Things Aren't Always As They Seem

"Can I ask you some things?" Austin asked, glancing down at me.

"Um.. of course...?" I said, laughing some.

"Okay, first one. People have sex all the time, how would that cause you to no longer be able to have kids?"

"He would stomp on my lower stomach, where my ovaries and everything are. He would also shove other things so far up, it damaged my uterus. Next?"

"What did you mean by 'relapse'?"

"I used to self harm. I've been self harming for around five ish years, but I haven't relapsed in several months."

"Good! I'm glad! Why didn't you talk to someone about everything that happened?"

"I couldn't. No one would believe me, and I deserved it anyways.."

"No you didn't! How could you say something like that?"

"Sorry..."

"It's okay..I just can't see why you'd feel like that about yourself. You're an amazing, sweet, and loving girl. And you did NOTHING to deserve that. No one deserves to go through something like that.."

"Thanks Austin..." I said as we got through the gates of WT. We walked to his bus and he unlocked the door, then stepped back so that I could go first. I giggled and stepped onto the bus.

"I guess the guys are still out." Austin mumbled as he walked onto the bus and locked the door again. He walked to the kitchen and put the leftovers in the fridge, then walked to the couch and sat down.

I walked over and sat down beside him. "Can I ask you something, now?" I asked quietly.

He nodded, so I took a deep breath and looked up at him. "Can you please not say anything about what I've told you? I don't want anyone else to know yet."

"Of course I won't tell anyone! I will not breath a word of this until you are ready and you want me to." He said, rubbing my shoulder reassuringly.

"Thank you. It means a lot."

~Time lapse, now 8:23p.m.~
When I walked outside, I took a deep breath to calm my nerves. I still can't believe I told someone about the Incident. Austin and I spent the rest of the day watching movies and snacking and doing random stuff. And he was right, Rosa's Diner has great food.

Anyways, I was headed back towards my bus when I felt someone grab my shoulder softly. I turned around and saw Vic.

"Hey! Whatcha doing?" I asked, smiling.

"Well, I was calling your name, but it seemed like you didn't hear me so I caught up to you, and yeah..." he trailed off, laughing softly.

"Oh! Sorry, I was zoned out." I giggled, looking at the ground.

"It's fine. So, how's my little Andilena doing?" He asked, wrapping his arm gently around my waist. I stiffened up a little, but it was enough for Vic to notice. He looked down at me worriedly and stopped us from walking. "Are you okay, darling?"

"Yeah... yeah. Sorry. I, um... I'm fine. I'm still a little out of it, so it startled me a little when you did that. I'm sorry, honey." I mumbled.

"You're fine, no reason to apologize for that. Would it make you more comfortable if I took my arm away from your waist?" He asked as we started walking again.

"No, it's fine. You're not bothering me. How was your day?" I asked softly, kicking a rock up in front of us.

"Pretty okay, I guess. Would have been better if I could have been causing mischief with you." He winked playfully. "How was yours?"

I giggled. "Fine. Got to hang out with Austin since the BVB guys and Juliet were worried about me. I did, however, miss causing hell, too."

"The night's still young..." he whispered into my ear.

"What are you implying, Mr. Fuentes?" I smirked up at him.

"I'm just implying that we could still have some fun, you could always spend the night with me again." He grinned mischievously.

"Yeah, maybe then you wouldn't have to find your release with some drunk chick at a bar." I laughed as he visibly paled.

"H..how do you know about that?"

"I saw you. Outside your bus with the girl. Practically fucked you against the bus, and let's not forget the passionate kiss you shared before heading into your bus. It just so happened that Juliet and the guys wanted to eat at a restaurant near that bar. I wasn't feeling well, so Ashley and I left early...just as you and the girl were walking out." I explained.

"Andilena.... I am so sorry! I was drunk, too.." Vic trailed off.

"Honey, it's fine. I'm not mad. I don't care that that happened, no offense. As for staying the night again with you, you'd have to ask Andy and Juliet about that. Oh, and Ashley! He gets pouty when I'm not there to share his love of Hello Kitty. Plus, we're leaving to the next venue tonight." I laughed.

"Oh yeah...I forgot about that.. and Ashley will get over it eventually." He said playfully.

"True... ah, well. Let's just go ask if I can." I said, smiling up at him, then taking off towards my bus with Vic close behind me.

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