Happy Little Pill

A quiet hum sounded from my lips as I sat in the kitchen of Andy's house, writing a song. It wasn't anything special, and probably will be scrapped soon, but I liked the melody I came up with. My eyes closed and I sighed before beginning the hum again.

"I once heard a great line of advice,
Only the brightest stars fall to earth.
You must have been special,
So why aren't you here?

When we think of the future,
We get scared, terrified.
The future is uncertain,
The future can consume our life.

Somewhere inside of me,
My heart breaks into a thousand pieces.
Somewhere inside of me,
My thoughts turn dark.

Where did you go?
What did I do wrong?
My love, my life,
What went wrong?

I once heard a great line of advice,
Only the brightest stars fall to earth,
You must have been special,
So why aren't you here?
I was a star, I shined through the dark.
I was the light in your eye,
I fell to earth and now I'm broken.
Where were you to pick up the pieces?" I sang out loud and then realized I had tears falling down my face. A second later I felt a hand on my shoulder and I knew it was Andy, but I couldn't turn around.

"Sadee, talk to me," Andy said with an extremely raspy voice. I sniffled and turned to him.

"No, you talk to me. You cried for a half hour Andy," I said as I wiped my tears.

"I'm kind of numb right now, I don't know what to say," he said quietly and sat down next to me. I stared at him and saw the broken face he had. It was almost as bad as him crying. I wrapped my arms around him and rested my head in his shoulder. It took him a while, but he wrapped his own arms around me and we sat there for a while. It's like we both understood our feelings and what was going on in each of our minds, but at the same time we were clueless.

"Andy, it killed me to see you crying," I said quietly into his shoulder. He sat there silent and then I felt his body shudder. Oh no, he's crying again.

"Andy, please don't cry, I can't handle that," I said with tears coming to my own eyes. Until a few moments ago I hadn't realized how much it hurt my heart to not have Colton to see every day.

"I love her so much," he cried out loud and I looked at him. We had separated and he was leaning back in the chair, staring at the ceiling.

"I know," I mumbled and he stood.

"Who the fuck does she think she is? We love each other. I have gone through so much shit in my life and she understood. She helped me in my darkest moments!" He screamed to the walls and I stared at him.

"Don't you dare say write about it, because if you do, I will-" he stopped and then I watched him collapse to his knees.

"Andy, oh my gosh," I said and in one movement I had my arms wrapped around him and his body was shuddering and spazzing.

"I love her, she is the best thing that ever happened to me. How could she think I cheated on her?" He cried and I rubbed his back.

"Because for some reason, she didn't trust you," I said quietly and he began sobbing.

"Why wouldn't she trust me? I trusted her with my heart, my mind, my everything," he kept on crying and I had to fight to not start crying.

"Look at me Andy," I said and leaned back. He was hunched over with his face in his hands and I blinked, which was a bad idea because the tears began falling. Andy just sat there and it was killing me to see him so hurt and broken. Inside of me I had a burning hatred for Juliet and I wanted her to pay. How can someone who has loved someone for so long just leave and break their heart without explanation? He was confused and I was pissed. Not only at her but at myself. I was fucking up my relationship with Colton, he is the best thing that happened to me. He got me away from my mom and her overpowering personality. But at the same time I hate him with every fiber of my being.

It took me a second to realize I was literally sobbing as I sat there. Andy was still crying but he was looking at me.

"Sadee?" He mumbled quietly as he stared at me. Next thing I knew he wrapped his arms around me and held me tightly.

"I never realized, how much I hate Colton, but love him at the same time," I cried and Andy rubbed my back. Something inside of me had broken and I couldn't stop the tears. Andy's had all but stopped.

We sat on the kitchen floor for what seemed like forever while I cried and Andy tried to comfort me. It was pissing me off because I should be the one who is comforting Andy, the woman he loves just broke up with him, and I was the one sitting here crying my eyes out.

"Hey, look at me," Andy said quietly and gently. I looked up at him and he had a small smile on his face.

"Why are you crying?" He asked as he wiped a tear away.

"I don't know, I just, realized, that I have depended on Colton for such a long time. He got me out of Nashville, we have lived together for a year and he isn't even trying to fix anything. He just accepted that I am pissed off at him and is living his life. He's probably cheated on me," I said with a dark chuckle and Andy rested his hand on my shoulder.

"We are a hot mess right now," he laughed and I chuckled again.

"We are, aren't we?" I asked and then I leaned into him and wrapped my arms around him. We hugged again and this time, neither of us were crying.

Notes

I had a great commenter,SassDoctorZee, tell me to go more into Andy's vulnerable side. So I did, and thank you dear! I also went into a bit of Sadee's vulnerable side. And no, I am not going to jump into a relationship between Andy and Sadee, they are friend right now who both need each other. Maybe in the future I will, but right now, it's a friendship that has a lot of emotion.

Anyways, hope you liked it!!!