Razer blades and pencils

it had ben 2 weeks sense i ran and my howl life had change all 4 of the walls in my room where cover floor to ceiling with black veil brides quotes and drawings I had 9 different bvb stations on my phone and i just felt like a howl new person i woke up happier. It was the weekend and I was scrolling throw bvbfanfic.com when my mom walked in with my clean close see put them on my bed then walked over to me and looked at what i was reading then looked at my leg and i remberd that see did not know i had cut she grabs my phone
"what the hell woman" I yell standing up and waving my hands in the air
"you know the rule no blood you will get it back when they heal " and with that she left all my music was on there i knew i would cut again because the next time i was sad i would not be apply to plan savior to make me feel better.
I sat on the floor and looked at my walls I started to read of all the quotes
stand up for what you believe in even if that means standing alone
your only hurting the most important person in the world and thats you
i am the chosen wretched and diven
need i say more i felt better and 20 minuets latter i felt like i did not need my phone to have my music i had it in my heart and in my head but tomorrow was monday the thought downed on me
"how am i going to do this andy" i said to my wall
"your get through it i believe in you" i said for my way
"I dont want to go to school the people there hate me and they all know i cut now because of that field trip how can i face them with that in the air"
"if there your true friends Chrissy they will still like you"
"there my teachers you know that right"
"dont you have friends your age"
"no people my age are stupid i have more fun with adults or teenagers but I really like being alone the most I don't know why like now talking to you i would rather be here than at the pool with my friends witch i did today by the way don't do a belly flop of a high diving broad or you will be more red then a sun burned pig and it hurts"
"your so weird"
"video killed the radio star" I sang
"what are you doing"
I got my ipod and turned on Video killed the radio star cover by Pentatonix and started dancing Pentatonix is an accpella group that I loved. I danced around the room singing to the song. the song ended just as my sister Allyssa walked in
"do you have the paper for mondays DPG" she asked
"let me check" I said gaping my leather bag I puled it out then gave it to her she walked away
"your so weird" my wall said
"andy Chrissy mansfield spelled backwards is weird" I said
"you should hang out with young girls your are really cool kid"
"great now my friend that is not real is telling me to do what every one who is real to do i don't want to and i wont" I said i got up and grapped my and started to draw a few minuets later i looked down at the spimbalic black half mask form bvb wretched and divine but it was broken down the middle there was also a bvb rosary that was wrapped around the mask holding it together. I started to draw the texture of the dirt when my mom called me from down stairs I got up and walked to the living room
"why don't you show your dad what you did" my mom said
"why would I want to do that your just yell at me more"
"your mother asked you to do something christine" my dad said
"yeah I know what she said dose not mean I am going to do it" I said folding my arms in-front of my chest my dad stood up he was 6'3 about the same height as andy he towered over me
"christine mansfield" he boomed I sat down and pulled up my pant lag and buried my face in my hands
"oh chris why why do you do that" he asked
"no you have asked for enough" I say going up to my room and closed my door I curled in a ball and cried. I felt y dad sit next to me I scooted away from him
"go away plz"I said he pulled me close to him and I cried into his chest then he started to cry my dad was a strong man like an oak tree he rarely cried so It made me scared. then my mo came and she sat on the other side of me I don't remenber match after that mostly because I cried my self to sleep that one night
the next morning I stood at my desk holding my blade I looked at andy then at the blade I tried to think of andy looking at my scars and telling me to stop I tried singing savior then knives and pens then Carolyn nothing worked my want to cut was to strong I looked at my wall and whispered sorry then I walked in to closet and cut myself since I close to no room left from last time I could not do much so after I this i got up and got dressed then ate breackfist and left for school
"another day of hell" I said to my self as I started my walk to school

Notes

okay I lied I am counting this story I dont car if no one likes it i like it