Things Aren't Always As They Seem

"Fine." I said after the waitress came back with our drinks and food. "Ask me anything, if I'm comfortable enough, I'll answer"

"What happened at the orphanage place?" Austin said, as he began to eat.

I nibbled on a french fry, before sighing and beginning part of my story. "Well... I was there for about five years. Ish...more or less. Anyways, at first it wasn't entirely that bad. Then... I met a boy." I looked down, picking at my food. "I was about fourteen, I think.. when I gave him everything. I was stupid, I know. But I really thought I loved him, and it was only once.We didn't even finish. We had been dating for almost a year, and I had never actually been in a real relationship before that, just petty ones that never actually meant anything. Anyways, he broke up with me about a month later. Soon after, I never saw him again. Someone said he moved down to Florida or something, I don't know.." I trailed off, glancing up at Austin, embarrassed.

"Hun, I'm not going to judge you. I will never judge you, I promise." He said, giving me an encouraging look.

I nodded. "Well, anyways. I had been friends with another boy... He's a little bit older than I am. He lives close to the orphanage place thing I used to live at. At the time, he was my best friend. He was the reason I didn't relapse as many times as I had been. We ended up dating, and he.. forced me to do things I wasn't comfortable with. He wouldn't listen when I said no, so I gave in after a while. Even though I was uncomfortable with things, I fell in love with him. I would have let him do anything he wanted...I didn't know any better."

I paused for a second to eat some more fries, then continued, "But, he always refused to wear protection. And, I got fed up after a while, things were getting to be too much. He wanted to have a family of our own, and I was only fifteen almost sixteen at the time. I wasn't ready to be grown up, so I broke up with him. Several times, because he kept making me feel like shit and get back together with him. I finally got him to stop after a while, and just act like my friend again. He was trouble anyways. He cheated on me. He constantly flirted with my friends and other girls that I didn't know, even though when confronted him about it he promised multiple times it wouldn't happen again." I had to stop and lay my head on the table because I was tearing up.

'Stop it, Andilena. You can't cry now, you're in public.' I thought angrily to myself. Austin came over to my side of the table and side-hugged me. I leaned into him, and he started rubbing my shoulder.

"Why don't we get this to go, and we can go back to my bus to continue talking?" Austin suggested.

I nodded and he flagged the waitress down so he could get our ticket and some boxes. I looked at the ticket and got out enough money for my half, handing it to Austin. He shook his head at me, and left to pay for the bill.

When he got back, I tried to give him the money again. "Babe, I'm not taking your money. Keep it, seriously. I wanted to pay for you, please just keep your money." He smiled down at me, then put our food into the to go boxes and placed them in a bag.

I stood up and hugged him. "Thank you, Austin." I said, then kissed his cheek and followed him out of the door.

"What else happened at the orphanage?" Austin asked softly as we headed back towards Warped Tour.

"The second guy had been friends with someone who lived at the orphanage with me... his friend's name is Daniel. He made my life a living hell there. He raped me...a lot of times. Never used a condom either. There were at least three different times where I thought I was pregnant. It was Hell... I'm NOT pregnant, by the way. I never have been. I was always so relieved when the tests came back negative. But, one day he got too crazy."

I took a deep breath before continuing. "He beat me so bad I had to go to the doctor... and the doc told me that I'd never be able to have kids. Too much repeated trauma to my.. um.. you know. There's always a chance that I could possibly have children later on in life if everything can heal all the way. That was almost a year ago.. and I'm still not even close to being healed all the way. When Daniel found out, he stopped sexually abusing me.. but bullied me relentlessly. He turned the entire orphanage against me, excluding Jenny. She never knew about that, it's not even in my files. The only people who know are Daniel, the doctor, and now you. Before I left, he hugged me from behind and told me that he'd find me again. I saw him and his friends last night at the restaurant the BVB guys and I were eating at. It might have been a coincidence, but... I don't know."

"Well, as long as I'm around, he can't ever hurt you again." Austin said. You could practically feel the pissed off aura radiating off of him...

Notes

Sorry! I had to delete this chapter and retype because I messed up and so yeah.. sorry!