The Wretched And Divine
This Love Will Set You Free From Thoughts of Yesterday
ALEX'S POV
"I can't believe Ashley watched us today." Andy shook his head, smirking. I nodded and laughed slightly.
"I know! I can't believe he got a boner. I mean, you were apart of what was going on, y'know?"
"Pretty sure he was mainly focused on you... Probably imagined him as me instead. Fuckin' creep." I remembered how Ashley had a slight (okay major) crush on me and couldn't help but blush.
"Let's watch some tv, yeah?" I asked once seeing the scowl form on Andy's face.
"You're mom definitely thinks i'm a slut now." I spoke up. It was now about half past 10 and Andy and i were cuddled up in his bed.
"No, she doesn't." He argued. "You're the first girl didn't have sex with me one week into the relationship. And trust me, she knows that." He laughed slightly. I felt worse, knowing i was the only reason stopping us from going any further.
"Yeah, 'cause i'm fuckin' uptight and prude." I groaned once again. Andy tightened his grip on me, making a sense of comfort wash over my body. Surprisingly, it lightened my mood a bit.
"You're definitely not either of those. You respect yourself, babe. That's something to be proud of." He reassured me.
"But," I started, turning on my side to face him. "I know you want to, and i'm the only thing that's stopping you. I mean, you have to be getting sick of me stopping you when we're in the middle of something." I finished, guilt taking place of the comfort.
"Well, yeah, obviously i wanna have sex with you. But, if you're not ready then i'm perfectly fine with waiting. I don't want you feeling pressured into doing it then regretting it. It's supposed to be special. Don't worry about it." Andy rubbed my arm reassuringly, his words making me feel better. I couldn't help but smile knowing how understanding he's being about this. I planted a loving kiss on his lips, loving the cold feeling of his skin against mine.
"This is why i love you. But don't worry, i'm gonna make it up to you soon." I blushed and bit my lip at the thought. A smirk crossed his face.
"Can't wait." He winked. "I think we should go to bed though, you've got a big day tomorrow." My eyebrows scrunched together in confusion.
"But it's Saturday? I have nothing planned..."
"But i do." He smiled. "Love you." He kissed me forehead before rolling over and turning the lamp off, snuggling deep into the pillow. I felt oddly alone, although Andy was sleeping right next to me. Maybe it was because he's always held me... Why not tonight? I rolled over, fighting away the urge to cry.
Ultimately, the urge was too strong and i ended up letting out silent tears onto the pillow. I guess the tears stopped being silent because after about 10 minutes i felt Andy turn the light on and sit up, looking at me worriedly.
"Baby, what's wrong?" He asked, confusion and sleep taking over his features. I rolled over and looked up at him, still crying.
"Y-you didn't h-hold m-me... Are y-you m-mad at me o-or something?" My attempt to stop the ongoing tears failed. Andy's face still held a look of confusion for a few seconds before it turned into realization and then guilt.
"Oh baby, i'm so sorry! I totally forgot! I'm not mad at you!" He rambled.
"Oh......" I trailed off, suddenly feeling stupid at my sudden burst of emotion. "I'm s-sorry for overreacting." He shook his head understandingly, turning around to shut the lamp off once again. He got on his back and extended his arm out, to which i happily crawled into. I sighed in content as his arms wrapped around me protectively. I fell asleep in a matter of seconds.
"I can't believe Ashley watched us today." Andy shook his head, smirking. I nodded and laughed slightly.
"I know! I can't believe he got a boner. I mean, you were apart of what was going on, y'know?"
"Pretty sure he was mainly focused on you... Probably imagined him as me instead. Fuckin' creep." I remembered how Ashley had a slight (okay major) crush on me and couldn't help but blush.
"Let's watch some tv, yeah?" I asked once seeing the scowl form on Andy's face.
"You're mom definitely thinks i'm a slut now." I spoke up. It was now about half past 10 and Andy and i were cuddled up in his bed.
"No, she doesn't." He argued. "You're the first girl didn't have sex with me one week into the relationship. And trust me, she knows that." He laughed slightly. I felt worse, knowing i was the only reason stopping us from going any further.
"Yeah, 'cause i'm fuckin' uptight and prude." I groaned once again. Andy tightened his grip on me, making a sense of comfort wash over my body. Surprisingly, it lightened my mood a bit.
"You're definitely not either of those. You respect yourself, babe. That's something to be proud of." He reassured me.
"But," I started, turning on my side to face him. "I know you want to, and i'm the only thing that's stopping you. I mean, you have to be getting sick of me stopping you when we're in the middle of something." I finished, guilt taking place of the comfort.
"Well, yeah, obviously i wanna have sex with you. But, if you're not ready then i'm perfectly fine with waiting. I don't want you feeling pressured into doing it then regretting it. It's supposed to be special. Don't worry about it." Andy rubbed my arm reassuringly, his words making me feel better. I couldn't help but smile knowing how understanding he's being about this. I planted a loving kiss on his lips, loving the cold feeling of his skin against mine.
"This is why i love you. But don't worry, i'm gonna make it up to you soon." I blushed and bit my lip at the thought. A smirk crossed his face.
"Can't wait." He winked. "I think we should go to bed though, you've got a big day tomorrow." My eyebrows scrunched together in confusion.
"But it's Saturday? I have nothing planned..."
"But i do." He smiled. "Love you." He kissed me forehead before rolling over and turning the lamp off, snuggling deep into the pillow. I felt oddly alone, although Andy was sleeping right next to me. Maybe it was because he's always held me... Why not tonight? I rolled over, fighting away the urge to cry.
Ultimately, the urge was too strong and i ended up letting out silent tears onto the pillow. I guess the tears stopped being silent because after about 10 minutes i felt Andy turn the light on and sit up, looking at me worriedly.
"Baby, what's wrong?" He asked, confusion and sleep taking over his features. I rolled over and looked up at him, still crying.
"Y-you didn't h-hold m-me... Are y-you m-mad at me o-or something?" My attempt to stop the ongoing tears failed. Andy's face still held a look of confusion for a few seconds before it turned into realization and then guilt.
"Oh baby, i'm so sorry! I totally forgot! I'm not mad at you!" He rambled.
"Oh......" I trailed off, suddenly feeling stupid at my sudden burst of emotion. "I'm s-sorry for overreacting." He shook his head understandingly, turning around to shut the lamp off once again. He got on his back and extended his arm out, to which i happily crawled into. I sighed in content as his arms wrapped around me protectively. I fell asleep in a matter of seconds.
@Red Phoenix77 i wrote this back when i was about 13 (im 18 now) but i assume that my thought process was that vampires weren't undead, they were very much alive. also, i was very inexperienced when writing this story so i didn't put too much thought into things. maybe i'll re-write it one day! :)
9/20/17