I've Given You My Heart To Break..

I re-read the text. Should I reply? Or act like I'm already asleep even though I'm not? Why isn't he sleeping himself? No.. Why did I wake up this morning? Why did I take my shower this late?
Well.. Why did I met him?
I think I will reply tomorrow, I am too tired for now. Plus, what would I say? What did he mean by hang out? With who? It could never be just him and I?! Or maybe.. Maybe you should stop over-thinking every single shit this man say?
I sigh and curl up around a pillow. I should stop thinking about him at all. He is not for me. And in anyway he must think of me like a friend, or even a friend's friend! So why can't I stop thinking about him? Maybe because he's the first man to make you feel like this? The first to make you think about him instead of sleeping?

That was true. Even my last boyfriend -and the first too- never made me feel like this! Just to tell you: even when my last boyfriend and I had sex I never felt like when Andy's hand was on mine.. What a shame! It's not that Tomy was a bad guy.. But he couldn't outstand this.. Stranger?!
I feel my phone buzzing again.. Couldn't he give up? I'm sleeping!!

'Andy: Well, you're sleeping. Can I see you tomorrow? I know you work at night, hope you will reply :)'

Fuck you Andy! Like really? Tomorrow? I'm still trying to get rid of you and you already want to see me?
I think I need some sleep.. Tomorrow everything will be fine.

The next morning, I wake up as late as usual. I turn around and see my phone.. Andy!
Shit! I didn't plan on thinking about him! Not just when I wake up!
“Angie? You're awake?” I see my best friend's head popping from the door, I just groan in reply.
“There's someone on the phone for you..” what? Suddenly I'm fully awake. Is it..? No it can't be!
I jump out of bed and literally run to the living room to take the phone. Okay, maybe not running with my thighs.. But I can swear I'm getting crazy over that guy!
“Hello?” please my heart, calm the fuck down!
“Angie?” no. It's not Andy. Not at all..
“Yes Jenny?” I reply, managing not to sigh. Jennifer is a 'friend' of mine. More like a friend when she needs me, she only call/text/take news when she needs something!

“How are you? And Alex?” I roll my eyes. Bitch, just tell me what you want!
“What did you need Jenny?” I ask as nicely as I could. This time, I wonder what it is..
“Uh.. Could you replace me for one or two hours?” Whaaat?!
“What? Wait, wait, wait, wait, wait.. When? Next week?” please, say yes! So that I could say no because next week I work on breakfast and lunches, so I won't be able to 'replace' her as she works on mornings..
“Uh.. Today? In.. An hour?” Say whaaat?! I'm not a robot!
“Jenny I can't. I worked last night and I work tonight again. I can't replace you just today. You should have asked yesterday or a few days ago..”
“Please, please, pleeaase! Angie! You can't let me in this trouble!” I sigh.. But I have to keep a 'no'..
“Angie? If you do it.. I promise I won't ask anything and I'll owe you forever!”
“Okay.. In one hour.. But for two hours max!” she squealed happily before hanging up.

I definitely need to learn how to say no.. But I can't. That's how I am. I'm 'too nice' and I always end up helping everyone around and they never help me.. I'm like a slave. And they know it. They keep on asking, because they know I'll always be there..

I walk back to my room and let my body fall on my bed. Yes, I like to do that. Hearing my phone buzzing I took it to see a third message from Andy..

'Andy: Hi! You're awake? So.. Are you free for today?'

I groan. Thanks to Jenny now I'm not anymore! So instead of spending a day with the only man able to make me feel fire, I will be welcoming horrible clients with a welcoming -fake- smile..
Yes, Jenny works in a bakery -that's how we know each other- and with her fake boobs and smile she's perfect for her job. Contrary to me she can't cook -not even an egg- but she's a good seller, she can make you take a wedding cake when you were there for a bread.. And she can also make me work for her for free..

'Angie: Sorry, this morning is taken. Maybe this afternoon?'

I press send and regret it immediately. Well, Andy may make me feel fire.. But he's still Andy! And I have no clue of what he want.. With me?! He really seemed to care last night when we talked about our different jobs, but who could logically be interested in me?!

'Andy: Yay! This afternoon, 2PM? Your place?'

I agreed, but not long after realized Alex wouldn't be there.. Shit!

Notes

I need to learn to say no too..