soothing, voice drove me to sleep.

"Savior will be there, when you are feeling alone, oh
A savior for all that you do, so you live freely without their harm"

Notes

It's 4:47 and I have gotten 0 sleep...

Goodnight :*

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