Picking up the broken pieces

I woke up the next morning with that crushing feeling still crippling me. I couldn't move, not that I even wanted to. I was squeezing Spooky so tightly that if he were alive, well, he probably wouldn't be anymore. I heard Ashley groan softly and get up. A few minutes later, I heard the door shut softly. I still didn't want to get out of bed, and my eyes felt so heavy, so I fell back asleep.
I woke up to CC shaking the crap out of me. "GET UP GET UP GET UP GET UUUUUUPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!" he shouted in my ear. "HOT DAMMIT CC, I'M UP!" I shouted back. He laughed and pulled off my covers. I screamed bloody murder and kicked him, which really just made him laugh harder. "WILL YOU GET OUT?" I shouted. I could hear the guys laughing. "Fine, but only if you get up." He then picked me up and dropped me on the ground. "GET OUT AND I WILL!" I yelled. He pranced out of the room. Literally. I rolled my eyes and climbed back into bed. "If I come back in here and you're in bed I'll splash you with cold water!" CC shouted from outside the door. Well fuck. I thought. After picking out a pair of black cargo pants, a large black Misfits t-shirt, I put on a plain black hoodie and laced up my black combat boots, then opened the door only to come face to face with a very goofy looking CC.
I jumped back, yelping. He laughed again and ran to the living area. I flipped him and the other laughing guys off and went into the bathroom to put on makeup. After applying my dark makeup and somehow finding the energy to style my hair, I came out and went back to the room. A few minutes later, I heard a knock. "Alex, come on, get up. It's a new day, get your sexy ass up and face it!" Ashley shouted. "Go away." I mumbled miserably. I heard another voice tell him to go sit down. "Alex, I know you must be severely depressed right now, but can you at least come out and watch TV or something?" Andy's deep voice asked. I sighed and slipped out of my bed, clutching onto Spooky. I opened the door, shuffling like a zombie. Jinxx scooted over and patted the seat next to him. I plopped unladylike into the seat and closed my eyes. "I'm guessing you'll want this?" Andy came in after me, handing me my i-pod. I gratefully accepted it and stuffed both ear buds in my ears. I began to blast The Show Must Go On by Famous Last Words. I got a few curious stares from the guys.
Ignoring their looks, I closed my eyes and focused intently on my music. After the song ended, Starting Over by Famous Last Words started up. I began to sing, not realizing I was singing until I opened my eyes to find all of the guys staring at me, eyes wide, mouths hanging open. I paused the song. "What? Am I that bad?" I mumbled shyly. "No, quite the opposite. You're incredible!" Andy recovered first and complimented me. This was followed by a string of compliments from the other guys.
I blushed and thanked them, then closed my eyes again. I really just want to curl up in a ball. Everything hurts so much. I thought sadly. "So what's up with the bear?" I heard Jake ask. My eyes snapped open. "O....oh....um...it was Allisons...well, it was mine, but when Ally showed up I gave him to her...." I heard my voice begin to wobble. The guys all looked at me with sympathetic looks. I looked down and silently wished my death for the billionth time in two days.

Notes

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