six feet under the stars

Looking back I never really cared about stars until after the accident. In the snowy night just before December I had been standing on the bridge to the main state. Mia, justin's sister, had told me to wait here she had a surprise. But it had been almost three hours and I was freezing I called my mother to come pick me up. She was driving away and we where three blocks away from my house when we slipped. The car spun in dizzying circles. I Screamed at the top Of my Lungs we hit the pole my pregnant Mother got the worst of it I was slammed against the door so hard it opened and I fell out loosing the light but I saw it change into the first real star I had ever seen.
When I woke up the baby was gone and so was my mom's mind.
Wendy was bringing home guys every day it seemed then Alex came into her life. It wasn't about one night of forgetting anymore. It was about a lifetime of remembering that there was something at some point. After two months of them together she had decided to leave us for him. Leave me for him. Do you know what that's like? Like she no longer needed or wanted me. And I blew up at I remember I told her that if she walked out of the door she would never be my sister again. I've held on to that because if she wanted to be any part of my life she would have stayed
a year Later my dad brought home his first girl my mom didn't even fight for it She just gave up. it was heart breaking. I remember the long winter night when I first ran off with Justin and saw the stars for real. They look like little gold dots on a sky a lot like you're eyes Delilah. And then everyone knows what happened to Justin two years later. Every one I ever loved, they go away or hurt me. "
"I won't. " a deep voice said from behind us
"why would I ever want to leave you." Delilah's sweet voice whispered next to me
"you know if you give me a chance I could show you that I wouldn't hurt or leave you."
Alex. He was right. He loved my sister. He was the closest thing to a father Delilah ever had. Andy was like a brother to him. He wanted to be something to me. But I did what I always did. Shut him out.
my arms where around him and my head in his neck. I could have sworn the entire world stopped. I let go and looked straight at Delilah. She can't be mad. An almost fifteen year old girl with the life of someone who had lived through world war two. I hugged her tight. She could be everything to me. I don't want to loose her to anything. I then turned to andy. I don't believe love truly exists but I had something toward him. The man I knew nothing about but he knew everything. I would find out who he really was

Notes

Sorry but I've been trying to write this perfectly.