Joana's POV
"Weren't you drunk last night?" I asked, looking away from his blue eyes.
"Uh.. Yeah. I'm sorry about that. I mean the fact I was drunk, not the kiss." I felt myself blushing again. It would be an horrible lie to say I regretted this kiss, but I didn't want to get into relationship anymore.
"About what he said..?" I looked up at him, Andy had a crooked smile.
"What?
-Jinxx.." I jumped out of bed but instantly felt arms pulling me back. My heart stopped.

"Andy.." was all I could say.
"I will never hurt you Jo'. Please don't be scared of me.." but my heart kept beating too fast and the urge of being released made me almost unable to breath.

If she flinch when you put an arm around her.. Maybe someone else's hand once wasn't as sweet.

Andy turned me around and softly pressed his lips to mine, and I finally feel a bit better. He slowly pull away, but his face is painted with concern. I'm sorry Andy, I really am.
"Jo... Who did that to you?" I shook my head. It wasn't important. The man sighed, but didn't ask more.
"Why did you get drunk last night?" I asked.
"Well... So many reasons. But I think the main one was.. I.. I was worried about you. About what England did to you." I looked down. It was all my fault? Again?
"If I knew it, six years earlier I would have kidnapped you." I giggled. Andy? Kidnapping the bother-annoying-immature-dead-weight I was? I don't think so.

"Jinxx was right." I breathed out. He raised both eyebrows.
"Me..? But what did I have?" I sighed.
"I don't know. But it was a long time ago...
-It means you don't like me anymore?" I looked down, not replying. In all honesty, I didn't know myself. Love sucks. That's a fact. But did I still have feelings for Andy? Maybe.
"I can understand you didn't want me six years ago..
-Why?" he asked and we both acted as if he didn't ask about my currents feelings.

"I.. I was.. I was stupid. And loud. And always saying ton of shit. And immature. And I was annoying you on a daily basis and..
-Who said you were annoying me?
-B.. But I was! And you were avoiding me!" I said, frowning and refusing to cry.
"Yes, that's kind of true.." he replied, looking down. You see?
"But it wasn't for the same reasons.." I looked at him, confused.

"Back then.. You know.." Andy ran his hand in his hair, was he nervous? He sighed.
"Well.. I.. Remember when you turned 15..? That's when I first noticed you. At the party.. I didn't see my pink-haired little sister anymore. I saw.. A woman. You had gown up and I hadn't even realized it yet. But then I did, and you woke up something in me.. That day I would have killed to kiss those lips, while grabbing your hips.. *chuckle* but I knew I couldn't. I shouldn't. You were Jinxx and Onyx's little sister.. So I brushed it off, thinking it was just at the moment. But oh! I was wrong.. I couldn’t have been more wrong! A month later it was only getting worse! Even when I wanted to avoid you I could see you and feel you there. Your multi colored hair making it harder not to notice you.. And you weren't helping.. Always hugging, caressing or kissing me! Now I know why, but before I almost thought you were doing it on purpose.. I was 16, and not that much older than you, but I still wanted to protect you.. From me. So a while after I turned to Scout, yes, she was older but she could certainly know what I could -and would- want. Because I didn’t want to take your innocence. I felt like I didn’t deserve it. Honestly it was great. Even if it wasn’t you.

But suddenly you left. I could see you, but there was no more hugs and kisses. That was normal since I was in a relationship and you respected it. And I was both happy and sad you weren’t innocently torturing me anymore.. But I still missed it.
But, after that you left for good. The first time I heard about you wanting to go with Onyx to ENGLAND I felt broken, because even if my body had weird reaction with you around, you were still my adorable rainbow-colored friend. The day you left I felt my heart broke a little. I got mad. But I couldn’t change a thing. Jojo was moving away. No more colorful girl… Then you never came back. Jojo left and died in England. You are there, but there is still no more colors, no more smiles, no more hugs.. And I really miss my first crush.”

He whispered the last part, stroking my hair, his chin on the top of my head. He was right, ‘Jojo’ was dead in England. Dead and buried.
“I.. I’m sorry Andy.” he slightly pulled me closer and I buried my face in his chest.
“It’s okay baby.” ‘I’m not a baby Andy!’ was how I would have reacted back then, but maybe the ‘baby’ wasn’t in that way?

"I.. I promise I'll tell you everything.."

Notes

Shadow
Hey guys <3
I'm deeply sorry it has been so long (a year :O) but we both had HUGE writing blocks. So well, to be forgiven, here a longer and important chapter! :)
Love you all <3