The Outcasted
Week after Warped and I'm a mess (Part one)
-Stray POV-
Its been about a week since we arrived home from warped and honestly I'm a mess I havent eaten for a week or showered, I literally havent stepped foot out of my room my room is a mess and my mind is a blurr. Am I really in love? No I cant be its not possible. I'm not capable of love I'm ugly, fat, a failure I shouldnt be here. This is what its been like the past week, my mind and demons constantly reminding me of how worthless I am, CC will never love me and I'm just a nonsense and pain in the ass for Tristan.
I look around my room thinking "Damn I gotta clean my room" but I never really get to doing it cos honestly I'm too fucking depressed to do anything. I've legit been in the same clothes for the past week and im starting to smell but once again I dont really care. I was in some trackies, an "i cant stop watching youtubers" pull over and my hair was in a messy bun.
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Ugh I honestly dont know what to do I am honestly scared. No, scared would be an understatement, but im also angry at myself for letting this happen, I honestly just want to curl in a ball and die.
"Stray if you dont tell me whats wrong I'm gunna have to call your brother. I dont want to but somethings wrong and you are honestly a mess Stray, I care about you and I hate seeing you like this, Please tell me whats up?" Tristan said sternly but comfortingly.
I just shook my head and turned away.
I heard Tristan sigh,
"Im sorry Stray but I dont know what else to do" Tristan said then walked out to most likely the lounge room. And now my tears start to flow again great.
-Ashley POV-
Its been a week and I'm worried sick about Stray, I havent heard anything from her or any of her band mates. I really hope she is okay. I started playing some game on my phone trying to distract my mind but then I got a text from Tristan;
Tristan: Hey man uhm I need your help, Stray is depressed as fuck but she wont tell me whats wrong, she hasnt talked to anyone the whole week and she hasnt done anything just sat in her room doing nothing, No showers, little amounts of food when I force her and her room is a mess! Please come over and try and help, Sorry I didnt come to you sooner man I thought she needed space but she got worse.
Ash: Shit man yeah ofcoarse I'll come over, whats your address?
Tristan: 43 Trent Lane.
Ash: Alright ill be there in a sec.
After that I sprinted out to my bike and rode to Tristans house not caring that i was in my pyjamas still I need to get to my sister and I need to get there quickly. http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=140004440
-Stray POV-
About 20 minutes later I hear foots thundering up to my room then my room door swinging open.
"Stray hun, whats wrong?" Ashley said while pulling me to his side.
This is exactly what I needed, I needed my brother, I needed to be in my brothers arms so thats exactly what I did, I turned over and clung to Ash while crying into his chest.
"Ssssh its okay bub its okay, I'm here, I've got you" Ashley said while holding me close.
"Ash, I, I'm in love, But I'm so scared" I sobbed after calming down a little.
"awe hun, I know love is scary but its worth it. Especially CC, he will look after you like your so fragile and he will spoil you like a princess. Stray I know its hard for you but I guarantee that Chuppy will take care of you, You're beautiful, smart, funny and the most loving person behind those walls that you need to let down, not to everyone but to us because we all hate you seeing you like this we just want you happy" Ashley responded looking me in the eye.
"Thanks Ash, It means alot, Im just afraid of being hurt again" I said wiping my eyes.
"I know hun but everyone feels like that, how about I take you out for the day? some brother sister bonding time, I know exactly where I'm going to take you" Ashley said confidently.
"I dont have a choice do I?" I said with a slight smile on my face.
"Haha Nope" Ashley said while pushing me towards the shower.
"Now have a shower and get ready you stink, ill be downstairs" Ashley said while chucking me a towel then walking out of my room.
Its been about a week since we arrived home from warped and honestly I'm a mess I havent eaten for a week or showered, I literally havent stepped foot out of my room my room is a mess and my mind is a blurr. Am I really in love? No I cant be its not possible. I'm not capable of love I'm ugly, fat, a failure I shouldnt be here. This is what its been like the past week, my mind and demons constantly reminding me of how worthless I am, CC will never love me and I'm just a nonsense and pain in the ass for Tristan.
I look around my room thinking "Damn I gotta clean my room" but I never really get to doing it cos honestly I'm too fucking depressed to do anything. I've legit been in the same clothes for the past week and im starting to smell but once again I dont really care. I was in some trackies, an "i cant stop watching youtubers" pull over and my hair was in a messy bun.
http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=140003740
Ugh I honestly dont know what to do I am honestly scared. No, scared would be an understatement, but im also angry at myself for letting this happen, I honestly just want to curl in a ball and die.
"Stray if you dont tell me whats wrong I'm gunna have to call your brother. I dont want to but somethings wrong and you are honestly a mess Stray, I care about you and I hate seeing you like this, Please tell me whats up?" Tristan said sternly but comfortingly.
I just shook my head and turned away.
I heard Tristan sigh,
"Im sorry Stray but I dont know what else to do" Tristan said then walked out to most likely the lounge room. And now my tears start to flow again great.
-Ashley POV-
Its been a week and I'm worried sick about Stray, I havent heard anything from her or any of her band mates. I really hope she is okay. I started playing some game on my phone trying to distract my mind but then I got a text from Tristan;
Tristan: Hey man uhm I need your help, Stray is depressed as fuck but she wont tell me whats wrong, she hasnt talked to anyone the whole week and she hasnt done anything just sat in her room doing nothing, No showers, little amounts of food when I force her and her room is a mess! Please come over and try and help, Sorry I didnt come to you sooner man I thought she needed space but she got worse.
Ash: Shit man yeah ofcoarse I'll come over, whats your address?
Tristan: 43 Trent Lane.
Ash: Alright ill be there in a sec.
After that I sprinted out to my bike and rode to Tristans house not caring that i was in my pyjamas still I need to get to my sister and I need to get there quickly. http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=140004440
-Stray POV-
About 20 minutes later I hear foots thundering up to my room then my room door swinging open.
"Stray hun, whats wrong?" Ashley said while pulling me to his side.
This is exactly what I needed, I needed my brother, I needed to be in my brothers arms so thats exactly what I did, I turned over and clung to Ash while crying into his chest.
"Ssssh its okay bub its okay, I'm here, I've got you" Ashley said while holding me close.
"Ash, I, I'm in love, But I'm so scared" I sobbed after calming down a little.
"awe hun, I know love is scary but its worth it. Especially CC, he will look after you like your so fragile and he will spoil you like a princess. Stray I know its hard for you but I guarantee that Chuppy will take care of you, You're beautiful, smart, funny and the most loving person behind those walls that you need to let down, not to everyone but to us because we all hate you seeing you like this we just want you happy" Ashley responded looking me in the eye.
"Thanks Ash, It means alot, Im just afraid of being hurt again" I said wiping my eyes.
"I know hun but everyone feels like that, how about I take you out for the day? some brother sister bonding time, I know exactly where I'm going to take you" Ashley said confidently.
"I dont have a choice do I?" I said with a slight smile on my face.
"Haha Nope" Ashley said while pushing me towards the shower.
"Now have a shower and get ready you stink, ill be downstairs" Ashley said while chucking me a towel then walking out of my room.
Notes
Hey guys I'll update part two in like half hour <3
I'd like just found your story and loved it! I'm so happy you're back!
10/26/16