My Romeo
Journeys End
Scarlet's POV
5 Hours Earlier
"It's vey nice to meet you Carla. I can assure you that Scarlet is doing very well in her classes." Andy says. I only look to the ground, focusing on how to end things. The reminder of the promise I made years ago sinks into my skull. The journey of Andy and me must end. He's too old for me and he's already married. He's not going to drop his life for one with me. He loves me, but he's not in love with me. He is forever in love with Juliet and nothing can change that. I need a good guy that will be there for me wherever and whenever. Andy is not that guy. I take out my phone and message Oli.
*It's over.*-S And turn off my phone.
I don't need him calling and texting me. I knew Oli was too good to be true. He's treated me like shit the last couple of years and I should have seen it coming. He's no good guy, but there's one person I know that is. The one person that I can trust and have trusted in the last few days. He's the one, the only one I would feel comfortable being stuck with for the rest of my life. And I'm going to tell him. "You ready to go Jitterbug?" My aunt asks, knocking me out of my train of thought.
"Yes, of course." I say and she leads the way, chatting up Juliet about their careers. You see, my aunt's a famous Broadway singer in New York, so she enjoys telling people about her journeys.
"Whatcha thinking about?" Andy asks. Fuck, I really need to stop zoning out.
"Us and I realized that we need to talk." I say and he looks at me with a serious face. "Why so serious?"
"I don't know Harley Quinn, you tell me." He says poking on the strap of my bra. I roll my eyes at him.
"Look, things have changed. I think that it's best that we stop where we are while we still can." He looks at me confused and hurt at the same time.
"Scar, I know you, you don't want things to end. Tell me why you're doing this."
"You don't know what I want Andrew."
"Yes I do, I know exactly what you want."
"No you don't, you're no prophet my friend, like I said, it's over." We hop into my aunt's Porsche and start driving to the restaurant. I sit in the passenger's seat while Andy and Juliet sit in the back. The car is practically silent. No one speaks a word until Andy sadly interrupts.
"Did Scarlet tell you she got the lead role in this year's musical?" Andy says, putting all eyes on me.
"You did? Why didn't you tell me?" My aunt asks. I just looked at Andy completely pissed off and said,
"I wanted it to be a surprise over dinner."
"Scarlet, you know how much I hate surprises. Now go on, tell me about the play." She insists.
I turn to Andy and say, "Take it away Biersack." And he does so.
"This year's musical is about a shy new guy named Johnnie. He starts going to this new school and he meets the love of his life, played by Scar is Maya. Sadly for Johnnie, Maya has a boyfriend named Ryan. On the way through the story we learn that both Johnnie and Maya suffer from depression, and how they learn to with it." Wow, that story doesn't sound half bad.
"And how does the music tap in?" My aunt asks.
"I've written songs already, they'll just tie into the story." Says Andy.
"Will In The End be one of the songs?" I ask, curious.
"No, but trust me, you'll like these songs." He says.
We finally get to the restaurant and are seated in a fancy booth. I go to the restroom and Andy follows. Fuck!
"So why are you ending things?" He asks.
"You're not supposed to be in the lady's room Biersack." I say.
"Answer the question Scar."
"You wanna know the real reason why?" I ask.
"Yes that's all I want, then I'll leave you alone."
"You're too old for me."
"That's not why. Jake's older than me and you still dated him."
"Look I made a promise. And since you're married, I can't fulfill the promise with you."
"What kind of promise are you talking about?"
"That I would be married or at least engaged when I am eighteen, meaning before nineteen."
"Are you kidding me, that's so unrealistic."
"Yeah, well that was the promise. Seeing that you're married, I can't be with you. Unless you get a divorce."
"I can't, I also made a promise. I promised Juliet that if I didn't divorce her, she'd make my band famous, she already has a show booked for Friday night."
"You see why it has to end?"
"I guess. One last kiss for the road?" I roll my eyes. He pulls me in from my hips, I put my hands around his neck, and he sets a soft, gentle kiss on my lips, for what I thought was going to be the last time. We stopped and looked each other in the eyes. We both let go and Andy left the lady's room. I walk over to the mirror and look at myself.
"I can go back out there, I just need to breathe." I whisper to myself over and over again. I finally get up the courage to join them back at the table.
"Honey, are you okay?" My aunt asks as soon as I sit down.
"Yes, just a little head ache, it's been a long day."
"I completely get what you're talking about, I had to record this one song like sixteen times because someone screwing around with the soundbox." Says Juliet.
"That reminds me, for the next week I will be in New York auditioning for another role, so you'll be on your own." My aunt says to me while I'm staring at the table.
I look up, "So I'll be in the apartment alone?" I ask.
"Afraid so." She says.
"We'll check up on her for you, if you want." Says Juliet.
"Oh thank you dear." Says my Aunt. I look back down at the table. It's wood is dark and has a white cloth over it.
"So since I'm Maya, which characters are Kellin and Oliver?" I ask, still looking at this lovely table.
"Kellin will be Johnnie the new kid, and Oliver is Ryan." Andy says.
The waiter comes up for the orders. Andy gets a steak, Juliet and my aunt both order chicken, while I get a simple salad. I'm not hungry. I'm not usually like this unless I'm crying and I'm not so I don't understand what will happen next. I kind of zone them out and look over what's happened in the last week. A new hot teacher starts teaching at my school and has a thing for me. A new cute guy comes to the school and asks for my number. The coolest guy at school becomes my boyfriend and I break up with him. My hot teacher won't get a divorce, so I end things with him. And the cute new guy is the only one left standing. And this all in one week also includes me getting the lead in the school musical. Fuck this shit! I'm done. Maybe I should just I don't know, disappear for a while.
"Would you like that Scarlet?" Juliet asks. I look up at her confused.
"Sorry, pardon?" I ask.
"I was wondering if you'd like some vocal lessons next week?" She asks. Vocal lessons from Juliet Simms, that sounds pretty awesome.
"Yeah, I'd love that, thank you." I say. Crap can't go back to staring at table. I think I see Kellin across the restaurant. Is he a waiter? He is. He's wearing a black dress shirt and tie, and has one of those aprons waiters wear around their waists. Wow, I didn't know he worked here. Maybe I could talk to him. I could use his perspective.
"I'm going to have a smoke." I say leaping up from the table.
"Since when do you smoke?" My aunt asks.
"Since I was fifteen." I say. I walk over to Kellin who's standing near the door. I grab him and pull him outside. "Can we talk?"
"Scarlet you're here? I don't-" he says and I interrupt.
"Kellin I know you work here. No need to be embarrassed. Truth be told I wish I had a job." He lets out a sigh of relief.
"So you wanted to talk?"
"I made a promise long ago that when I am 18 I will be at least engaged to a man, that means any time before my 19th birthday. The deadline is coming up soon and I'm afraid that Oli's not the one. I've been thinking a lot tonight and I was thinking about maybe us giving it a try. If you want I mean I'm not going to force anything onto-" I was graciously interrupted by Kellin's mouth on mine. We release and we both smile. He's not Andy, but he's something.
"I've got to get back to work, but I get off at midnight. If you want we can meet them and skip our classes tomorrow."
"I'd like that. I'll text you later, I have to get back to my dinner with my aunt, Mr Biersack and his wife."
"What? You're having dinner with Biersack and his wife?" We both laugh. I kiss him gently before entering back into the restaurant. I sit back down next to my aunt.
"Funny, you don't smell like cigarette smoke." She says.
"I sprayed perfume before coming back in." I say.
"Mmhmm."
"You know it's getting kind of late, and I have to be back at the recording studio tomorrow morning." Says Juliet. I pretty much blank out the rest of what she says. Don't get me wrong, I like Juliet but sometimes she rambles. Anyhow, we all ride back to the apartment building, my aunt goes straight in. Juliet tells Andy she's going to bed and Andy tells to wait a second. Once Juliet's elevator goes up, Andy turns to me.
"I know that you said that things are over, but I still, I, uh-"
"Spit it out Biersack!"
"I still, care for you." I sigh at what is said. But it's a sigh of relief. If he were to say he loves me I would break right there.
"I know, and I still care for you too. Don't worry, I won't breathe a word of this to anyone."
"Thanks, for everything."
"Good night Andrew Biersack."
"Good night Scarlet Kanes." I open my door and walk straight to my room. I close my bedroom door behind myself and take out my journal. I open a page and write an entry.
*Love for some people can be a decision. But no one can choose who they really love. They have to feel it when they are with, hear about, see or talk to this person. Because love is a strong object that no one can avoid feeling, but can always avoid saying. I love Andrew Biersack, and will never stop loving him. Scratch that, I will never stop being in love with Andrew Biersack. When I'm with him, he makes me smile, and it's not a fake smile either. When he kisses my lips he literally leaves me breathless. And every time I'm with him, it's like I feel strong and weak at once, both calm and nervous. I don't know, maybe I'm crazy, but it doesn't mean I'm stupid. I know what I want. And it's him. I can't have him, so I'm torn. I can and will love another man because I have to, but I will never be in love with him as I am with Andrew.*
This feeling I have right now won't allow me to cry. It's like I understand and have gotten passed it in one swift move. I stay up until midnight and wait for my aunt to go to bed.The lights outside my door flicker off and that's when I take my leave. I get a text.
*You ready to go?*-Blue Eyes
*I'll be out in a minute* -Harley Quinn
I walk out my door in bare feet. I sneak out the front door and run down the hall. I exit the building and jump into the dark blue car.
"Are you sure about this, I mean you just broke up with Oliver?" Kellin asks.
I kiss his lips, I release whispering, "I've never been more sure in my life.".
5 Hours Earlier
"It's vey nice to meet you Carla. I can assure you that Scarlet is doing very well in her classes." Andy says. I only look to the ground, focusing on how to end things. The reminder of the promise I made years ago sinks into my skull. The journey of Andy and me must end. He's too old for me and he's already married. He's not going to drop his life for one with me. He loves me, but he's not in love with me. He is forever in love with Juliet and nothing can change that. I need a good guy that will be there for me wherever and whenever. Andy is not that guy. I take out my phone and message Oli.
*It's over.*-S And turn off my phone.
I don't need him calling and texting me. I knew Oli was too good to be true. He's treated me like shit the last couple of years and I should have seen it coming. He's no good guy, but there's one person I know that is. The one person that I can trust and have trusted in the last few days. He's the one, the only one I would feel comfortable being stuck with for the rest of my life. And I'm going to tell him. "You ready to go Jitterbug?" My aunt asks, knocking me out of my train of thought.
"Yes, of course." I say and she leads the way, chatting up Juliet about their careers. You see, my aunt's a famous Broadway singer in New York, so she enjoys telling people about her journeys.
"Whatcha thinking about?" Andy asks. Fuck, I really need to stop zoning out.
"Us and I realized that we need to talk." I say and he looks at me with a serious face. "Why so serious?"
"I don't know Harley Quinn, you tell me." He says poking on the strap of my bra. I roll my eyes at him.
"Look, things have changed. I think that it's best that we stop where we are while we still can." He looks at me confused and hurt at the same time.
"Scar, I know you, you don't want things to end. Tell me why you're doing this."
"You don't know what I want Andrew."
"Yes I do, I know exactly what you want."
"No you don't, you're no prophet my friend, like I said, it's over." We hop into my aunt's Porsche and start driving to the restaurant. I sit in the passenger's seat while Andy and Juliet sit in the back. The car is practically silent. No one speaks a word until Andy sadly interrupts.
"Did Scarlet tell you she got the lead role in this year's musical?" Andy says, putting all eyes on me.
"You did? Why didn't you tell me?" My aunt asks. I just looked at Andy completely pissed off and said,
"I wanted it to be a surprise over dinner."
"Scarlet, you know how much I hate surprises. Now go on, tell me about the play." She insists.
I turn to Andy and say, "Take it away Biersack." And he does so.
"This year's musical is about a shy new guy named Johnnie. He starts going to this new school and he meets the love of his life, played by Scar is Maya. Sadly for Johnnie, Maya has a boyfriend named Ryan. On the way through the story we learn that both Johnnie and Maya suffer from depression, and how they learn to with it." Wow, that story doesn't sound half bad.
"And how does the music tap in?" My aunt asks.
"I've written songs already, they'll just tie into the story." Says Andy.
"Will In The End be one of the songs?" I ask, curious.
"No, but trust me, you'll like these songs." He says.
We finally get to the restaurant and are seated in a fancy booth. I go to the restroom and Andy follows. Fuck!
"So why are you ending things?" He asks.
"You're not supposed to be in the lady's room Biersack." I say.
"Answer the question Scar."
"You wanna know the real reason why?" I ask.
"Yes that's all I want, then I'll leave you alone."
"You're too old for me."
"That's not why. Jake's older than me and you still dated him."
"Look I made a promise. And since you're married, I can't fulfill the promise with you."
"What kind of promise are you talking about?"
"That I would be married or at least engaged when I am eighteen, meaning before nineteen."
"Are you kidding me, that's so unrealistic."
"Yeah, well that was the promise. Seeing that you're married, I can't be with you. Unless you get a divorce."
"I can't, I also made a promise. I promised Juliet that if I didn't divorce her, she'd make my band famous, she already has a show booked for Friday night."
"You see why it has to end?"
"I guess. One last kiss for the road?" I roll my eyes. He pulls me in from my hips, I put my hands around his neck, and he sets a soft, gentle kiss on my lips, for what I thought was going to be the last time. We stopped and looked each other in the eyes. We both let go and Andy left the lady's room. I walk over to the mirror and look at myself.
"I can go back out there, I just need to breathe." I whisper to myself over and over again. I finally get up the courage to join them back at the table.
"Honey, are you okay?" My aunt asks as soon as I sit down.
"Yes, just a little head ache, it's been a long day."
"I completely get what you're talking about, I had to record this one song like sixteen times because someone screwing around with the soundbox." Says Juliet.
"That reminds me, for the next week I will be in New York auditioning for another role, so you'll be on your own." My aunt says to me while I'm staring at the table.
I look up, "So I'll be in the apartment alone?" I ask.
"Afraid so." She says.
"We'll check up on her for you, if you want." Says Juliet.
"Oh thank you dear." Says my Aunt. I look back down at the table. It's wood is dark and has a white cloth over it.
"So since I'm Maya, which characters are Kellin and Oliver?" I ask, still looking at this lovely table.
"Kellin will be Johnnie the new kid, and Oliver is Ryan." Andy says.
The waiter comes up for the orders. Andy gets a steak, Juliet and my aunt both order chicken, while I get a simple salad. I'm not hungry. I'm not usually like this unless I'm crying and I'm not so I don't understand what will happen next. I kind of zone them out and look over what's happened in the last week. A new hot teacher starts teaching at my school and has a thing for me. A new cute guy comes to the school and asks for my number. The coolest guy at school becomes my boyfriend and I break up with him. My hot teacher won't get a divorce, so I end things with him. And the cute new guy is the only one left standing. And this all in one week also includes me getting the lead in the school musical. Fuck this shit! I'm done. Maybe I should just I don't know, disappear for a while.
"Would you like that Scarlet?" Juliet asks. I look up at her confused.
"Sorry, pardon?" I ask.
"I was wondering if you'd like some vocal lessons next week?" She asks. Vocal lessons from Juliet Simms, that sounds pretty awesome.
"Yeah, I'd love that, thank you." I say. Crap can't go back to staring at table. I think I see Kellin across the restaurant. Is he a waiter? He is. He's wearing a black dress shirt and tie, and has one of those aprons waiters wear around their waists. Wow, I didn't know he worked here. Maybe I could talk to him. I could use his perspective.
"I'm going to have a smoke." I say leaping up from the table.
"Since when do you smoke?" My aunt asks.
"Since I was fifteen." I say. I walk over to Kellin who's standing near the door. I grab him and pull him outside. "Can we talk?"
"Scarlet you're here? I don't-" he says and I interrupt.
"Kellin I know you work here. No need to be embarrassed. Truth be told I wish I had a job." He lets out a sigh of relief.
"So you wanted to talk?"
"I made a promise long ago that when I am 18 I will be at least engaged to a man, that means any time before my 19th birthday. The deadline is coming up soon and I'm afraid that Oli's not the one. I've been thinking a lot tonight and I was thinking about maybe us giving it a try. If you want I mean I'm not going to force anything onto-" I was graciously interrupted by Kellin's mouth on mine. We release and we both smile. He's not Andy, but he's something.
"I've got to get back to work, but I get off at midnight. If you want we can meet them and skip our classes tomorrow."
"I'd like that. I'll text you later, I have to get back to my dinner with my aunt, Mr Biersack and his wife."
"What? You're having dinner with Biersack and his wife?" We both laugh. I kiss him gently before entering back into the restaurant. I sit back down next to my aunt.
"Funny, you don't smell like cigarette smoke." She says.
"I sprayed perfume before coming back in." I say.
"Mmhmm."
"You know it's getting kind of late, and I have to be back at the recording studio tomorrow morning." Says Juliet. I pretty much blank out the rest of what she says. Don't get me wrong, I like Juliet but sometimes she rambles. Anyhow, we all ride back to the apartment building, my aunt goes straight in. Juliet tells Andy she's going to bed and Andy tells to wait a second. Once Juliet's elevator goes up, Andy turns to me.
"I know that you said that things are over, but I still, I, uh-"
"Spit it out Biersack!"
"I still, care for you." I sigh at what is said. But it's a sigh of relief. If he were to say he loves me I would break right there.
"I know, and I still care for you too. Don't worry, I won't breathe a word of this to anyone."
"Thanks, for everything."
"Good night Andrew Biersack."
"Good night Scarlet Kanes." I open my door and walk straight to my room. I close my bedroom door behind myself and take out my journal. I open a page and write an entry.
*Love for some people can be a decision. But no one can choose who they really love. They have to feel it when they are with, hear about, see or talk to this person. Because love is a strong object that no one can avoid feeling, but can always avoid saying. I love Andrew Biersack, and will never stop loving him. Scratch that, I will never stop being in love with Andrew Biersack. When I'm with him, he makes me smile, and it's not a fake smile either. When he kisses my lips he literally leaves me breathless. And every time I'm with him, it's like I feel strong and weak at once, both calm and nervous. I don't know, maybe I'm crazy, but it doesn't mean I'm stupid. I know what I want. And it's him. I can't have him, so I'm torn. I can and will love another man because I have to, but I will never be in love with him as I am with Andrew.*
This feeling I have right now won't allow me to cry. It's like I understand and have gotten passed it in one swift move. I stay up until midnight and wait for my aunt to go to bed.The lights outside my door flicker off and that's when I take my leave. I get a text.
*You ready to go?*-Blue Eyes
*I'll be out in a minute* -Harley Quinn
I walk out my door in bare feet. I sneak out the front door and run down the hall. I exit the building and jump into the dark blue car.
"Are you sure about this, I mean you just broke up with Oliver?" Kellin asks.
I kiss his lips, I release whispering, "I've never been more sure in my life.".
Notes
Hey guys, I hope this chapter cleared things up for you.
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