My Romeo

I don't know why I didn't think of dating Kellin sooner. He's the perfect guy for me. He has a great sense of humour, he's sweet, smart, great music taste, and his eyes just makes me melt. And boy was he a good kisser! He's the perfect package. "So where do you want to go?" Kellin asks.

I think for a sec, then I know, "There's this diner where my friend works, it's great." I say, giving him a smile.

He places his hand over mine and says, "Sounds perfect.", I blush crimson and giggle a bit. This is the first guy ever that I felt free with. With Andy I felt like I had to watch what I said or he'll punish me or something. But I feel like if I ever said something wrong to Kellin, he wouldn't be mad. We soon get to the diner and we sit at the booth next to the window. Twist and Shout by the Beatles plays in the place and Kellin sees me moving in my seat. He jumps to his feet and held out his hand, "Would you care to dance Malady?"

I take his hand and he pulls me to my feet, "I would love nothing more." I say softly sparking a wide smile on his face. But within seconds the song is over, and a slow song turns on. Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol is played, Kellin pulls me in and wraps his hands around my waist and mine around his neck, staring deeply into his baby blue eyes. It feels like only five minutes have passed, but in reality it's been about forty minutes of just staring into each other's eyes. "You know, the eyes are the windows to the soul." I state.

"Then we've been sharing the secrets of our souls for a little over a half an hour." He says and we both chuckle a bit. Our food arrives and we both sit down on the same side of the booth to eat. Kellin ordered a cheeseburger and I ordered a plate full of fries. We also ordered a large strawberry milkshake to share. Kellin fed me fries and I giggled each time he did. Soon we were done eating and just drinking the shake. We drank at the same time and soon our lips were off the straws and sucking on each other's. It was around 1:15 when my phone went off. I detached my lips from Kellin's and go outside to answer my phone.

"Scarlet, it wasn't what it looked like at the mall. She kissed me, I would-" I interrupt Oli.

"You would what? Never want her lips on yours? Well her lips and other things were already on you. And another thing, don't talk to me ever again! I thought that I could actually trust you! I'm such a fool."

"No, you're not a fool, you're perfect and I never wanted her to kiss me."

"Well she did and you didn't stop her so goodbye Oliver."

"Scar wait!"

"Never call me Scar ever again, you lost that privilege."

"But Scarlet!"

"Goodbye!" I say, hanging up the phone. I walk back into the diner and pull Kellin to his feet. "It's been a long night."

"You wanna go home and get some rest?" He asks and I nod. "Come on, I'll take you home." He says and picks me up bridal style, carrying me to the car and placing me into the passengers seat gently. He hums Chasing Cars all the way back to my apartment building. We get out and he walks me to my door.

"So I guess this is goodnight." I say.

"Oh, I almost forgot to give this to you." Kellin says handing me a single red rose. I blush and thank him for the flower.

"I'll meet you tomorrow and we'll go do something."

"Sounds good."

"Goodnight Kellin."

He gives me one last gentle kiss before saying, "Night Scarlet." And he hops back in his car and drives away. I walk into my apartment, take a sniff of the rose and place it on the kitchen counter, then retreat back to my bedroom and fall asleep.

In the morning, I wake up at eight, not wanting to go back to sleep I hop into the shower. I get out and wash my makeup smeared face and reapply my wings. I put my hair in a high ponytail and put on some lip gloss. I put on my Rolling Stones Tshirt, ripped skinny jeans, and my combat boots on, and I was ready for the day. I came out of my bedroom and grabbed ten bucks out of my aunt's purse, knowing she won't be up for hours so there won't be food in the apartment. I grab my bag and exit the apartment, locking the door behind myself. Andy comes strolling down the hall.

"Want a ride?" He asks calmly, seems like someone put their feelings aside and threw them down a well.

"Yeah, thanks." I say and we get into his car, and he starts driving. On the way there's an uncomfortable silence that's just eating away at me. "So your guys' show is tonight?" I ask.

"Yeah, it's at the Maclareun's Pub, tonight at seven. You wanna come?"

"Of course, you guys are awesome. I wouldn't miss it for the world."

"Please don't say things like that."

"Like what?"

"That you wouldn't miss it for the world, it just hurts me more when you say things like that."

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to."

"No need to be sorry."

"It's just I didn't want to make you upset."

"Nothing you will ever do will ever upset me, I meant it when I said I care for you and if you're happier now then I'm happy for you."

"Thank you Biersack."

"Call me Andy. And I don't want things to be weird for us okay, let's just feel normal. We're friends right?"

"Sounds good."

"Well we're here." He says pulling into the parking lot. "I'll see you around Scar."

"See ya Andy." I say getting out of the car and go off joining my friends. "You guys still up for skipping today?" I ask as I join them.

"Sure." They all say, Nicole grabs my arm and whispers, "Can we talk?" I nod and we talk underneath the stairs of the entrance. "There's something important I need to be honest about, not just with everyone but with myself. And I don't know, I've had the idea for awhile that I am but I was afraid to tell anyone." She says pacing back and forth.

"Hey, you can tell me anything, we're best friends, have been since kindergarten. You can tell me anything and I will never judge you." I tell her and she stops and breathes.

"I'm gay."

"You're gay?"

"Yes, I'm a lesbian. I don't know, for the last few weeks I've been looking at girls differently, you even differently. And to tell you the truth, Ricky's cute and all but I never was truly attracted to him."

"I'm happy for you. You know who you are and what you want, and that's great."

"So you're not disgusted?"

"How could I be disgusted, you're my best friend and I love you no matter what. Now give me a hug." I say pulling her into a bear hug. I kiss her on the cheek. "Have you told Ricky?"

"Yeah, he was the first I told, he wasn't mad, he was a little upset though seeing I was his first, but he's okay with it and still wants to be friends."

"That's good. And since we're opening up I think it's a good time to tell you that me and Kellin are a thing!"

"Really? That's great!" She squeals. "But what about Oli and Mr Biersack?"

"I caught Oli's lips on Taylor. And I had to end it with Andy because my aunt still has me hanging onto that promise I made with her when I was six."

"Sucks. I was really rooting for you and Andy, but it's good to hear that you're with Kellin."

"Last night he took me to the diner and we slow danced, we made out, did I tell you how good of a kisser he is. He gave me a rose, and kissed me good. It was the perfect date."

"I'm glad to hear it. We should probably get back to the guys."

"Probably." And we join the guys in conversation. "What do you guys want to do today?"

"Maybe go to the mall, grab some lunch, and see a movie." Kellin suggests. We all agreed, hopped into Kellin's car, and drove off to a day of excitement.

*Time Relapse* Now: 6pm

Today was great, hanging out with my best friends and my boyfriend. Kellin is so romantic, he held my hand all day and never pushed me to do anything I wasn't ready for. And even though Ricky and Nicole are broken up, they still were having a good time. The movie was hilarious, we watched Horrible Bosses 2, I love Charlie Day! He my favourite actor, mostly because he's socially awkward. Anyways, it was getting late and the show was going to begin in an hour so we all went home to change. I walk into my apartment and yell for my aunt, but she's not here. I find a note on the counter saying that she's off on some date and won't be back till tomorrow afternoon. I laugh a bit and carry on. I plug my phone into the speaks and blast some ACDC. Back in Black plays through the apartment while I get ready. I hope into the shower, washing off today and blow dry my hair. I straighten my hair and do smokey eyes. I wear my Pierce The Veil shirt, washed out blue skinny jeans, and black Vans. I text Kellin that I'll meet him at the bar and walk down the hall to Biersack's and Simm's apartment. I knock three times and Juliet opens the door.

"Scarlet! I would love to give you vocal lessons tonight, but I have a show to play." She says pulling me in for a hug. She's wearing a grey panda top and black skinny jeans with black boots.

"That's why I'm here, I want to see your show." I tell her and she looks a bit shocked. I guess she didn't know I was a huge fan of hers. "I've loved Automatic Loveletter for years, and after I saw you on the Voice, I couldn't wait to see you play. Now I can." That puts a huge smile on her face and she invites me in. Ashley, Jake, and two other guys from the band are here. I feel bad because I don't know their names. I steer straight to Ashley when Juliet goes to do her makeup. "Hey Ash!" I say, giving him a hug.

"Don't hey Ash me, you gave the waitress my phone number and now she won't stop calling me." He says and I laugh.

"Well I'm sorry, but you told Jake about Andy and Me."

"Yeah, sorry about that I was drunk."

"I heard. So you gonna go on another date with Lisa?"

"Lisa who?"

"The waitress!"

"No of course not."

"Fine, at least let her down. She's kinda obsessed with you Mr Purdy."

"Ooh Did someone say Ashley has another Purdygirl?" Says the man with the tan skin. He has a big goofy smile, which is adorable.

"Yep, why do I always get the crazy ones, why can't I get it easy like Andy?" Says Ash.

"Oh I'm CC by the way, we met the other day." He says.

"I know," no I didn't, "you're a really great drummer by the way." I tell him and he smiles wider.

"Thanks, you have a really beautiful voice." Says CC

"Thank you." I say, blushing.

"Oh, don't want Andy to catch you blushing!" Whispers Ash.

"Ashley are you still drunk?" I ask.

"Maybe." He says and we all laugh. Everyone joins in on the conversation and I just think to myself. He didn't break the news to them.

"The name's Jinxx." The man with the blue eyes says, taking my hand and placing a light kiss on it. I giggle a bit, he's extremely sweet.

"All I can say is enchanté" I say and everyone but Jinxx looks at me confused. "Guys I have to tell you something about Andy and me."

"Please don't say you guys broke up!" CC says in a child's voice.

"Afraid so buttercup, but I will always love you guys no matter what." I say like a mom. We all laugh, but then realization shows on my face, then I begin to cry.

"I'm sorry to hear that Scarlet." Ashley says, pulling me into a hug. I burry my face into his chest and begin to sob. The guys pat me on the back and Ashley brings me to the washroom. He shuts the door and locks it. "Look I know it's hard, but you need to hold your head up high and act like it's all alright, for him."

"No you have no idea Ash. I hate it. I hate that I can't be with him. I hate that I can't hug him when I'm sad or laugh with him about my day. I wish things could go back to the way they were but life's a bitch, and she hates me."

"He meant a lot to you, didn't he?"

"He saved my life. If that doesn't make him my batman, then I don't know what does. Ashley I don't think I can do this."

"Yes you can. Let's just fix up that makeup of yours and place a smile on that little face of yours." He says and wipes away all the makeup. "You look better without makeup anyways."

"Ashley, how do you propose on making me smile."

"Close your eyes." I do. Ash holds my chin up with his thumb and gives me a light kiss.

"Wow, Ash I have a boyfriend."

"But it put a smile on your face." I shrug and hug him.

"Thanks."

"No problem, I think it's time we go to the bar, wanna drive with me?" I nod and follow him back into the living room. Everyone's there talking, they all turn to us as we walk in. Andy stunned and hurt. "Scarlet got her necklace stuck on her hair, I helped her get it out." And Andy looks less hurt. Oh those eyes of his could tell stories. Once I was able to see all of them, but now barely any of them. Jake just whispers to Jinxx and CC. CC laughs at what's said, while Jinxx punches Jake in the gut. "So the show?" Says Ash and everyone starts making their way out the door. I slow down to talk to Andy.

"I just wanted to wish you luck." I whisper over to him.

"Thanks." He says, giving me a half smile. "I wish you luck with your husband to be, or did you not tell him about your deal?"

"I told him, and thanks I guess."

"And what really happened with you and Ash in the bathroom?"

"I just needed to talk to him to see if he'd teach a friend of mine to play bass."

"Scar that's a pretty weak lie."

"I'll talk to you about it when I'm ready."

"Then I'll be here waiting. I presume you're getting a ride with Ashley so I'll see you there."

"Will do." I say sliding into the passengers seat of Ashley's car.

"So who's your new beau?" Ashley asks as he pulls out of the parking lot.

"His name's Kellin, he's really sweet and he's had a crush on me since he came to the school." I tell him. Ash pulls over the car, but we aren't at the bar. What's going on? He takes my hand and turns to me. He takes a look up and down me and smirks. I raise an eyebrow and he starts kissing my lips. I try to push him back but he's too strong and forces his tongue in my mouth. He pushes me against the seat and climbs on top of me. He finally gets his mouth off mine and kisses down my neck. "Ashley get off of me!" I shout. He looks up at me.

"Come on, you want me babe." He whispers. He began putting his hands under my shirt and grasping my breast. The kissing down my neck began to becoming sucking. Ashley unzipped his jeans and I knew what comes next. And that's when the tears start to form in my eyes. I thought I had forgotten this feeling, but now it's back to haunt me. The feeling of which I am not in control of my own fate is petrifying. And here he is taking away my fate. But for once, I can escape it. I punch him in the throat, causing him to stop breathing for a minute. Then hit him in the balls and push him off of me. I open the door, jump out of the car, and run away as fast as my feet will take me. I run into a convenience store and take out my phone. Still sobbing, I hide in an aisle and call my best friend.

"Hey Scar! Where are you? The shows gonna start soon." She says into the phone.

"Yeah about that, something came up and I won't be able to make it." I say in between cries.

"Scarlet what's wrong? What happened? Did Andy hurt you?"

"No, no, nothing with Andy. He's actually the one person I don't want to find out what happened tonight."

"Well where are you? Screw the show! You need me."

"In some convenience store on Brooknell road. Is Andy at the bar right now?"

"Yeah they're just waiting for the bassist to show up. Why?"

"Can you give him a message from me?"

"Sure sweetie."

"Tell him I would have given anything to be at this show tonight, but shit happens, and that doesn't mean that I don't care. Because I do and always will. And the events of the night can be discussed at a later date. Will you tell him that for me?"

"Yes, now just stay in that store and I'll be there in ten. I love you."

"I love you too." I hang up the phone and fall to the ground holding the hand he held oh so tightly and clenching it. There is that feeling after being touched, even though their hands are no longer there, the feeling of it still is. I go to the washroom in the store and soak my face with cold water. Any evidence of my tears that were only seconds ago on my face are now invisible. This will keep till I get home. I walk out to see my friend and walk over to her. She tries to embrace me into a hug, but I flinch and she begins to worry. We get into her car and as we're driving back to my apartment she asks,

"What happened Scar?"

"Can it wait? I need to be clean, I need to change clothes, I, I,I need to wash his cologne off of me, I, I need the feeling gone. I, I, I, I hate the feeling. The touch is still there! It won't disappear! Why won't it go away?" I ask her, stuttering on my words.

My best friend looks at me, and all she sees is the broken pieces of what's left of me. "Don't worry. You're almost home, we'll get you all cleaned up and then we'll talk about it." We finally arrive at the apartment. I hop into the shower and stay in there for about an hour. Washing off the scent of him, and trying to wash off the touch as well. Not many people understand how it feels to be sexually assaulted, after it happens you feel like your pride was taken away from you, that the person now owns you and your life. You feel like you can't escape the fate, and it's difficult to move on. Once my shower is done, I change into my Pierce The Veil hoodie, my black leggings, and my knee high socks. I put my hair up in a high ponytail and join my friend in the living room. "You ready to talk about it?" She asks me and I nod.

"I went over to Andy's apartment so I could get a ride to the show with them. When I got there all of Black Veil Brides was there. I told the guys that Andy and I broke up and for the first time, I cried about it. Then Ashley took me to the bathroom to get cleaned up and he kissed me. It was a small kiss so I was okay with it and didn't think much of it. So everyone is ready to go to the bar so Ash asks me to ride with him and I said yes. On the way, he stopped the car and began kissing me, and his kisses deepened, and he put his tongue in my mouth. I didn't like it and I tried to push him away, but he was too strong and held my hand down. Then he climbed onto me, grabbing my boobs, and he unzipped his pants. I was crying and finally got up the courage and punch him in the neck, the balls, and pushed him off of me. Then I escaped to the store and called you." I tell her.

"We need to call the cops."

"No we can't, if Andy finds out he'll kill Ash. Yes Ashley did do something wrong to me, but he doesn't deserve death as his punishment."

"Then what do you want to do about it?"

"I just want to forget this night ever happened and move on with my life."

"Okay, then we'll do that."

"But first you have to swear on my life that you won't tell Biersack. I mean it, you tell him, I'll kill myself."

"I swear."

Notes

It's been a long day and I have to get started on my homework. Peace out Thug Pugs

love ya<3