Picking up the broken pieces

After tossing and turning all night, too terrified to sleep, I finally forced myself up out of bed and went to shower. Once again, I cut, once again I wished I was dead. When I finally got out, it was just starting to get light outside. Ice cold water dripped from my short black hair. I hadn't even realized the water had ran cold. Shivering violently, I wrapped my injured body into my towel and scurried back to "my room." I picked out red ripped skinny jeans, and an old Black Veil Brides Tshirt. After putting on my black socks and usual combat boots, I added to my outfit by putting on a heavy zip up black hoodie that once belonged to my brother.

I softly tip toed into the living room and collapsed on the couch. I don't know how long I sat there staring blankly and my black painted fingernails, but apparently I was there for quite some time, because Jinxx tapped me on the shoulder. I jumped and curled up into a ball, hands covering my head. A reflex no kid or teen should have to have. When I didn't feel any pain, I cautiously looked up, only to meet Jinxx's sad gaze. I shook my head at my stupidity. It was as though I'd momentarily forgotten I was supposedly safe... Jinxx sat down across from me and smiled encouragingly. "You know, we have a new record coming out soon?" he asked, breaking the silence. I nodded. Of course I knew. I'd already gotten two of their singles onto my MP3. Jinxx seemed to sense that I didn't feel like talking, so he turned on the television. It wasn't ling after he did this that Jake got up and joined us. "Morning." he yawned as he plopped onto the couch next to Jinxx. Ashley was next to get up a few hours later. When CC and Andy didn't join us, I softly asked where they were. "Andy sleeps in till about two, and Cc is always last to get up." Ashley grinned at me. I nodded and sat back, pretending to watch whatever it was the others were watching as I became lost in the dark thoughts that consumed me.

Notes

I know it's short, and I know it's a filler, sorry!!! Also, sorry for not being able to use paragraphs, my phone is a jerk. Now then, that being said! I am so so sorry it's taken me so long to update! The only reason I have the time to at the moment is because it's the weekend....that and I'm sick... :P Anyway, once again I apologize for the inconvenience! I'm going to try to start updating more often.