Arranged marriage to a Jerk (Andy Biersack love story.) (On Hold editing and whatnot)
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--skipping the trip---
A weekend with Andy and everything changed; he was sweet, sensual and not to mention loving. We did not go sight seeing, we just made love, every single damn hour. Needless to say i started to hurt by fucking 45.
But now? He was back. He was a jerk. Well not to me, to everyone excluding me. Andy was on edge. Maybe cause he is going on tour for three whole months. In two weeks he will be leaving me once again. Even on warped tour i could go visit him, but now he will be traveling to places unknown.
Right now... at this moment we were having a fight. One of the biggest fights we have ever had. "What do you think will happen!" i bellowed with tears in my eyes. "Andrew i love you, i have learned my lesson."
"Three fucking months Ally!" he screamed throwing his whiskey glass on the wall. "I trust you i do, but this? Rick is in town and this will be his perfect get-go to fuck you!"
I sobbed uncontrollably. "I don't love him anymore, don't you get it. You are leaving in two weeks. Can't we just be reasonable about this?" I asked. "I will rather drown my self in work and having date nights with Maggie than be out with my ex, i don't love him like i love you okay, how many times should i prove to you!"
Andrew closed his eyes shaking his head side to side. "Maybe i should quit."
"What no!" i walked up to him. "You just wanna quit on your fans, you can't quit on Black Veil Brides, it is just three months Andy. Just three."
"It does not make it easier nor harder; You don't get it Alyssa," He breathed brushing his hair back. "I can't just leave you."
"You will." I whispered pressing my lips to his. "You don't belong here, you belong out on the road, saving people. But i will still be here. We have been through so much. So, so much Andrew." i wrapped my arms around his neck placing my head on his chest. "I won't do anything stupid,"
"Do you really love me?" He asked looking down to me. "Do you?"
"Yes. I do. Can we just make love and forget about this conversation please."
He nodded and placed his lips on mine devouring my mouth ripping open my blouse. "I need as much of you, before i go."
Month one.
"It has been a month." Maggie snaps. "Oh come on. You don't like his music but you have black veil brides songs on repeat and you have been watching his interviews and music videos every single day, lets go out." She whined.
"I miss him okay. I just need him with me." I grumbled wrapping myself in his old shirt. "He possessed me," I whimper. "I am obsessed with him."
"And not a few months ago you hated the man," Maggie sighed crashing on the edge of the bed. "You wanna feel his lips on yours, his embrace."
"Maggie?" i looked up. "What's wrong?"
She laughed and lifted up her finger. "Jack asked me to marry him and i said yes."
My eyes grew wide and for a moment my sadness vanished as i hugged my best friend. "Oh my god, congrats." I pulled back and grinned. "Have you decided on a date yet?" grabbing her finger i examine the ring. "Good taste indeed."
"Bitch please, i picked it out myself." I could not help hut laugh. "Anyway you will be my maid of honor you that right?"
"Duh! okay we have to celebrate." I grinned jumping off the bed. "What do you say we hit the streets."
"Better idea." She pouted. "We are having a party and Alex's house." Grin vanished. "I want you to come."
"No! the man kissed me and i am still avoiding him. Please don't make me go."
"You are going and that's it." She snapped walking to my closet, she grabbed a pair of washed jeans and a red tank top. "Get dressed."
"Fine."
I was nervous. I am nervous. I am fucking nervous. "Hello." Alex opened the door but his gaze came to me. "Finally." He breathed.
"Hi Alex." I grimaced. He opened the door wider letting me and Maggie in. Maggie ran to the Jack as he kissed her. I missed Andy kissing me, touching me. "Nice place."
"I have missed you. I am sorry about your father."
"Thank you."
"Want something to drink?" He asked placing his hand on my lower back. "I heard you love your sex on the beach."
"No thank you, i don't drink anymore." I grumbled biting the bottom of my lip.
Maggie turned to Alex. "And also don't smoke in front of her, she gets sick." i gave a nod and walked into the living room seeing people talking and laughing. My best friend grabbed me by the hand and pulled me into the kitchen. "Are you okay?"
"I am fine." Just missing Andy. "I am just a bit dizzy that's all."
"Ally can i have a sex please?" Alex mumbled. I gave a nod as he lead me to the backyard. He waved to the lawn chair. I sat down as he sat opposite me on the railing. "I am in love with you, you know that right?"
"I am married to Andy, I love him." I whispered playing with my fingers. "Please don't make it harder than it is already. Don't tare me down,"
"You have opened the door now, don't let it closed."
I gulped hard shaking my head. "I am sorry Alex, "
Alex came to me and lowered him between my legs grabbing my hands. "Don't break me down. I want to believe this is for real, safe my from my fear, don't you tare me down, for all i need, make my heart a better place."
"I am pregnant." I chocked out. "Alex i am pregnant."
"I don't care Alyssa, i am in love with you. Pleas i am begging you."
Tears formed on my cheeks as i shook my head. "I am sorry, i have to go." i pulled myself up from the chair running into the house. All colors seemed to fade away, i can reach my soul. "I have to go." I whispering to Maggie. She gave me nod and kissed my cheek before i ran out of the house straight to the car.
I climbed out of the car and shut it. Walking to my door way my breathed hitched. "Rick, please not now." i mumbled grabbing the key from my jean pocket. "I am not in the mood."
"I am not leaving till you tell me you don't love me anymore." He snapped twirling me around.
"I don't love you anymore, i love Andy and i am going to have his child. Just leave me the hell alone."
"I am not giving up on you Al, i am not." He groaned.
I burst into tears pushing him back. "leave me alone please, why don't you and Alex leave me alone i happy!" i opened the door and shut it, locking it. i ran upstairs with tears in my eyes.
I grabbed my cell and typed in Andy's number. I walked into the bathroom gazing at myself through the mirror. I have become numb, "Hello?" He answered.
"Uh," i held down my tears. "Its me Ally,"
"God its good to hear your voice. I miss you."
"I miss you to to. Andy uh, how is the tour so far?" I whispered seeing my eyes watering once again. Save me Andy. Save me from the nothing i have become. You told me you will bring me back to life.
"It has been good, love seeing the army with smiles on the their faces." He chuckled. "More importantly is there a smile on yours?"
"No not really." I admitted eyeing my pale face expression. "I just wanted to uh let you know-" that i am pregnant. "I am going to sleep now. Uh i love you."
"I love you too." He whispered.
I slide the phone from my ear pressing the red button. i began to laugh and just shook my head. "Without the mask ,Where will you hide? Can't find yourself Lost in your lie
I know the truth now I know who you are And I don't love you anymore It never was and never will be You don't know how you've betrayed me and somehow you've got everybody fooled."
A weekend with Andy and everything changed; he was sweet, sensual and not to mention loving. We did not go sight seeing, we just made love, every single damn hour. Needless to say i started to hurt by fucking 45.
But now? He was back. He was a jerk. Well not to me, to everyone excluding me. Andy was on edge. Maybe cause he is going on tour for three whole months. In two weeks he will be leaving me once again. Even on warped tour i could go visit him, but now he will be traveling to places unknown.
Right now... at this moment we were having a fight. One of the biggest fights we have ever had. "What do you think will happen!" i bellowed with tears in my eyes. "Andrew i love you, i have learned my lesson."
"Three fucking months Ally!" he screamed throwing his whiskey glass on the wall. "I trust you i do, but this? Rick is in town and this will be his perfect get-go to fuck you!"
I sobbed uncontrollably. "I don't love him anymore, don't you get it. You are leaving in two weeks. Can't we just be reasonable about this?" I asked. "I will rather drown my self in work and having date nights with Maggie than be out with my ex, i don't love him like i love you okay, how many times should i prove to you!"
Andrew closed his eyes shaking his head side to side. "Maybe i should quit."
"What no!" i walked up to him. "You just wanna quit on your fans, you can't quit on Black Veil Brides, it is just three months Andy. Just three."
"It does not make it easier nor harder; You don't get it Alyssa," He breathed brushing his hair back. "I can't just leave you."
"You will." I whispered pressing my lips to his. "You don't belong here, you belong out on the road, saving people. But i will still be here. We have been through so much. So, so much Andrew." i wrapped my arms around his neck placing my head on his chest. "I won't do anything stupid,"
"Do you really love me?" He asked looking down to me. "Do you?"
"Yes. I do. Can we just make love and forget about this conversation please."
He nodded and placed his lips on mine devouring my mouth ripping open my blouse. "I need as much of you, before i go."
Month one.
"It has been a month." Maggie snaps. "Oh come on. You don't like his music but you have black veil brides songs on repeat and you have been watching his interviews and music videos every single day, lets go out." She whined.
"I miss him okay. I just need him with me." I grumbled wrapping myself in his old shirt. "He possessed me," I whimper. "I am obsessed with him."
"And not a few months ago you hated the man," Maggie sighed crashing on the edge of the bed. "You wanna feel his lips on yours, his embrace."
"Maggie?" i looked up. "What's wrong?"
She laughed and lifted up her finger. "Jack asked me to marry him and i said yes."
My eyes grew wide and for a moment my sadness vanished as i hugged my best friend. "Oh my god, congrats." I pulled back and grinned. "Have you decided on a date yet?" grabbing her finger i examine the ring. "Good taste indeed."
"Bitch please, i picked it out myself." I could not help hut laugh. "Anyway you will be my maid of honor you that right?"
"Duh! okay we have to celebrate." I grinned jumping off the bed. "What do you say we hit the streets."
"Better idea." She pouted. "We are having a party and Alex's house." Grin vanished. "I want you to come."
"No! the man kissed me and i am still avoiding him. Please don't make me go."
"You are going and that's it." She snapped walking to my closet, she grabbed a pair of washed jeans and a red tank top. "Get dressed."
"Fine."
I was nervous. I am nervous. I am fucking nervous. "Hello." Alex opened the door but his gaze came to me. "Finally." He breathed.
"Hi Alex." I grimaced. He opened the door wider letting me and Maggie in. Maggie ran to the Jack as he kissed her. I missed Andy kissing me, touching me. "Nice place."
"I have missed you. I am sorry about your father."
"Thank you."
"Want something to drink?" He asked placing his hand on my lower back. "I heard you love your sex on the beach."
"No thank you, i don't drink anymore." I grumbled biting the bottom of my lip.
Maggie turned to Alex. "And also don't smoke in front of her, she gets sick." i gave a nod and walked into the living room seeing people talking and laughing. My best friend grabbed me by the hand and pulled me into the kitchen. "Are you okay?"
"I am fine." Just missing Andy. "I am just a bit dizzy that's all."
"Ally can i have a sex please?" Alex mumbled. I gave a nod as he lead me to the backyard. He waved to the lawn chair. I sat down as he sat opposite me on the railing. "I am in love with you, you know that right?"
"I am married to Andy, I love him." I whispered playing with my fingers. "Please don't make it harder than it is already. Don't tare me down,"
"You have opened the door now, don't let it closed."
I gulped hard shaking my head. "I am sorry Alex, "
Alex came to me and lowered him between my legs grabbing my hands. "Don't break me down. I want to believe this is for real, safe my from my fear, don't you tare me down, for all i need, make my heart a better place."
"I am pregnant." I chocked out. "Alex i am pregnant."
"I don't care Alyssa, i am in love with you. Pleas i am begging you."
Tears formed on my cheeks as i shook my head. "I am sorry, i have to go." i pulled myself up from the chair running into the house. All colors seemed to fade away, i can reach my soul. "I have to go." I whispering to Maggie. She gave me nod and kissed my cheek before i ran out of the house straight to the car.
I climbed out of the car and shut it. Walking to my door way my breathed hitched. "Rick, please not now." i mumbled grabbing the key from my jean pocket. "I am not in the mood."
"I am not leaving till you tell me you don't love me anymore." He snapped twirling me around.
"I don't love you anymore, i love Andy and i am going to have his child. Just leave me the hell alone."
"I am not giving up on you Al, i am not." He groaned.
I burst into tears pushing him back. "leave me alone please, why don't you and Alex leave me alone i happy!" i opened the door and shut it, locking it. i ran upstairs with tears in my eyes.
I grabbed my cell and typed in Andy's number. I walked into the bathroom gazing at myself through the mirror. I have become numb, "Hello?" He answered.
"Uh," i held down my tears. "Its me Ally,"
"God its good to hear your voice. I miss you."
"I miss you to to. Andy uh, how is the tour so far?" I whispered seeing my eyes watering once again. Save me Andy. Save me from the nothing i have become. You told me you will bring me back to life.
"It has been good, love seeing the army with smiles on the their faces." He chuckled. "More importantly is there a smile on yours?"
"No not really." I admitted eyeing my pale face expression. "I just wanted to uh let you know-" that i am pregnant. "I am going to sleep now. Uh i love you."
"I love you too." He whispered.
I slide the phone from my ear pressing the red button. i began to laugh and just shook my head. "Without the mask ,Where will you hide? Can't find yourself Lost in your lie
I know the truth now I know who you are And I don't love you anymore It never was and never will be You don't know how you've betrayed me and somehow you've got everybody fooled."
Well im obsessed
3/27/16