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Courtney's POV:

I heard Ash's pounding footsteps as he bounded up the stairs to follow me. Luckily I shut my door in time before he reached it.

He knocked lightly on the door, "Court? I know it's been awhile, but please, it's the first time I've seen you in god knows how long. Please open the door so I can just see you."

Something snapped inside me at his words. I stood up abruptly, my legs wobbling a little as I did so, and unlocked my door, and sharply opening it. Ash looked somewhat surprised and relieved that I caved so easily, but I wasn't even close to being done.

"I would like for you to rethink to that sentence again. You haven't seen me, because you left! You missed out on my life because you weren't there! Don't you get that? You can't fucking just waltz in here just because you're a fucking rock starving expect all smiles and hugs. I cried everyday you were gone for an entire year! Some days, Gran couldn't send me to school because of how bad it was! I was depressed! At age nine! I had no brother, no mom or dad! Nada! So, I think I'm the one who should be questioning you!" I shouted into his stunned face.

He opened his mouth, then closed it, then opened it again. "Wow," was all he said.

"wow?" I repeated, angry.

"My baby sister can swear, and yell at me. I remember the last argument we had, you felt bad because you raised your voice a little at me."

For a moment, my heart warms that he remembers something that long ago, then I remember, that it was that long ago.

"Well, we could've had way more fights if you'd actually been there!" I scream.

He he shakes his head and sighs, leaning against the door frame, "I wanted to go to L.A, I couldn't take you with me. Yes, I know I haven't called or shit, but be glad that at least I'm here, now better than never."

I crossed my arms over my chest, scowling at him, "you think a lame ass apology will fix everything? It won't. It won't fix the heart you broke, the tears I shed, the days I lost, all of that was and always will be your fault!"

He smirked, that damn smirk. "You know, I actually never 'apologized' but I will when you finally give your bro a hug," he opened his arms again, raising an eyebrow at me. Almost challenging me. The dick.

I huffed, "fine, you first."

He grinned, "not going to work this time sis. I know your tactics. Hug me! C'mon, I'm lonely!" He pouted at the end.

I sighed, and stepped into his embrace. Ashley's arms wrapped tightly around me, crushing the air from my nimble body, and lifting me off the ground. I couldn't take it anymore, and melted into my brother's arms, missing his hugs. When Ash finally released me, I sprung back, like he'd burned me, and my scowl returned.

"Happy?" I sneered.

"very," he teased.

"i'm so sorry Court for leaving you. I regretted it the instant I left, but couldn't find it in myself to tear you away from your life, but I just had to do it. I'm so sorry, and I know I can't take back what happened to you, and my actions, but I can try and make it up to you."

I nodded in understanding and agreement. Ash had tears forming in his eyes by the end of his speech, and I couldn't hear to see my big brother cry. I wrapped my arms around him, and help him while he cried into my shoulder silently. Even though he was easily twice my weight and height, I supported the both of us. If the entire weight if the world were cast upon my shoulders at that very second, I'd still manage to hold my brother up. Because even though he'd hurt me, I loved him, and nothing was ever going to stop me from holding him up.

"I missed you Ash. I love you too," I finally cried.

Notes

This chapter actually has a lot of sentimental value to me

the ending part especially, since I'm a younger sister, and I've had to help my brother after many things, such as break-ups, change, my own mental health problems affected him as well.

so I hope everyone liked the chappie!
maybe another update tomorrow? I may work on my other stories since I updated twice today... I'll think about it!

Love you guys! And goodnight!!!