I Swear I'll Never Let You Die

I sat outside, wearing nothing but a pair of old sweats. A lit cigarette rested between my teeth. Jasey was asleep inside but my ever present insomnia was striking yet again so I took my cigarettes and sat outside on the small porch swing we had. My parents left yesterday, obviously not wanting too. Jasey has been a wreck the past few days since her own parents left. I've been trying to stay strong for her while also taking care of our child but it was getting hard. I haven't been into the studio since that night and Jasey hadn't been to LAB either. I felt terrible for her, especially since a lot of things were scheduled for us these next few days. A few interviews, a photo shoot or two, and taking care of Danielle as always. I was touring soon, once the record was finished and Jasey and Dani were coming with me. This was the first time I'd ever have my kid with me on tour and I knew it was going to be a bit of a shock to my system but it didn't matter. I was just happy I didn't have to leave them. Derek and Lauren were out in LA and had been visiting with us occasionally. They were staying at a hotel, but Lauren was over all day with Jasey and Danielle along with her daughter. I stood up, stubbing my cigarette in the ashtray next to me. I walked back inside to see Jasey in the kitchen. The light was on and she was leaning on the counter. "Babe?" I said, and she looked up at me. "Couldn't sleep?" "No." She sighed. "I think your rubbing off on me." I smiled softly and walked to her side. She leaned up and pressed a kiss to my lips. It became heated fast as I shoved my tounge into her mouth. I lifted her up on the counter, feeling my growing erection against her thy. I let my hands come up to cup her breasts. "Oh Andy..." She whispered as I rolled her nipple around in my finger. I leaned down and kissed her neck, right on her sweet spot. "I need you." I mumbled against her skin. "We haven't had sex in weeks." "I need you too." She said, her hands trailing down my arms and to my butt where she squeezed lightly. I pushed her body closer to mine and kissed her even harder. "I love you." I said, moving away to kiss her nose. "I love you." I kissed her forehead. "I love you so much." I said, kissing her on the mouth again. I picked her up and walked over to the couch. I laid her down and climbed on top of her. She slipped her old white tee shirt off and I threw my sweats off. She trailed her hands down my bare chest and I felt myself shiver. She tugged at the waist band of my boxers so I threw them off. "I want you now." She said. I nodded, took her underwear off, and pushed myself into her. She gasped and threw her head back. Ever since Jasey got pregnant she started taking birth control. Not because we disliked Danielle, obviously, but because we didn't want anymore kids right now. I thrusted into her over and over, each time with more need and love than the one before. Her arms had wrapped around my middle and I couldn't help but think of the first time we had sex. We were so new to everything, and now our bodies fit so perfectly together. We climaxed together and shouted each other's names. I pulled out and collapsed down next to her. I buried my face in her neck as she traced lazy circles into my skin. We laid there for about twenty minutes just drinking in each other's presence until I heard crying coming from Danielle's room. I chuckled and stood up. "I'll get her." "I'll come with." She laughed, pulling on her underwear and shirt as I put on my sweats and boxers. We laced hands and walked back to see Dani awake and crying. She was sat up and holding on to the railings of her crib. "Oh sweetie." I said, picking her up. "What's wrong?" I asked. She buried her face in my shoulder, still crying. Jasey came over and rubbed her back. "Oh." She wrinkled her nose. "I know what's wrong. Someone needs to be changed." She said, taking her from me and walking over to the changing table. I leaned on Danielle's crib and watched them. Jasey's body was so tiny. Her legs were still as small as ever and her belly was as flat as can be. I remember how hard she worked out after she'd had Danielle. It took her a few months but she got her body back and even more. She had muscle now, which made her even more sexy. I heard Dani mumble something, and my heart stopped as I heard her say something. "...da...da.." She squealed happily. Tears pricked to my eyes. "Did she just?" "Yes." Jasey cried. I ran over to them and wrapped my arms around her. "Mama...dada..." Danielle grinned. Jasey picked her up and we both kissed her cheeks. "I'm so proud of you." I said, rubbing her back. "Me too." Jasey said, wiping a tear off of her cheek. "We love you so much." "Lo-ove.." Dani repeated and we both giggled. "Yes." I gasped, still laughing. "Your precious." "She's growing up so fast. She is ten months next week." Jasey said, walking over to the crib. Danielle had quickly fallen asleep again and my eyes were still watering. "Let's head back to bed, dear." I said, kissing her temple and pulling her back to our bedroom. "I can't believe she just said her first words!" Jasey exclaimed. "You have to tell your mom tomorrow." "I will. Speaking of tomorrow, how do you feel about a family day? The park, maybe lunch or something." I asked, laying down on the bed. "Sounds fun." She said, nestling into my chest. "Should I invite Derek and Lauren?" "No. Family day." I mumbled, and she giggled. "Okay." She kissed my cheek. I looked down at her and saw her eyes slip shut. "Goodnight my queen." I said, kissing her. She didn't reply as she was already asleep but the way her hand curled around my arm: she didn't have too. I knew she loved me as much as I did.

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