Courtney's POV:

The following day I was up at dawn, literally, and had the boys up and about only an hour and a half later. Personally, I think I did a decent job.

We were to head out to the police station around 10am, and I was a nervous wreck. Constantly shaking and my anxiety threatened to pull me under once again, let's just say it wasn't a fun morning.

Ashley assured me that this was just a typical process, the police wanted for me to explain what exactly happened, and from there they would find a suitable punishment. I understood the process, just the idea that Xavier would be able to attend Hilton-Dald High with me... Everyday, that was the part that bothered me.

The guys worked to cheer me up and keep my mind off the approaching police station visit by going out of there way to annoy the hell out of me. CC in particular. I loved the boys to death, but there were times that I wanted to strangle them, CC in particular. They had chosen to reside in Ashley and I's place until after the police visit. Plus their presence made me feel a little safer, and Andy agreed to stay with me every night without failure. It pissed Ashley off, but it prevented my night terrors from continuing and allowed for the both of us to sleep better.

"Alright, Court, how're you feeling?" Ash asked as we pulled up in the parking lot.

I nervously dug my black manicured nails into my palm, a habit I did not intend on breaking anytime soon.

"nervous as fuck, thanks for asking."

He sighed, "look, I know you're a bit anxious, but try not to freak out. It's just a standard protocol, besides there's no way in hell that bastard is going to go anywhere near you."

I nodded, hoping that this day would breeze by.

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The questioning went by very quickly, quicker than I ever could imagine. The police simply asked me a few questions regarding the situation, then proceeded to ask how I knew Xavier. Andy and Ashley were even allowed to stay with me, however the combination of CC, Jake and Jinxx was too much, and they were forced to wait outside.

After the meeting, it was around noon, and we had loads of time to kill considering Ash was intent on keeping me home the entire week. Somehow, I'd managed to convince him to lower that, and I would go back to school tomorrow. Okay, maybe Wednesday.

"So what do you guys want to do next? Show a girl a good time! come on! It's your chance to release your inner party animal!" I demanded as they all have each other strange looks.

"Sorry little sister, but partying with my younger sister isn't high on my to do list, so I think I'll pass. Any other brilliant ideas?" Ashley commented, shaking his head.

I thought for a moment before responding, "shopping?"

Immediately a chorus of groans erupted from the group, resulting in a small grin to break out on my face.

"Okay, so 'no' to shopping I take it?" They nodded eagerly, "so then what do you recommend we do?"

When no one responded I sighed, "I guess an afternoon of Vampire Diaries for me. Drop me home."

As we drove the guys continued to act rambunctious and rowdy, laughing their asses off at random shit. I however, felt my mind began to burn. Thoughts bubbled to the surface of my conscious, thoughts that hadn't resurfaced since I'd met Andy and the others.

The choking feeling of isolation and melancholy began to clout around me, enveloping me in their familiar embrace. I didn't try to fight it off, already knowing that option useless. No, I had something else to do.

The moment the car stopped I leapt from the vehicle, ignoring the shouts of the guys behind me. they didn't care, it was all a ruse, a lie. An act to hurt me further, and they were winning. But a life lesson i treasured remained etched into my brain: always get the last laugh.

i made my way to my room, locking the door and shutting myself up in my bathroom. They pounded on the door after me, there efforts useless as I made my way deeper into my world of darkness. Only this time, I never intended on leaving. I would reside here, permanently.

Notes

Spooky
so Courtney is going through shit, just when we all thought things were working out for her
shes also suicidal at the moment, and locked in her room.
im scared guys

qotd: fav BVB song from Wretched & Divine?

I personally cannot pick a favourite, I like every song on that album

also, HAPPY EARLY NEW YEAR'S!
im so excited for the start of a new year, because this year was way to hard on me, an I'm looking forward for a fresh start