I've Given You My Heart To Break..

Alex and I talk for a while then she says she has to go see.. I don't remember the name. So I walk back to my room and sat on my bed with my book.
A few pages of fake reading later -yes, fake reading, this moment when you read, but you're thinking about something else so you don't remember shit of what you read..- I grab my phone and decide to call him first..
Hoe! I roll my eyes and call him.

One ring.. two.. Three..
“Hello?” shit.. It's.. It's her! My heart start to beat incredibly fast and I don't know what to say..
“Hello? Who is this?” I just hang up.. Unable to say a word.. God! I'm a whore!
I feel like shit.. It was his girlfriend. Juliet. The girl he actually loves.. Shit!
I won't call him first again! Ever!
I don't want to say I told you but.. I told you! I sigh, my angel is right. I'm a hoe. Fucking someone else's boyfriend!

Well.. I need to think about this whole thing.. I need to stop this before some bigger shit happen! Because I can feel like it's going to get even worse..
I also need some rest. I barely slept last night with the whole Tommy thing. I still can't believe he almost did that to me! But well, I have to accept it..
I curl around my pillow and fall in a deep sleep.

I wake up to my phone ringing.. Who the fuck is that? I couldn't even sleep one hour?!
“Hello?” my voice sounds horrible.. Why am I awake?
“Angie?” Andy? Suddenly I'm fully awake! My heart beat faster and.. Oh shit!
“Andy? Oh.. uh Hi!” he chuckles a bit.
“Juliet told me you called but she couldn't hear you and it cut.. Are you okay?” no! Not at all! You're disturbing me! And the fact you're taken is even more disturbing!
“Uh.. Yeah! I'm fine! It's.. It's okay!” Liar!

“Okay.. What did you want then?” shit! Shit again! What can I say? I wanted to see you but I fell on your girlfriend so I couldn't tell her..?
“No.. Nothing important.. It's okay” I lie.
“If you say so.. When can we see each other?” my heart skip a beat.. He wants to see me?
Hoe! Bitch! Whore! Cheap slut! Stop it with him noooooow!

But of course I don't listen to my angel and think about when we could 'see' each other..
“Tonight? Or tomorrow morning?”
“The sooner the best. I'll come pick you..” I can almost hear his smile.. I sigh. I don't feel in the mood of seeing him.. At all!
“I'm coming tonight.. After your work.. See you there.” I agree then hung up.

Shit.

I totally forgot I have to go to work.. Which mean to see Tommy. I know he won't try anything. Last night Andy almost killed him. But I can't help feeling scared. I don't want to see him, to have any contact with this man! The only thought of him and I want to throw up! I can still remember his hand down here. What if he try again? What if this time nobody can help me..?

I sigh as I stand up. I can't fear him. I have to face him. Or else I would have to leave my job. And I would not do that for a man! Never!

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