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Courtney's POV:

I've seen Andy smile before, and it was truly the most wonderful sight in the entire universe, but his smile after I said those simple, truthful words was by far the brightest, most sincere thing I've ever seen.

He pressed his lips against mine softly, our kiss nothing like our others. And even though we had only shared two kisses with each other, I feel like I've kissed him a thousand times, and each touch of our lips lights up my plagued heart, and I think maybe I'll survive. All because of him, because of Andy. Because he loves me and I love him, with everything I have.

Andy is the first to pull away and just pulls me as close to him as physically possible, and we just stand there for a few uninterrupted moments. Our breathing and heart rates matched and our bodies pressed perfectly together. My heart flutters and doesn't seem to be stopping anytime soon. This is by far the happiest I've ever been, even more than when Ash came home, than when I met my idols for the very first time. A part of me never wants for this moment to end, it's just so perfect, but the other, larger part wants to move past this, to explore everything our relationship has to offer. And that idea both terrifies and excites me beyond anything I could ever imagine.

Sadly, our perfect moment is ruined by a creaking from the hallway, followed by the shushing of the guys. I roll my eyes and Andy smiles again, touching his forehead to mine, immediately brining more butterflies to my stomach, the good kind.

"They're so annoying. Always ruining our time," I whine, pouting.

Andy chuckles and press his lips to my forehead affectionately, "it's okay babe, we'll have plenty more of 'our' time, I promise. I'm not letting you out of my sight ever."

I smile and go to open my door, and in topples CC, Jinxx, Jake and even Ashley. They scramble to stand up, and their mouths open and close like a fish, trying to come up with an excuse for their not so subtle eavesdropping. I cross my arms over my chest and raise an eyebrow at the fumbling idiots before me, but my hard expression softens when Andy wraps an arm around my shoulder.

"What, are you morons doing exactly?" I snap, trying my best to mock anger.

The all begin talking at once, so I hold up a hand to silence them, "one at a time boys. I swear I'm surrounded by children sometimes!"

"We were just in the neighbourhood, and decided to check in on things," Jake rambles out quickly.

CC nods eagerly, "yeah! Plus like you were really, really, mad earlier, and you stormed out. And you were in the hospital earlier today, or was that yesterday? Anyways, Ash got worried and shit after Andy talked to him and-"

"CC? How much Red Bull have you had today?" I ask cautiously.

He shrugs but shuts up, and Jinxx takes over with the explanation. "What CC was trying to say, is we just wanted to make sure things were okay with you two, plus Ash doesn't trust you guys alone together," he smirks at the last part, "and we kinda saw something... Interesting happen. Ash? Wanna take over?"

"Asshole," my brother mutters under his breath. "We fucking saw you two kiss, which was horrible for me by the way. But I'll admit, you guys look good together. Thank Andy for that, sis."

I furrow my eyebrows and turn to Andy, who is looking awkwardly around the room.

"Andy?" I ask.

"Did you have to tell her that?" He groans making the guys laugh.

"hey dude, you kiss my sister, I think I can tell her whatever I want," Ash jokes, though there is a hardness in his eyes.

"Shut up! All of you! Get out of my room, go!" I shoo them from the room, so that Andy and I can be alone again.

"So what was Ash talking about?" I inquire after the leave and shut the door, before Ash shouts, "if I hear kissing sounds I'm going to buy a fucking gun!"

"Nothing really, I just gave him the whole , 'i'm in love with your sister' talk. Those are awkward enough as is, try talking about that with your band member and best friend?" He groans, shaking his head.

I laugh lightly, "so, what did the bastard say?"

Andy opens his mouth to respond when a shout from the hallway is heard, "I heard that you little shit!"

Andy bursts out laughing and I scowl, stalking towards the door, I hurl a stuffed monkey at him and yell for him to leave us alone.

Andy pulls me into his arms and forces me to make eye contact with him, "he basically gave me the stereotypical speech. 'If you fucking hurt her I'll rip off your balls' or some shit like that. He also claims to be buying a gun, which is news to me."

I roll my eyes, "ASHLEY! WE ARE NOT FUCKING BUYING A GUN!" I shout.

Andy laughs again, but a thought pops into my head. I'm not proud of it, but the question is gnawing away at my insides, and my self-conscious persona is begging to ask.

"Andy?" I say slowly, "why do we exist? you could have any girl you want easily, and I'm me."

Andy sighs and sits on my bed, pulling me into his lap, and he tightens his arms around me. "Courtney, I love you because you are you. I'm in love with you because you play Call of Duty with me, and can kick my ass at it. Because you are equally as addicted to Red Bull as CC. Because of how you have memorized every BVB lyric of all time, and that you find a special meaning behind every song. Because you watch hockey, football, soccer, UFC and basically every sport - except baseball because you hate baseball. I'm in love with you because you are broken, but yet you still are so selfless, and put others before you whiners you can. Because
you forgave Ash when he was worried you wouldn't. Because despite all the shit life has handed you, you can still smile and laugh. I love you because you are strong, and stubborn, beautiful and just overall the most spectacular human being I have ever met."

Tears spring to my eyes at his words and I hug him, his words music to my ears.

Andy pulls me to arms length-away and looks into my watering green eyes with his brilliant blue ones, smiling softly. "Andy, I love you so much, you have no idea."

"I think I have an idea," he grins, "but you could alway prove it," he says cheekily.

I swat his chest, laughing just as the door opens again, revealing my brother. Dude has got to get better timing.

He takes one look at us and yells into the hallway, "Jinxx! Double barrel or triple barrel?"

Jinxx pops his head into the room and grins, "triple, Because overkill is fun."

Notes

okay, so super adorable chapter in my opinion,
btw, that last part, if it confuses you, double &triple is referring to the barrels of a gun. That exact conversation actually happened between my brother and dad about me. My brother said the last line of this chapter, and it still kills me every time. It's not true though, since like I'm ugly as fuck, but still endearing.

hope you enjoyed the chapter!! More drama is approaching though... and did I mention that Xavier isn't gone?? He isn't!!