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Courtney's POV:

The storm is both amazingly enticing, yet also incredibly petrifying.

I'm frozen on my place at the edge of the cliff, a terrifying crowd of angry storm clouds rolling towards me, and with it, they bring their suffocating storm. I'm scared, yet also serenely calm. I'm everything and nothing. It's all horribly confusing.

The wind sweeps my dark hair over my shoulder, the black waves hissing at my face and lashing t my delicate less. Yet, despite the obvious stings I know I should feel, I feel absolutely nothing. Nothing at all. Have I managed t successfully go numb? I don't want to, I was just beginning to feel again. I can't go back, not yet. Not now.

The storm approaches slowly, taunting me almost.I attempt to flee the dangerous cliff many times, but appear frozen to the spot. i take a deep breath, and take a hesitant step forward, and relish in the new found ability to move my legs. I ty to move back, but cannot. I can only move forwards.

I find myself at the very edge of the cliff, and gaze down at the slashing, dark water below. Some especially pointy rocks make me internally cringe, and I look above at the oncoming storm. Just from gazing at the angry clouds i can tell this storm will be very, very powerful, and will not pass easily. It has bottled up emotions welled up within it's misty swirls, emotions and feelings that should've been conveyed way sooner. And because of the procrastinating, it's even angrier.

I take a deep breath and try to think clearly, although doing so takes a lot of concentration that i currently do not have. I could stay and await the storm, the more logical and less life-threatening answer, or i could move foeward, possibly to my death, and take a leap of faith. Literally. If I jump I'll be safe from the storm, but at the same time, the wild rapids will surely swallow me. So it comes down to one choice: how do i want to die? Being a coward, awaiting my impending doom, watching with remorse as my life comes to an end, only to decide last minute that jumping would've been the much better option. I would die with regrets, and something tells me that thats a bad way to go out. Or I could jump, falling through the wind before I die. I would get one final taste of freedom before I would die, one moment to be free. To rid myself of my demons. And maybe, that's the better option.

I glance down at the grey, rolling tides below, the waves angrily slashing against the cliff. I take a deep breath, my final decision of life hanging in the air. If I jump, I'll die maybe quicker, burt possibly happier than the alternative. If I stay, I'll be trapped within my head for the final moments of my life, alone with my demons.

I suck in a sharp breath, and jump.

As I begin my free-fall, the sky above clears, the angry, dark clouds evaporating into mist, and then gliding up into the crystal sky. The ravage wing makes my limbs dance, tickling my sides as it gently caresses my one last time. I spin in the air and catch a sight at my death. The harsh waves now resemble a calm aquamarine tide. Their essence brining calm to my rating heart.

The water catches me effortlessly, embracing me in its coolness. I plunge into the clear water, and then slowly, taking my time, swim to the surface. When my head meets the surface, I feel like I can breath for the first time since Ashley left, and my head is clear. No annoying, condescending voices echo rattle my brain, there is silence, aside from my own thoughts.

I tred water lightly and ring back my hair, letting the refreshing water drip from my ebony hair. I tilt my head back, letting the war glow of the sun above lick my face, healing the wounds caused from my undoing. I smile and close my eyes. An all too familiar sentence running through my head.


I believe that we all fall down, sometimes.

Notes

Yeah, so I lied, again!
Did you really think I was going to end my favourite story like that? I personally loved writing this chapter, so much!!!! It was juts amazing, and has a lot of hidden meanings within it.

So, Courtney and Andy's ultimate love story is not yet over folks! Nope, not even close!! I'm seeing sequels upon sequels for these guys!!!!

Love you BVB army!!!!