The Wretched And Divine
Faith Will Find A Way
ANDY'S POV
It was now one day till the fight. Alex clung to me all day; following me around, telling me how much she loves me, making me food and she even offered to have sex with me again. But it didn't annoy me, more so worried me. I knew, despite the smile on her face, that she was being plagued by utter distress. She was treating me like royalty because she convinced herself that I wasn't going to make it out of the fight alive. It was an unnerving feeling afflicted by that fear.
Even as she clung onto my arm for dear life as we watched TV, I felt uneasy.
"What going to happen to me?" Alex spoke up softly, her voice just above a whisper.
I turned my head to look at her. Her eyes were still glued to the television but I knew she was paying no attention to what was on the screen.
My eyebrows furrowed together and I couldn't decipher what she meant because of the blank look at her face. "What do you mean?" I asked.
Her voice was hushed even more than before when she said, "If you die."
I groaned. "Alex I'm not gonna-"
"Andy! You don't know that! There's a big chance that Max will kill you and I need to know what's gonna happen to me if he does!" She sat on her knees and faced me before continuing. "Where am I gonna go? How will I cope? Wha-what will I do?" Alex's face became solemn as she awaited my reply though her eyebrows were narrowed.
I sighed before answering all her questions in the order they were asked. "I know you're more than welcome to stay her and, if you feel uncomfortable, I know one of the guys would take you in... It would obviously be hard but you'd eventually move on. I don't want you living your life in despair because of my death, okay? And I'm not sure what you will do, you'll have to take it day by day, but you will not bring any harm to yourself in any way. Promise?" Her look softened to the point where she looked almost calm.
"I don't know what I'd do without you, Andy.." Her voice cracked and it was obvious that she was holding back tears. I nodded in understanding; feeling the same way if I lost Alex.
"I know, I know. But you have to promise me won't hurt yourself if I do die." As I urged Alex to vow that she would bring no harm to herself, I couldn't help but think of what Ashley said.
"I don't know what i'd do if i came here one day and found her in the bathtub with her wrists slit or in your bed with a bottle of pills next to her."
She was quiet and I could sense her heart beating rapidly. I had to make sure that the guys watched her closely till she was showing true signs of moving on, not just fake ones.
"..Promise." I nodded before I captured her lips in mine.
I stood up and brushed her hair out of her face. "Good. Now, I have to go train some more with my dad. Ashley should be here within the hour. Will you be okay by yourself for a little while?"
The second Ashley was mentioned, a worried look washed over her porcelain features. Alex questioned, "Is Devlynn coming too?" I gave her a strange look and shook my head before I asked why. "She kept giving me dirty looks yesterday.. I don't think she likes me."
I laughed. "She was just jealous. She saw how excited Ash was to see you and how he picked you up when you guys hugged and y'know, him grabbing your boobs is enough to make any girlfriend jealous. He was upfront with her and, although he his madly in love with Devlynn, he had feelings for you. She's probably scared he'll leave her for you or something." I shrugged indifferently, knowing that was impossible. Alex sighed and nodded.
"Okay, good. Well have fun training, love you." Alex reached up and pulled me down by my shirt and reconnected our lips. We exchanged smiles before I exited the living room and headed for my father's office, knowing he'd be there.
I knocked gently and waited for my father to tell me to come in before entering. He was, as usual, on his computer typing viciously. I sat down in one of the leather armchairs and waited for him to be finished.
He kept his gaze locked on the computer screen as he asked, "Ready to train?"
I smirked. "Of course."
He shut his computer off and removed his glasses before he stood up. I followed him out of his office and towards the back doors. As we walked passed the living room, I frowned upon seeing Alex with her knees hugged to her chest and her head buried in them. She was shaking slightly, signaling that she was crying, and all I wanted to do was hold her.
But I couldn't.
It was now one day till the fight. Alex clung to me all day; following me around, telling me how much she loves me, making me food and she even offered to have sex with me again. But it didn't annoy me, more so worried me. I knew, despite the smile on her face, that she was being plagued by utter distress. She was treating me like royalty because she convinced herself that I wasn't going to make it out of the fight alive. It was an unnerving feeling afflicted by that fear.
Even as she clung onto my arm for dear life as we watched TV, I felt uneasy.
"What going to happen to me?" Alex spoke up softly, her voice just above a whisper.
I turned my head to look at her. Her eyes were still glued to the television but I knew she was paying no attention to what was on the screen.
My eyebrows furrowed together and I couldn't decipher what she meant because of the blank look at her face. "What do you mean?" I asked.
Her voice was hushed even more than before when she said, "If you die."
I groaned. "Alex I'm not gonna-"
"Andy! You don't know that! There's a big chance that Max will kill you and I need to know what's gonna happen to me if he does!" She sat on her knees and faced me before continuing. "Where am I gonna go? How will I cope? Wha-what will I do?" Alex's face became solemn as she awaited my reply though her eyebrows were narrowed.
I sighed before answering all her questions in the order they were asked. "I know you're more than welcome to stay her and, if you feel uncomfortable, I know one of the guys would take you in... It would obviously be hard but you'd eventually move on. I don't want you living your life in despair because of my death, okay? And I'm not sure what you will do, you'll have to take it day by day, but you will not bring any harm to yourself in any way. Promise?" Her look softened to the point where she looked almost calm.
"I don't know what I'd do without you, Andy.." Her voice cracked and it was obvious that she was holding back tears. I nodded in understanding; feeling the same way if I lost Alex.
"I know, I know. But you have to promise me won't hurt yourself if I do die." As I urged Alex to vow that she would bring no harm to herself, I couldn't help but think of what Ashley said.
"I don't know what i'd do if i came here one day and found her in the bathtub with her wrists slit or in your bed with a bottle of pills next to her."
She was quiet and I could sense her heart beating rapidly. I had to make sure that the guys watched her closely till she was showing true signs of moving on, not just fake ones.
"..Promise." I nodded before I captured her lips in mine.
I stood up and brushed her hair out of her face. "Good. Now, I have to go train some more with my dad. Ashley should be here within the hour. Will you be okay by yourself for a little while?"
The second Ashley was mentioned, a worried look washed over her porcelain features. Alex questioned, "Is Devlynn coming too?" I gave her a strange look and shook my head before I asked why. "She kept giving me dirty looks yesterday.. I don't think she likes me."
I laughed. "She was just jealous. She saw how excited Ash was to see you and how he picked you up when you guys hugged and y'know, him grabbing your boobs is enough to make any girlfriend jealous. He was upfront with her and, although he his madly in love with Devlynn, he had feelings for you. She's probably scared he'll leave her for you or something." I shrugged indifferently, knowing that was impossible. Alex sighed and nodded.
"Okay, good. Well have fun training, love you." Alex reached up and pulled me down by my shirt and reconnected our lips. We exchanged smiles before I exited the living room and headed for my father's office, knowing he'd be there.
I knocked gently and waited for my father to tell me to come in before entering. He was, as usual, on his computer typing viciously. I sat down in one of the leather armchairs and waited for him to be finished.
He kept his gaze locked on the computer screen as he asked, "Ready to train?"
I smirked. "Of course."
He shut his computer off and removed his glasses before he stood up. I followed him out of his office and towards the back doors. As we walked passed the living room, I frowned upon seeing Alex with her knees hugged to her chest and her head buried in them. She was shaking slightly, signaling that she was crying, and all I wanted to do was hold her.
But I couldn't.
Notes
I am so unbelievably sorry that I'm two days late!!! going back to school is really kicking my ass and I've been so exhausted that I haven't had the energy to do anything. I finished this update at 10:30pm and, although I'm beyond tired, I didn't want to make you guys wait any longer.
sooooo! the fight is coming up in the next chapter! who's excited? I may wait 5 or 6 days before I post it because I want to make sure the chapter is perfect for you guys since this is what we've all been waiting for!!
@Red Phoenix77 i wrote this back when i was about 13 (im 18 now) but i assume that my thought process was that vampires weren't undead, they were very much alive. also, i was very inexperienced when writing this story so i didn't put too much thought into things. maybe i'll re-write it one day! :)
9/20/17