I've Given You My Heart To Break..

I wake up in the middle of the night.. I'm in an unknown bed.. In an unknown room. I turn around to see Andy.. Shit! I suddenly remember what happened last night..
I look up to see my Angel shaking her head, while my demon is smoking a cigarette, in a jacuzzi! I sigh. I have to admit it. I just had sex three fucking times with a man in a fucking relationship!
Whore.. whispers my angel and I sigh again.

I sit straight and look down at Andy. He seems so peaceful, so cute, so nice.. Nothing in common with the beast who fucked me last night. Neither with the man who convinced me to forget about the fact he's taken to have sex with him!
You're not all innocent.. Oh shut up! Now he looks like the nice friendly man I first met. But once I met the evil side I just can look at him in the same way..

I stand up and take my clothes. I quickly put them on and make sure I didn't forget anything. I quickly go to the bathroom to clean my face and brush my hair. Then I take my bag.. Well, goodbye Andy? I don't think I'll ever see him again.. So I walk to him and gave him a quick peck on the cheek. He mumbles in his sleep and I can't help but smile..
“Hmm.. Lowe you Juliet..” my smile fade away and my heart hurt a bit.. Yep, it's time to move on. I walk out of the room and close the door behind myself.

I walk to my car and climb in. But once inside.. I just can't hold it anymore. I break down in tears. Once again I don't even know why. But I cry until I can't anymore. I am a whore. A cheap slut.
At least it was good.. Really good! The best ever!
I smile weakly. Yes it was good, even if I'm not sure it worthed it.. But what's done is done and in a few hours I have work so time to go!

I drive home and park my little car. I sigh. I should go fast to my bed, sleep for the two hours left and get ready for a new day.. But I'm still thinking about Andy!
I'm so damn stupid! I bet tomorrow he'll be thinking about a brunette or something.. I would never -like ever- have thought Andy was a fucking cheater! Like really? He seemed so nice and all..
I sigh, walking out of the tiny car. I then walk in my building to the elevator. I'm not tired, I'm exhausted! I walk in and lock the door behind me.. It's three in the fucking morning. I need my bed and my Teddy bear..

“Angie! How was it?” whispers/yells Alex. God!Why isn't she sleeping? I don't want to talk, specially about this. I want my bed and my.. Well, you know it already! Plus I can't tell her with who I was.. After all Andy is Alex's friend.. I don't want to break a friendship!
“Hi Alex.. I'm tired. Could we talk about it.. Like later?”
“No!! Tomorrow, I mean later, you'll be working until 1PM! Then I have a meeting at two so we won't see each other until like five or even later!” she whines. I sigh again but keep shaking my head. Even if I can't say no.. I must shut my mouth about Andy's and I's.. Affair.
“Please please please!!!” she begs. I fake yawn and she finally gives up.

I walk to my room and crash on my bed..
It felt sooo amazing! You need to do it again! I face-palm. How can my demon be so stupid?
But you listened to me tonight tho.. Yes. I have been even more stupid. I followed my body, not my head. I didn't think. I acted. And at least, it felt incredible!
The simple idea of my night and I blush. Last night I rod a man for the first time ever. I did rod a horse when I was a child.. But a man? It was hotter! It was even better when he grabbed my hips to go faster and.. Okay. I need to calm down before I get wet again.. Three time. How was it even possible?

I wake up again and it's almost six.. Shit! I'm almost late! Why didn't I wake up at 5 like usual?
Because you were having fun last night.. I told you it was stupid.. I look up at my angel and just sigh. She's right. I jump out of bed and pick my outfit. Then run to the bathroom to go out five minutes later. I don't have any time to loose!
I walk to the kitchen and grab an apple.. I'm in a weirdly good mood today.. But well, who cares? I'm late! So I run to my car and drive to the hotel/restaurant.

As usual I take my apron and start working as soon as possible. This morning I'm designated to creams, for the pastries, cakes.. So I start mixing..

It's finally my break! I walk out of this place to get some air.. 10 AM. I have one hour of rest. So I go for a walk.. Later I pull my phone out of my pocket. I could play for the remaining time? But I unlock my phone.. To be fucking shocked..

Notes

Week end! I wanted to update before but well.. I fell asleep u_u
Anyway, I hope you still like it.

As I said before, this story is a may like may hate, there's no in between ;)