We know our wings are flawed.
It feels like drowning
Today me and Jinxx where going to the carnival and i was so freaking excited, we both quickly got ready and jumped into the car as the guys waved goodbye.
As Jinxx looked at me he started laughing. i was staring out the window, making sure the car was moving as we were getting closer and closer to our destination every second. i was were excited, and that made Jinxx happy. He loved it when he could make me smile.
As he pulled up, i didn’t even give him time to bring the car to a complete stop, instead i opened your door and bolted to the admission booth. We’d finally arrived at the carnival. Just as i were granted entry to the carnival, Jinxx had caught up to me, now puffing. i lead the way, still excited like one of the little children there, and spun around looking at all the rides and games the carnival had to offer.
Jinxx pulled me over to the Ferris wheel first and i grinned as he made a deal with the ride owner. Jinxx held my hand as you walked over to the cabin, Jinxx opened the door for me and made sure i was comfortable before getting in the cabin himself and sitting down. He put his arm around me proudly, as the Ferris wheel started and we were slowly hoisted higher and higher into the air.
It didn’t take long till we were at the top and we could look over the whole town. Everyone would always say that places looked better lit up at night, but i disagreed. i loved look at daytime scenery. i looked over to Jinxx and he immediately started goofing off. This wasn’t his normal self, and it was making me feel uncomfortable and awkward but i laughed, trying to make him happy. Eventually i felt myself begin to descend back to the ground and after a few minutes we were being let off of the ride.
Next me and Jinxx decided to play some of the carnival games. And with every game we played, Jinxx seemed to be getting cockier and a little more aggressive to the carnies. i also noticed he was leaving me for toilet breaks and ‘fresh air’ breaks more than he usually did. Aside from his weird behaviour it was a fun day so far, so i tried your best to ignore it and shrug it off. “I’m gonna go have a piss. Meet me back here in ten” Jinxx said to me, for the millionth time that day it seemed. i sighed and nodded, adjusting my handbag on my shoulder as he walked off. i wandered around a little bit, i deciding i was a little hungry and like lunch soon and would eat when Jinxx got back. i looked at my phone and realised it had been a little over ten minutes so i hurried back to the meeting spot.
Upon not seeing Jinxx, i took a seat, expecting him to be back soon. Then 15 minutes passed. Then 20. Then 30. Then i realised i’d been sitting there for almost an hour. i stood, worried and frustrated, and began the search for Jinxx. i went to the toilet block first and when i saw no sign of him there i went to look in the parking lot. Still no sign of him. i decided to go back and check at our meeting place.
i walked passed a couple bins and things in an abandoned patch of grass. i stumbled over something and fell on my knees. i groaned as i stood and tried to rub the dirt off of my new white jeans. i flicked my hair out of my face and turned to see the stupid tree stump that had tripped me. Instead of a tree stump there was an unconscious body. i gasped and slowly stepped back over it, kneeling down. i grabbed a wrist and felt a pulse instantly. i looked at the arm and the tattoos were recognisable. i slowly looked up the body. As soon as i saw Jinxx’s face i screamed. He was alive, and breathing, but he’d passed out. It was obvious what had happened. He was on drugs. Again. i knew he had a drug problem in the past but he had relapsed.
i quickly phoned an ambulance, while waiting for them to arrive i paced up and down, putting my hands on my head and with tears streaming down my cheeks, i knew this was bad. i thought it would be a good idea to call andy
"Hey Lindsey" andy said
"H..hi" i replied
"Lindsey, whats wrong, what happened" he said anxiously
"It..Its Jinxx, he's passed out, i think he may be talking drugs again but im not 100% sure" i said stumbling my words
"Shit... " andy yelled
"I...i called an ambulance and they are on their way" i sighed
"We will meet you at the hospital okay" andy said
i heard Andy suddenly shout "Guys get your stuff, there is something wrong with jinxx, we have to get to the hospital"
"alright" i sobbed
"Bye Lindsey" andy said
I hung up the phone and knelt down next to jinxx's unconsious body, I grabbed his arm and whispered "its going to be alrighty baby, just stay with me". The ambulance arrived and they quickly lifted jinxx up onto a gurney and strapped and oxygen mask to his face. The paramedics wheeled jinxx into the ambulance. i got in after them and held jinxx's hand, it was stone cold.
"stay with me Jinxx, please don't leave me" i whispered.....
As Jinxx looked at me he started laughing. i was staring out the window, making sure the car was moving as we were getting closer and closer to our destination every second. i was were excited, and that made Jinxx happy. He loved it when he could make me smile.
As he pulled up, i didn’t even give him time to bring the car to a complete stop, instead i opened your door and bolted to the admission booth. We’d finally arrived at the carnival. Just as i were granted entry to the carnival, Jinxx had caught up to me, now puffing. i lead the way, still excited like one of the little children there, and spun around looking at all the rides and games the carnival had to offer.
Jinxx pulled me over to the Ferris wheel first and i grinned as he made a deal with the ride owner. Jinxx held my hand as you walked over to the cabin, Jinxx opened the door for me and made sure i was comfortable before getting in the cabin himself and sitting down. He put his arm around me proudly, as the Ferris wheel started and we were slowly hoisted higher and higher into the air.
It didn’t take long till we were at the top and we could look over the whole town. Everyone would always say that places looked better lit up at night, but i disagreed. i loved look at daytime scenery. i looked over to Jinxx and he immediately started goofing off. This wasn’t his normal self, and it was making me feel uncomfortable and awkward but i laughed, trying to make him happy. Eventually i felt myself begin to descend back to the ground and after a few minutes we were being let off of the ride.
Next me and Jinxx decided to play some of the carnival games. And with every game we played, Jinxx seemed to be getting cockier and a little more aggressive to the carnies. i also noticed he was leaving me for toilet breaks and ‘fresh air’ breaks more than he usually did. Aside from his weird behaviour it was a fun day so far, so i tried your best to ignore it and shrug it off. “I’m gonna go have a piss. Meet me back here in ten” Jinxx said to me, for the millionth time that day it seemed. i sighed and nodded, adjusting my handbag on my shoulder as he walked off. i wandered around a little bit, i deciding i was a little hungry and like lunch soon and would eat when Jinxx got back. i looked at my phone and realised it had been a little over ten minutes so i hurried back to the meeting spot.
Upon not seeing Jinxx, i took a seat, expecting him to be back soon. Then 15 minutes passed. Then 20. Then 30. Then i realised i’d been sitting there for almost an hour. i stood, worried and frustrated, and began the search for Jinxx. i went to the toilet block first and when i saw no sign of him there i went to look in the parking lot. Still no sign of him. i decided to go back and check at our meeting place.
i walked passed a couple bins and things in an abandoned patch of grass. i stumbled over something and fell on my knees. i groaned as i stood and tried to rub the dirt off of my new white jeans. i flicked my hair out of my face and turned to see the stupid tree stump that had tripped me. Instead of a tree stump there was an unconscious body. i gasped and slowly stepped back over it, kneeling down. i grabbed a wrist and felt a pulse instantly. i looked at the arm and the tattoos were recognisable. i slowly looked up the body. As soon as i saw Jinxx’s face i screamed. He was alive, and breathing, but he’d passed out. It was obvious what had happened. He was on drugs. Again. i knew he had a drug problem in the past but he had relapsed.
i quickly phoned an ambulance, while waiting for them to arrive i paced up and down, putting my hands on my head and with tears streaming down my cheeks, i knew this was bad. i thought it would be a good idea to call andy
"Hey Lindsey" andy said
"H..hi" i replied
"Lindsey, whats wrong, what happened" he said anxiously
"It..Its Jinxx, he's passed out, i think he may be talking drugs again but im not 100% sure" i said stumbling my words
"Shit... " andy yelled
"I...i called an ambulance and they are on their way" i sighed
"We will meet you at the hospital okay" andy said
i heard Andy suddenly shout "Guys get your stuff, there is something wrong with jinxx, we have to get to the hospital"
"alright" i sobbed
"Bye Lindsey" andy said
I hung up the phone and knelt down next to jinxx's unconsious body, I grabbed his arm and whispered "its going to be alrighty baby, just stay with me". The ambulance arrived and they quickly lifted jinxx up onto a gurney and strapped and oxygen mask to his face. The paramedics wheeled jinxx into the ambulance. i got in after them and held jinxx's hand, it was stone cold.
"stay with me Jinxx, please don't leave me" i whispered.....
I'm crying. :'(
10/21/14