My Romeo

Nicole goes home shortly after. I can't believe she had my diary for so long and didn't even show me it. Two and a half months, I lose the love of my life and get pregnant. The only good thing I got is to forget about Kellin's death and forget that I'm a murderer.


(Time Shift: One Week Later)

I'm gonna have to go back to school on Monday and face the music. I'm dating another one of my teachers, and I swore I wouldn't again, but now I'm at a crossroad. Either I get Andy back or continue things with Alex. Andy is my one and only. But Alex could be the father of my unborn child.

The decision is made.

I take out my phone and dial Alex's number. "Hey babe, how's the holidays going for you?" He asks. He seems so happy, now I have to rain on his parade.

"Alex you might want to sit down for this." I tell him.

"I am, what do you need to tell me? Are you breaking up with me?"

"No, please stay calm. I'm calling to tell you I'm pregnant."

"You're what?"

"I'm with child." The line goes dead. I look down at my belly. "Does he really not care for us? Maybe Andy was right, maybe Alex is just a tool." I don't shed a single tear, I have to be strong for the baby.


(Time Shift: Monday)

The truth is I'm terrified to have this kid. I know I have to stay strong, but it'd be easier if I had Alex or Andy by my side. I still haven't opened the envelope, Andy wants his sweet good submissive, but I can't be that girl anymore. And the fact that Alex hung up on me scares me even more.

"So are you going?" Tess asks knocking me out of my train of thought.

"Sorry what?" I ask.

"Are you going to the spring formal?"

"When is it?"

"Valentines Day, it's supposed to be a mascaraed ball."

"Not sure, I'm gonna go to class." I walk straight into Alex's classroom. "You hung up on me." I say taking a seat.

"Scarlet, I'm in the middle of talking to Jack right now." He says, I turn around to see Jack standing there.

"So a chat is more important than us?" I ask.

"I'll talk to you at lunch Alex." Jack says and leaves.

"The chat was actually about us, Jack knows but he swore he wouldn't tell." He says sitting on my desk.

"So what were you discussing?"

"The whole situation. I'm scared Scar."

"And you think I'm not. I have to push the thing out of me!"

"I know, I know. I've just never loved a girl so much and I'm scared I'm gonna screw things up for the kid and us."

"Does that mean you'll be there?"

"I'm not sure, but I don't want to give up us." He gives me a hug.

"I'm not feeling well, I think I'm going to go home." I say getting up. The bell rings.

"Don't leave, please just stay." He pleas. I simply shake my head and walk out of the classroom. I walk back to my locker and grab my jacket. I'm done! Nobody wants me or cares for me! I don't want a kid, all I want is to be the girl I used to be. I want to be the girl Andy fell for because I miss his stupid face! I walk home and lock myself in my room. I take out my pocket knife and roll up my sleeve. I haven't done this since I was thirteen, but I can't hold back anymore. I run the the sharp blade of the knife across my wrist and feel the sting of relief. I cut a mark on my skin for each life I have ruined. Andy, Juliet, Blake, Alex, Oli, Kellin, and just keep cutting until all I see is red. I drop the knife and walk into my bathroom. I clean up my cuts and bandage my arms. I put a hoodie on and walk downstairs. Blake sits in front of the TV and is shocked to see me.

"Aren't you supposed to be at school?" He asks.

"Aren't you supposed to be managing drug supplies?" I ask.

"Someone's pissy today."

"Yeah, I am."

"Did someone's boyfriend upset her?"

"Yeah he is because I'm p- it doesn't even matter. Can I have some money for an upcoming school trip?" I lie.

"Sure how much?"

"$750, we're going to New York." He goes into his pocket and hands me the cash.

"That should be the right amount."

"You just have $750 on you?"

"Yes, now go up to your room, I don't like you when you're pissy."

I walk up to my room and start packing my bags. Once I'm done I begin writing a note.

'Dear friends/family,
I don't want to ruin your lives anymore. I've put you all through hell because of my stupid problems. Nicole, Ricky; I love you both so much, you guys have been there for me since the beginning and I thank you. Blake; thanks for the hospitality, and you weren't such a bad dad in the end. Tess, Taylor; I haven't been friends with you both for that long but thanks for the good times. Finally there's Alex; you were my boyfriend and I can truly say I loved you, but I understand why you don't want us anymore. I wouldn't want to date a pregnant girl either. I'm leaving and I might not return, but please don't go looking for me.
-Scar'

I place the note on my pillow and grab my backpack. I slip out through the front door and start walking to the airport. I take out my phone and call my aunt.

"Hey Jitterbug, feeling better?" She asks.

"A lot better thanks. I was wondering if I could come and stay with you in New York for a few months?" I ask.

"Sure, don't you have school work?"

"Uh no, I'm taking the semester off. My dad said I was aloud to."

"Okay... So when will you be here?"

"In the morning, just text me the address."

"Okay can't wait to see you Jitterbug, love you."

"Love you." I finally get to the airport and buy a one way ticket to New York.

Goodbye Seattle.

Notes

Just had my first exam today: Enriched Mathematics.
it sucked, but I did have a pretty good day.

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