I cut myself with knives and pens

I lay in my bed, all alone. This was the first night they had decided to take the machines of me so there wasn't a single sound in the room.
I didn't like it.
I liked the beeping noises of the machines. They really got on my nerves but I preferred it over no sound. Honestly I was dying because I hadn't listened to music in ages. Probably a week or so and this really was killing me. Music was my escape from life, without it, everything felt so...real. And I couldn't take reality. Laying on my own in this bed...the only thoughts going through my head were would I die if I jumped out the window? Would that end it all?
I know I shouldn't be thinking like his, but the mental pain I was feeling was worse than ever.
The silence was killing me.
I didn't jump. I wish I had but I didn't want to fail and have to explain it to everyone. I looked down at my body. My scarred body. Some cuts still quite fresh.
I hated it! I hated the way I look! I hated everything about me! My phone was in the cupboard but I had no head phones and their was a nurse just the other room so she would hear of o played any music. I was supposed to just be going to sleep in silence but I couldn't take it! The silence wAs taking any toy bit off sanity I owned and tearing it too shreds. I was going more insane then I ever had before. It was awfully painful.
Then I heard a noise. A small sound coming from my mobile. I had a message. From an unknown number.
Unknown: Go to the window
I must be insane to do what it said but I was too curious to not. My feet reached for the floor, and that was quite a reach since I was such a migit. This was the first time I had stood up in ages. The weight of my body made my ankles loose balance and I tumbled to the ground. Luckily I somehow managed to not make a sound. I got back up and put one foot in front of the other until o was walking towards the window. I got there and swung it open. It was too dark to see to the bottom. I could see car headlights and make out 5 people but I couldn't see details of anything. I noticed something coming from them up to the window. As it got closer I could see it was a balloon with something g tied to the bottom. I reached for it and pulled it inside. Tied to the bottom was a small teddy with a flower and a note which read
"hey Storm, really hoping you get better soon, we need you too stay strong" there was no name at the bottom so o had no idea who it was from. I couldn't tell from handwriting as it had been typed. I went back to the window and hear was driving off. I didn't even get to say thanks.

Notes

Sorry its been a while
Ive been busy
But I'll try to update more regularly