I've Given You My Heart To Break..

I wake up, naked.. And alone! Where's Andy? Why isn't he with me? Last night was incredible! Well, like always, because to be honest, it's Andy who is incredible! I sit straight and wait for my eyes to get used to the light.. Andy is nowhere to be seen..

Maybe he's with his REAL girlfriend now? Maybe.. Just maybe! He just fucked you, then went to the person he REALLY loves?

My eyes tear up a little to my angel's words. That's true.. I'm just Andy's sex-toy.. Just for fun. There's no kind of feelings between us. He said it himself! He's only looking for a “fresh pussy” whenever he wants. That's all I am. Then why was it so nice last night? Why was he worried about me? People aren't worried about their sex-toys..?!

Ahaha! About that? He was just worried about who could touch his sex-toy.. He doesn't want to share it. He doesn't care about you the smallest.. Why would he stay? Don't make a movie in your head! He's not gonna bake you breakfast, he's not gonna bring you to his parents.. Hell! You don't even know where he lives! There won't be any fairy tale!

So. Damn. True. I don't know shit about this man. I don't know where he lives, or what he likes. Except for Alex, I don't even know any of his friends! But there was no need for me to know these, as he only wanted me for sex right? I don't know him personnally. I just know his body, what he likes in bed.. And even that, I don't know it totally. He's just a mystery, Andy the alien.

I wipe my eyes that I didn't even realize was crying. Why am I crying? I'm so stupid. I knew this whole shit was.. Well a shit! I knew since the beginning that he isn't interrested in me for romance, love and all.. So why am I hurt? I'm not allowed to complain when I created and agreed to this.

I stand up and put on my pantie. Time to go I guess. Until the next shot. Andy is a real drug, as dangerous and addictive as cocaïne, heroin, alcohol...
I wipe my face, quickly do the bed and start dressing me.. God! How can someone be that stupid? I bet he's with the beautiful Juliet now, kissing her, caressing her, loving her.. As if I could attract a man for more than sex.. I'm so stupid! Really!
Andy said himself it was just sex, and now he's gone -btw, how the fuck am I getting back home?- then Tommy admitted he was with me just because he wanted me in his bed.. How fabulous!

Where are my shoes? When I finally find them under the bed I hear the door getting unlocked. Who the hell is there? I stand up straight as fast as I can and.. Ouch!
“Are you okay?” Andy? What the hell are you doing here?
“Uh.. I can go if you want..” he replies with a chuckle. I guess I said that out loud.. Shit!
I feel two hands around my waist, pulling me up.
“Here.. You still want me to go?” I look up at his blue eyes and get lost for a second, maybe two. I slowly shake my head. No. I don't want him to go. Ever.

“That's great.. Because your car is still in the parking of your restaurant.” he adds with a smile. My eyes automatically fall to his lips. Why is he there? To drive me back home? Then why did he leave? Why so many question?
“You want them?” I look up at his eyes with a puzzled look. What is he talking about? Did I miss something? What do I want?

Andy wrapp and hand around the back of my neck and pull me to him. The kiss is way softer than usual. And yes. I want them. His lips.

Notes

Sorry it's been ages.. And sorry this is short
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