Onyx's Point Of view
I noticed Joana tensing up.. But we had to talk about it..
“What's with him?” I sighed.
“Andy want to know what happened to you.. He almost got violent to know.” she looked at me surprised. Then raised her eyebrows.

“Andy?” she slowly shook her head.
“They are all the same..” she whispered. I put my hand on her shoulder and gave it a little squeeze.
“They aren't. Andy was worried about you and-”
“No! He isn't worried! He never cared for me! And it won't start now! I won't tell him anything!” I sighed.

“Did he hurt you? I'm gonna-”
“No.. He didn't. I think he both want to know and is scared of the story..” she sighed again.
“I won't tell anyone. Never” she whispered to herself.
“I know it hurt you to talk about it.. But Andy deserve to know..” she turned to me with anger.

“He doesn't deserve shit! And for what? For never caring for me? Or maybe for ignoring me totally? Andy is the last person I would tell about.. About this.” Jo' looked down.

“You should consider therapy..” she sent me a death glare then just shook her head.
“I'm fine Nix.. It's been two years now.. It's okay.” I took her hand and mine and she finally looked up at me.. I could see she was holding back her tears.. But I didn't know what to do.
“It's not fine Jo.. On this point Andy was right. You barely talk and refuse any physical contact.. You should talk about it..”

“Fine.. But I won't talk to a total stranger.. Neither to Andy!”
“Who then?” she bit her lip and shrugged.
“I don't know.. Who? A therapist would just be a person who listen to me for my money.. Then no one really care for me.. No.. I.. Except you. But.. You know.” I nodded, I knew what she meant..

“I might call Jinxx.. He's the only one except you who kinda care for me..” I smiled at her. But before I could say anything she lowered her head and sighed.
“No.. Even.. Even if I really likes him.. He's still a man..” shit.. I forgot about this detail. But she need help, she really does! Even if she refuse to admit it!

“As you want.. But maybe you should talk with Andy?” she suddenly lifted her head and I realized she was crying..
“About what? I don't want to.. To bother him! I used to and he almost hated me.. I was a dead-weight for him. I'll just leave him alone and he'll be fine!” I pulled my best friend to me and hugged her.

“Don't say that. Andy doesn't hate you-”
“No.. But he used to. He doesn't need me in his life and will be better with someone older..” she cried on my shoulder. I just hushed her until she stopped crying..

“Mommy? Why is auntie Joana crying?” we both turned to Callie and Joana wiped her tears away.
“Don't worry Callie I'm fine.. Come here.” my daughter walked to Jo and hugged her.

“Well, you may not tell him if you want.. But I wish you good luck.. He really does want to know.” Jo shrugged and stood up. Callie walked back to her room.
“I don't care.. I think I better not even talk to him. It will be easier that way.” I stood up too.
“So you'll push him out of your life? Why? You used to love him remember?”
“LOVE DOESN'T EXIST! So why bother?” I shook my head.

“Love does exist. I love Jinxx..”
“Yeah and he doesn't care about you! He's married!” that hurt. Bad.
“I'm sorry Nyx.. I.. I didn't mean it.. But you know..”
“I know. But it's not a reason.. You can't say that. And I know he's married.. But I can't help it.”
“That exactly what I'm saying! That's how they are! All of them! You love them and they just don't give a shit! Who I loved ever loved me? My family never did! Andy didn't give a single fuck! Then there was Josh..” her voice fainted and tears formed back in her eyes.. Shit.

Notes

I am your Shadow..